I do love Addison, but she is a complete bitch in this fic, in this chapter things finally start being revealed. Enjoy!
Later that evening, Meredith is applying the last touch of her make-up; grateful that she doesn't wear much, Adam is playing on the bed, with some toys. She grabs a wrap from her closet, knowing that it does get chilly at night. She picks Adam up and walks down the beach to Kathleen and Robert's home. It isn't as big has the Shepherd home, or even her home, but she loves it there. She lets herself into the house, she lets herself in just has Derek walks down the stairs. He takes her breath away, dressed in casual beige trousers and a white shirt, he looks so good, and she can see his muscles through his shirt, memories come flooding back has she tries to shake them off.
"Meredith" Derek says, shocked to see the child in her arms, for a second a look of hurt flashes in his eyes, Meredith looks away for a second knowing what he is thinking.
"Derek, this is my son Adam, Adam can you say hello to Derek" Adam hide his face in his mother shoulder.
"He's shy, Derek" Mer stated. Derek started walking toward her, she look so good. Meredith stepped back away from him.
"Derek" Addison calls as she walks down the stairs.
"What?" he says, not taking his eyes of Meredith.
"Oh, hello Meredith" she says has she reaches the bottom of the stairs.
Meredith wanders where Kathleen is, she is starting to feel a little uncomfortable, Derek finally tears his eyes away from Meredith, Addison walks over a give him a light peck on the cheek.
"Addison, you took nice" Meredith says to her,
"Thank you, this is your son" Addison says nodding to Adam. "He is very handsome, you and your husband must be proud".
"Yes we are" Mer replies ignoring Derek's look pleading with her not to say anything. Kathleen walks out and sees Meredith with Derek and Addison.
"There you are Meredith, I was wandering where you were" Kathleen says, coming over and giving Mer a hug.
"Finally" Mer whispers to her.
"Sorry" she whispers back and pulls away from her. "The kids are out in the yard, I'm sure Ellen would look after Adam for you" Kathleen says leading Mer through to the kitchen.
"Thanks Kath" Meredith says quietly, still feeling Derek eyes on her.
She took Adam outside so he could play. Kathleen's older kid's love Adam, Ellen takes his hand from Meredith's taking him over to where the younger kids are playing. Meredith goes back into the house, knowing that Adam will be well looked after. Izzie has arrived with her daughter Hannah, Meredith was shocked to see how much Hannah had grown, she hasn't really seen her much over the past year, and she has been too wrapped up in her own problems. Izzie is surprised to see Meredith at the barbeque.
"You came, that two night's out in a row, considering that we haven't seen you much in the past year" Iz says to her, Meredith feels Derek's breath on her neck, his interest peeked.
"Russell, wanted me to come, with him being away this week, he didn't want me spending all my time in the house on my own. He was right" Meredith tells her.
Kathleen watches Derek, has he tries to look anywhere except at Meredith, he realised how uncomfortable he made her earlier. Kathleen ushers everyone outside, while Meredith pops up to the bathroom. She closes the door and locks it, she rests against the door, and has the sobs over takes her body, she can't do this, he has only been back two days, and he is driving her crazy, she wants him so badly. He isn't even trying to make it easy for her; there is a bang at the door.
"Meredith, are you in there?" she hears him say. She stays quiet, hoping that he will just go.
"Meredith, please" Derek pleads with her.
"Leave me alone Derek" Mer says, trying to stay strong.
"I just want to talk to you, please Meredith" Derek says.
"I can't" she says, feeling her resolve breaking.
"Just give me 5 minutes, that all I'm asking for" Derek pleads with her.
"Why should I?" Meredith asks.
Derek doesn't reply, she knows he is still out there. She unlocks the door; Derek opens it and walks in locking the door behind him. He looks at her; sees that her eyes are red and puffy. He goes over to hug her, but she steps back.
"Please don't touch me Derek" Meredith says,
"Okay" Derek replies.
"You can't keep doing this Derek, it isn't fair, and why did you come back?" Meredith asked.
"I'm so sorry Mer; I didn't plan on moving back here at all. Addison wanted to, and when Addison wants something, she gets it. I know how hard this is for you Mer. You might not want to believe this, but I didn't do any of this to hurt you. I love you too much. I made a mistake when I married Addison, knowing fully well, that when it came down it, you were always the one for me. The last 6 years have meant something Meredith; it wasn't wasted not for me, when I'm with you I feel alive. I didn't end it because I don't love you; I ended it because I do. I know that it doesn't make much sense, but I don't want you thinking that I don't love you" Derek says, making a few steps closer to her, this time she doesn't back away. Derek takes her in his arms, Meredith lets herself melt into his arms, for just a moment letting herself feel everything..
"I didn't mean what I said last night, I didn't waste 6 years on you, and those six years was the best of my life. I love you, and that has not or will not change. It hurts so much, having you near but not being able to be with you" Mer says, stifling back her tears.
Meredith pulls away from him, and gives him a weak smile. He cups her chin, raising her head to look her in the eye. He kisses her lightly on the lips; they both know that this time is it. There is no going back for either of them, or so they think, not realising that fate will always find a way.
