ATTENTION: Sorry for not updating I just wasn't happy with this story and I think I've finally worked it all out I've completely redone the previous three chapters because chapter four was moving in the direction I wanted this story to go towards! I hope you guys still like it and don't hate me too much. This is almost a completely different story. So for this chapter to make sense I'd go back to chapter one and reread this from the beginning. On the plus side longer chapters! SO yay for readers…super sadness for my fingers though. But Enjoy!
I was floating. Or maybe I was drifting. Yes! Drifting was what it was and all I knew was I didn't feel pain anymore. The only thing I felt was a wave of warm wash over me. There was a tiny tug on my heart and then this beautiful lullaby began. I'd never heard anything like it and I couldn't help but relish in the feeling of getting closer to the tune as I began a decent downwards.
Mistress, open your eyes.
The song stopped and those words were spoken right by my ear. Slowly I opened my eyes. I was shocked to see what could only be a dog the size of a bear. Large violet eyes bore into my brown ones. I slowly began shaking, fear coursed through my entire body as I started to crawl backwards. Was this a hell hound come to take me to the netherworld? Or worse eat me! The beast cocked its head to the side as if it heard my question. Looking closer at the colossal canine before me I noticed its mouth was open as if it were smiling, but not any smile it was more of a tender smile of love and caring. I flinched when it began to lean down towards me. I threw my hands up and prepared for the oncoming attack. Nothing happened, and then I felt the tip of something wet on my check, clenching every muscle I possessed I waited for the first bite to be made, but was caught off guard when I was licked? Wait what? Opening my eyes I looked in awe as my forearms were being licked clean of the blood that must of flown from my veins when I…when I, Hold on aren't I dead?
No you are not dead; you're unconscious and in your inner world.
"You can talk? My inner world, what the hell is going on?" I began to hyperventilate, hadn't I made the cuts deep enough? Glancing down at my forearms I noticed they had already begun to heal. No one was around to save me; did I dream my encounter with Inuya- with him?
Mistress calm down, this is the place you've created for your soul to reside in. Take a look.
With shaky breathes I turned around and took in my surroundings for the first time. It was night but the moon was full and high illuminating the terrain perfectly. Looking down I realized we were on a cloud and below me was a beautiful lake surrounded by freshly bloomed cherry blossoms and lush green grass.
Wow, it's beautiful. I've made this?
Yes, my lady. This is a reflection of how you're feeling right now. It is nice to not be in the rain anymore.
"Lady? Why do you keep addressing me in such a way?"
I only use the proper terms for the Heiress of the Eastern lands. With that said the dog sat down.
"Lady of the what?" Standing up I began pacing in front the canine, "This is crazy I'm talking to a dog the size of a freaking shed on a cloud in my what was it you said? Inner world? Ha I've gone mental. If this is life after death this is just a sick joke the Kami has played on me, lady of the east? Ha as if," Chuckling darkly I hadn't noticed how close to the edge of the cloud I'd been walking until I lost my footing and began to fall.
Shrieking I flailed about but for no reason the dog came to my rescue and I landed softly onto its back. With a gentle thud we landed on the grass. Sliding down the beasts' side I curled into the fetal position and began rocking myself back and forth clawing at my healing wounds. Blood soon flowed freely and grey clouds began forming above us. With a loud boom of thunder it began to rain. Curling into myself even further I had forgotten that I wasn't alone and when I heard the growling growing louder next to me, I screamed. I was picked up by my sweater and kicked out trying to get free. It wasn't until we were in a small cave that I was put down or dropped really.
Drenched from the rain I felt something warm trickle down my arms. Looking down I saw my sweater was soaked through from my elbow to wrist in my own blood. More growling shook me from my thoughts, fear once again ran through my veins as I noticed I was being circled by the huge beast. I tried to get into a crouch and counter circle the animal but I was overwhelmed with information and the blood loss causing me to fall onto my side. I felt like prey for a predator that could easily squash me with a paw. Huffing in defeat I just laid there waiting for whatever was to come.
My Precious Kagome, don't fear me, I will never harm you. But please stop hurting yourself. You are stronger than this, this is no joke played upon you child. You are a ruler of a whole nation. you come from a long line of proud Inu-witches. I am your guardian I've felt everything you have as if it were my won pain. I just listened as the beast continued talking. Explaining to me what I was apparently and were I came from.
My lady you are shivering. I hadn't realized I'd been shaking, my teeth chattering with the cold. Without invitation the dog warped itself around me and began ripping my clothes from my body. A soft whimper came from the hound at what was revealed. My legs and arms were covered with scares as well as my mid drift, most were old but a few were just beginning to scab. I had never shown anyone my body before for the fear of their reaction. But now a giant dog who apparently is half of my soul saw my shame, my hurt, deepest secrets all expressed in intricate cuts and slashes along my limbs. Again the dog lapped at my open wounds sealing with its saliva. The song I heard earlier began again; it was being hummed from the animal. Taking a deep calming breath I allowed myself to relax and to try and piece together what exactly was going on and whether or not this was real.
"If I'm what you say I am, than I'm not human am I? This is all so bizarre. It's more than that it's freaking insane. You're my guardian? Why have you chosen now of all times to come forward and tell me all of this. If I'm an heir to a nation than why am I not at some palace? Why am I living in a studio apartment? Where is my family?" I asked aloud.
No you are not human. I've been locked away inside your soul since the day your entire kingdom was taken.
"Taken? Why? Who did this?" I plopped down beside the creature.
Almost 100 years ago a most loathsome creature that with the help of your older sister slithered his way right into the palace stealing the throne and what is rightfully yours. You've already met him. Inuyasha.
Gasping" You're lying, he wouldn't… he couldn't. He's in high school with me, he can't be that old. I can't be that old I mean look at me," Shaking my head the dog demon continued.
