Three different PoVs here but they all have significance as Brians relationships with them come from the way they see him. I like to imagine how Jasper and Alice or Emmett and Rosalie act when they are alone. See a softer side to our favorite vamps if you will. Just fyi I have this stories concept and main events down to roughly 30 years after this and trust me there is a plot that will thicken once Brian progresses past new born and his other problem. I just find it hard to find motivation to make them into chapters and post if I don't know if anyone is reading them. Please review if only to say it sucks or you like it =P

Still don't own twilight.

EPOV

Bella had been quiet for far too long. I had never wanted in her mind so strongly but she kept it shut suffering in silence. The joy we had felt that Renesmee had finally found a human friend was now lost in grief. My sweet Bella cared so much for everyone. I couldn't stand to see her in pain but if I showed her the pain that her pain put me in she would only feel guilty causing her to hurt more. I had no idea how we were going to tell Nessie about Brian. He responded to "Hey you" faster than he did his name. He even went as far as wincing whenever anyone said it. He was still in Esme lap in the back yard and from his dry sobs I doubted he would calm down anytime soon. I wish I could understand what was frightening him so much but he was as confused as I was and whenever I asked Jasper who had left almost half an hour ago he simply grunted rubbing his temples. After the fourth time I asked Alice actually chased me out. I knew Esme would not let go of him now and I owed him at least enough to help with his transition, but I was still worried how everything was going to turn out. Alice had confirmed that the Volturi would be arriving tomarrow. Alice swore up and down they were only going to send four one of which was Aro so that wasn't what worried me. Brian would need at least a year to truly come to terms with what he was enough to control the thirst but that wasn't factoring his unstable mental state. I couldn't be away from my Nessie for even a year but I would die before I risked her life by bringing her close to a new born. I could see Esme's logic but I still disliked the idea of being separated from any of my family.

JPOV

It had been nearly three hours since the emotions had started pouring out of him. My own remorse for him only compounded the intense emotional pain that was filling me. Normally I could lose myself in the emotions of others but that ment letting my own emotions meld with everyone else and I refused to share this pain with my dear Alice. She had led me to our room soon after it started with the most compassionate and loving look in her eyes. Even now she was petting my hair as I let my head lay in her lap trying to confine my influence on the others and to keep Brians pain from melting my resolve.

Edward and Bella had known Brian when he was a human and their emotions were not pleasant either. Even though Esme's emotions made me cringe they could not hold a candle to the emptiness and pure hate Brian held for himself. It didn't make it any easier that it frightened him because he didn't understand why he felt that way. All the feeling with none of the memories. Esme's undying love was an inspiration. It drove the proverbial stake through my heart when she told us what Brian had done for Renesmee only a few days earlier. Renesmee wanted nothing less than to be accepted by the kids at school but she refused to not be with us as well. She would not deny her family for popularity she had once said. Her looks, talents, and grades made her a prime target for the spiteful popular crowd. Not all the popular kids were like that but none of them stopped it. Brian however had not been what you could call popular. He was loved by pretty much everyone in our school because he had represented a mixing of the clichés I had not seen in years. He loved books, played sports, and was nice to mostly everyone. I had never heard him ever say anything without thought. But the thing that hurt me the most is that he was the first human to accept Nessie as a person and even a friend outside our family and the tribe. The friendship hadn't had time to blossom but still.

I was aware of the numerous times Edward came to our room but I never got why. I was so completely lost in Brians pain that I could comprehend little else. Even in our vast vampire minds apparently there were some things that were too much. Carlisle nor I had ever heard of a vampire with mental trauma or a disability, but then again vampires don't get headaches either. Brian seemed to be an exception. At this exact moment he was the center of my world not because that was the way I wanted it but because that's how intense his emotions were. It barely registered that Alice was tugging at my arm.

"Jasper we need to go," she said in a pleading voice, "Please."

The slight whimper in her voice made arguing impossible. She helped me to my feet and we were both out the window. We ran through the trees and I could feel the weight that had been on my mind lesson immediately. As it continued to fade the thing that scarred me was what was left behind in my mind. There was a certain awareness. Like his very emotions had burrowed their way into my mind and left a small void in my own heart that grieved for him. Something within my mind pulled away from this feeling. It was ten times worse than anything Edward had felt while separated from Bella. I knew it stemmed from him having killed the woman he loved. I had no way of knowing how deep that love went but I knew how deep his hurt went. If his emotions left such a deep wound in my own heart what were they doing to him? I now understood why Carlisle was saying his mind had shielded his memories from himself to protect him.