"Goodbye Meredith" Derek says gently, has his heart finally breaks,
"Goodbye Derek" she says.
Once Derek has left the bathroom, it all come flooding out, she feels Kathleen arms around her, trying to offer some comfort, but there was only one person, who could give her that and he had just walked out of her life for good this time.
Derek's eyes brimmed with tears when he left the bathroom, he bumped into Kathleen,
"Derek" Kathleen started,
"Meredith, bathroom" he said.
Kathleen was shocked at the look of him, he looked like he had just given up, and he had, he had just given up the last bit of hope he had. They had finally defeated him, they had broken him, making him say goodbye to the love of his life. He walked into the bedroom, as he allowed the sobs to overtake his body. He thought back to the night of the party, after meeting her on the beach that day.
Mark was complaining about the lack of hot girls, at the party. 'Typical' Derek thought to himself, Mark was always complaining about women, he was a manwhore, but Derek wasn't in the mood for it tonight. He couldn't get his mind of the girl at the beach Meredith, the name seem to roll off his tongue. He didn't even know her, but he knew that he had too get to know her. And that giggle, man he loved that giggle. He heard it, at first he thought he had imagined it, until he heard it again. His head whipped in the direction he heard her giggle and there she was talking to his sister Kathleen. He found himself walking over to his sister.
"Derek" Kathleen said giving her brother a hug.
"Hi Kathy" Derek turns to Meredith "hello Meredith, nice to see you again" he said, not taking his eyes of her.
"Hi Derek, I was not expecting to see you again" Meredith said, checking him over. Just than Mark walks over,
"Hello ladies" Mark said, Derek just rolled his eyes and Meredith laughed.
"Markie" Kathleen said, knowing how much he hated being called that. Kathleen was watching her brother looking at Meredith, the look in his eyes, one that she never seen before. Derek whispered something in her ear, causing Meredith to giggle. They forgot everyone else in the room; Kathleen was paying close attention to them, she had never seen Derek get like that over a girl before. She watched as Derek placed his hand in the small of her back. Meredith could feel the electricity that shoot up her back. It didn't take long for Meredith and Derek to disappear outside. They talked for hours, they had only just met but they didn't want to leave each other. Derek leant down and gave her a kiss on the lips; they could both feel the sparks.
Nobody saw Addison stood in the hallway, she watched Derek goes into the bathroom, and come out with tears in his eyes. She knows that they are finally over for good this time. She was not willing to lose him to that little slut, she had gathered that Adam was Derek's son, she could see it in his eyes, he had his father's eyes, thankfully he looked like his mother, she knew that if Derek knew Adam was his son, she would lose him, and that was not going to happen. She had worked too hard to keep him and she would not lose him. She knew that he had never loved her the way he loved Meredith, but she was not willing to give him up. He was her's whether he accepted it or not.
She walked into the spare bedroom that Derek had walked into only moments before, she knew that he was upset, but she didn't give a shit. He had cheated on her for 6 years, and he would make it up to her. She didn't care that she had spent the last 5 years doing the same thing. Just than her mobile rang, she saw that it Luke, and ignored the call, she wasn't in the mood to be dealing with him.
"Who was that Addie" Derek asked.
"Private number" she replied simply.
"I'll meet you downstairs, pull yourself together" she added coldly has she walked out of the room.
By the time Derek came downstairs 30 minutes later, the barbeque was in full swing, and Derek was surprised at how many people were there. Luckily there for enough people there, that Meredith and Derek hardly saw each other all evening, which was a relief to both of them. Neither of them wanted to deal with each other and it was just easier to avoid. Adam fell asleep about 8 o clock, and Meredith put him into one of the spare room, until she went home. Derek walked into the room, and watched Adam sleeping, he did wander if he was his, but she wouldn't keep something like that from him. He was the spitting image of his mother, watching Adam made him think of when they discussed having kids.
They were laid in bed on a Saturday afternoon, Derek had managed to get away from college for the weekend, and he hadn't seen her in just over her month. Meredith was huddled into Derek, with her eyes shut, he knew that she wasn't asleep coz she wasn't snoring. He had missed this, holding her in his arms. He was thinking about transferring to a college closer to Meredith, he hated being away from her. He only had two years of college left. He leant down to Meredith and gave her a quick kiss on the forehead; she opened her eyes and smiled at him. Derek was thinking about them and their future, he knew that he wanted to marry her, have kids with her. He didn't notice Meredith watching him, she was wondering what he was thinking,
"Derek, what are you thinking?" she asked. Derek lent over to her, kissing her on the mouth.
"Don't freak out Mer, I know we have never discussed it, but do you want kids?" he asked,
Meredith is quiet, not sure what to say to him. "I always said I never wanted children, but that was before I met you. As long as I'm with you, the idea doesn't scare me so much, but I don't know if I would make a great mom, I haven't exactly got the best role model" she told him honestly.
"You are nothing like your mom, you would make a great mom" he told her, "you are warm, compassionate and loving, do not let your mother beat that out of you" he said to her,
"As long as you are by my side, she won't. I love you Derek" Mer says.
"I love you too" he says.