You Inuyasha and your sister Kikyo have been in a sort of time loop for over a hundred years, because you have the gift of resurgence. Meaning you can never truly die but you will come back but each time it is a blank slate. You have died many times, and it is only through death that you can see me and know who you truly are. For the past fifty odd years Inuyasha and Kikyo have found a more convenient way of killing you and that is to break you down and have you do it for them.
"Kikyo? His new girlfriend is my sister? If what you say is true than I'm truly dead and even though you're telling me this I won't remember it when I come back again" Sitting up with in the warm cocoon I brought my legs to my chest and laid my head on my knees.
No little one I said you are unconscious; it seems our mate has finally decided to listen to his inner beast and save you.
"I'm unconscious? I failed at committing suicide? So what does that mean for me, for us?" Pausing I looked up with wide eyes, "Did you say mate?"
Chuckling softly, yes our mate. And don't you dare, feel ashamed for what you didn't do. I'm grateful as should you be. I don't know how you were able to get through to him but after years of watching you be reincarnated I think you've grown on the ice prince.
"Ice prince, you can't mean Seshomaru? There is no way he's my mate. I mean he's attractive and every girls dream but he's also dating Kagura and I mean I'm in no way his type. Not that I'd want to be I mean. But what does this mean for us for the future? If I've failed than wont they come after me now? I'll just be murdered in some Kami awful way and the cycle will continue."
The cycle will be broken this time because we have been reunited and out mate has finally acknowledged us… or at least his beast has.
"Wait a minute I'm only 18 shouldn't I be allowed to choose who I want to spend my life with? This can't be happening I've tried to kill myself and I get stuck in crazy land with a giant dog or wwhatever you are that can talk mind you and I'm supposed to believe my long lost sister who is sleeping with my boyfriend.. I mean ex-boyfriend has been killing me in a cycle for years. Tell me wise mystical dog have I got the gist of it?"
In so many words yes, but while you continue to think you are going crazy I can assure you are not. You are perfectly sane. I understand this is a lot to take in but having a mate is a thing of beauty.
"A thing of beauty? So my mate, wait does this mean Seshomaru knows we are meant to be together?"
Yes and no. He feels a pull to you, but he's not willing to acknowledge it. His beast however knows exactly what you are and knows he needs you just as I know you need him.
Sighing deeply I leaned against the giant dog. Tilting my head up I marveled at how calm I felt. "Don't get me wrong I'm still freaking out, but if this is all true than what do I have to do in order for the cycle to stop?"
This is a conversation for another time, it's appears you are about to be woken up. I would advise against mentioning that you've seen me.
"Wait, what about Inuyasha and everything… why can't I say anything?" I began hyperventilating and a feel slight tug as if I was trying to be forced upwards. I latched my arms around the dogs large paw trying to ground myself.
Shhh it'll all be ok Lady Kagome, I'll be here when you've gotten cleared to go home and we can resume out conversation, you've been asleep for three days the doctors are beginning to get worried you've fallen into a coma. I've simply been keeping you here so we could finally talk. As for saying anything we don't want them to get on that you know who you are until you've gotten a grip on yourself and powers. Now go!
With that said the large beast pushed me off of her paw and I began flying up into the air, tears began falling as I started too fell that creeping sense of abandonment flow through me. I began blinking a few times as the apparent sanctuary I created began to disappear. My vision was blurry at first as I groaned audibly trying to make the fog lift form my head. I decided on shaking my head a little and OUCH! big mistake...
In seconds there was a cool sensation my forehead, a sigh of relief left my mouth. "Don't move" that voice, it sounded familiar. Taking a deep breath I forced my eyes open and too focus, I was greeted with the sight of an angel white cascaded all around my face as I peered into deep gold eyes. A wave of calm washed over me and then I felt myself smiling. Those eyes stayed on me even when a stray stand of hair fell into this beautiful creatures face, effectively obstructing my view. My eyebrows knitting together I had to remove the offending lock. Reaching my hand up I swept the hair out of the way and ran my fingertips down the side of his purple streaked cheeks "that's better" I croaked out, a small smile gracing my lips. Owww my throat ached, I need some water. Before I could ask those eyes changed form a hypnotizing swirl of gold's and yellows to a shocking and vibrant array of reds. Gasping at the sudden change, "I said don't move!" He growled as he threw the cold rag aside and began cradling my wrist that was now bleeding through the gauze. Mumbling too himself about how careless and stubborn a girl I was. "Hey..no need to name call" I looked up suddenly and flung myself around the angel currently holding my wrist "Seshomaru!" a warning growl escaped from his lips and I let go. "Are you insane! I say don't move you move anyways, are you trying to bleed out to death?" eyeing him warily I cocked my head to the side "sorry, I just…" I didn't finish because crimson eyes looked into my violet ones and before I knew what happened we were kissing… wait Seshomaru? We are kissing? My wrists began aching and then it was like an entire piano dropped itself on my head and I remembered everything from running….and crying… slicing my wrists to doom… and I'm a princess? Oh my god! It's all real, wide eyed and breathing rapidly I pushed him away from me just in time to watch the gold bleed into his eyes and replace the red.
Before either of us could say anything the door swung open revealing a doctor and a nurse. "Ahh Ms. Higarashi I see you're awake finally." He said as he walked up and picked my chart form the end of the bed, giving it a quick once over he looked up and was startled to see me sitting in blood soaked bandages. "Nurse please see Mr. Taisho out of the room." The doctor ordered as he made his way over to me. Picking up my wrist I winced and pulled my hand back slightly and that's when everything seemed to slow down. "Maru no!"
So I hope yall will like this turn on the story! Let me know your thoughts I had a break in between finals and work and tried to get this chapter not to sound like nonsense haha!