When I realized I could not feel him at all I stopped. I couldn't help but wonder what I would feel if my own world was destroyed. My entire being cringed away from the thought of life without Alice but then something came into my mind that shook my soul to its core.

"Are you ok?" Alice asked me with concern after she realized I had stopped. I had never moved so fast in my life as I did at that moment when I took her in my arms. My dry sobs filled Alice with concern and love and that only redoubled my feelings towards her.

"I will never hurt you," I said fiercely. I would destroy myself before I ever hurt my Ali.

"Of course you won't," she said sweetly into my shoulder patting my back.

I don't know how long we spent out in the woods but I couldn't seem to let go of Alice. The void that I knew would be in my own heart should she disappear was just impossible to risk. I never wanted to let her go and if I had my way I wouldn't. Luckily my wife is the most amazing person in the world. She never got impatient with me. We simply stood in the woods embracing each other for what seemed like eternity.

RPOV

I had to do something. I needed to be working with my hands. Anything to distract me from the dry sobs coming from the back yard. There was absolutely nothing I could do to help him. I hadn't missed the look of hatred he had for us in his confusion. Somewhere deep down he knew we were the same as what changed him. I slammed my hand down and felt the concrete of our garage give a little.

"Easy babe," Emmett chided me playfully as he let the jeep lay on his knee while he was doing who knows what. My lovable bear had been so quiet since we got home. His usual smile was replaced by worried eyes and a grim line as his mouth. He knew I just needed a distraction so he was helping me, but the strange tangle of emotions I felt was hard to deal with. I was the most emotional closed out of all of us and didn't like my feeling towards the situation showing.

I found myself randomly disassembling and reassembling random things under the jeep but Emmett was so out of it he didn't even realize it. Alice and Jasper had left a bit ago and I couldn't blame Jasper. I could barely handle my own feeling much less everyone else's. Edward and Bella had been sitting on the back porch for way to long. They just sat there watching this poor boy fall apart. Esme was Esme of course and had not let go of the boy for hours and would likely hold him until he calmed down. I remembered how much time she spent consoling me when I had been turned. Carlisle was doing what he could to help the families of those who had died at the hospital. There was going to be some memorial to the hospital and the camping accident and just as Carlisle had predicted even the president gave a speech on the tragedy.

The Volturi had obviously pulled some strings because there was to be no federal investigation. Carlisle was also keeping track of whether or not any of Brians family was calling but after further inspection it proved that Brians mother was estranged with her family and his father had been an orphan. No one would come looking for Brian. As hard as it was to see my own funeral I was glad Carlisle had taped it. It showed the grief my mother and father had in my passing and I grieved along with them, but what would it have felt like if there was no funeral for me? No one to miss me? I couldn't imagine that but I was almost happy for him that his memories would be gone for the hardest first days. It would make leaving behind his human life, as in tatters as it already was, behind him and move on.

Another scream broke my train of thought and I pulled myself out from under the jeep. Jasper had said he hates himself. I could understand hating what you have become but he didn't see the difference apparently. I desperately wanted to talk to him and convince him it wasn't his fault, but I had a feeling he would not listen. All of that would have to wait until he recovered his memories. IF he recovered his memories that is.

"You ok hot stuff?" Emmett asked me when I stayed on the floor looking at the roof of the garage. I pulled myself free of my thoughts and sat up leaning on the Jeep after he let it down.

"Sure," was all I could manage to say letting my head rest on the Jeep.

"Ah common. Tell me what's wrong. I'm sorry I was ignoring you," he said sincerely and I brushed it off. Emmett never ignored me and only spaced out when it was something really bad.

"I've just always been the one who had the worst experience before and shortly after my change. I guess you could call the way I act self centered but I can't be that way with Brian. I have always been able to say "You don't know what its like!" but now I'm the one who doesn't understand," I said with remorse. I really didn't like not understand how others felt. It made it difficult to help them, "and he is just a boy. No one should have to go through that. He has simply seen the side of our own nature we try to hide. Bella saw the best and decided to be turned, and he saw the worst and was forcibly turned. I just don't see the justice," I said letting my head fall between my legs being dangerously close to sobbing myself.

Emmett stood up and came to my side before he sat down. He gently pulled me into his lap where I snuggled into his chest while he gently ran his hand over my hair.

"You know babe if you let your true colors show more often people wouldn't think you were so cold," he chuckled. A joke to the end but that was why I loved him. He brought laughter and excitement into my life and for that I would love him forever. Whether I was the Cullen ice queen or not I would try to help Brian as best I could.