Rated Mature, and please don't hate me.
Derek pulls away breathlessly,
"Mer, if I don't go now, I won't leave tonight" Derek says,
"Than don't go" she says,
"Are you sure",
"Derek shut up and kiss me" she says,
Derek doesn't need telling twice. Their lips meet again, with all the fire and passion they have felt for each other from the beginning. They stumble their way into the house, Meredith kicking the front door close with her foot. Meredith leads the way upstairs, tearing each other clothes off, by the time they make it up to her bedroom, they are both naked. Derek laid her on the bed, he scans every inch of her body, recommitting it to memory, and he lies on top of her, running his hands through her hair.
"I love you Meredith" he says, as he kisses her.
He kisses her neck, working his way down to her breasts, he sucks on her nipples, Meredith moaning silently calling his name, he know how to turn her on. He works his way down over her abdomen, down to her wet, moist folds, licking her, flicking her clit with his tongue,
"Oh…Derek…oh…fuck…" Mer moans
He know exactly what Meredith likes, he know how to send her over the edge. He keeps flicking his tongue over her clit, and the louder her moans get, the more vigorously his tongue works.
"I'm cumming…oh…" Mer calls out
"Cum for me…baby", he says, has she spills hot cum into his mouth. He licks her clean, remembering how good she tastes, he place small kisses on to her clit, working his way back up to her lips.
"You taste so good, Mer. I've missed you" he says.
"I've missed you too"
Meredith works her way down his chest, over his abdomen, giving him kisses and little nips, has she works her down. She takes him into her mouth, running the tip of her tongue of the head, than taking him in deeper, until his cock fills her mouth. She swirls her tongue around his cock,
"Oh…Mer"
Derek pumps his cock into her mouth, while Mer runs her tongue over it,
"Fuck…Mer…I'm cumming" he calls out has he shot his cum into her mouth which she swallows. Meredith rolls off him, has Derek moves down to her and kisses her.
"Make love to me Derek", Meredith said, reaching over to her stand, to pull a condom out of the drawer. She helps him to put it on, he enters her slowly, until he is completely immersed in her, for the first time in a year they feel complete, Derek starts pumping into her, slowly at first, than getting faster. He can feel her walls collapsing around him, bringing them to their peaks,
"Mer open your eyes" he says, has they orgasm together, looking into each other eyes.
Derek collapses on top of her, Derek rolls off her removing the condom, wrapping his arms around Meredith, who rest her head on his chest. They lay there in each other arms, just enjoying being together once again, they lay there, not saying anything, and Derek could smell the lavender from her conditioner, the smell that he missed. He still can't believe the events of that night, he knew that he couldn't stay with Addison especially after learning what she did. He wished that they had this talk before, that she spoke to him before. He notices that Meredith is very quiet.
"What you thinking Mer?" he asked; Meredith is silent for a moment.
"I love you" she says, reassuringly
"I love you too, Meredith. What are you thinking?" he says sounding slightly worried.
"How this is the perfect way to say goodbye" she replies.
"What do you mean, the perfect way to say goodbye?" he asks, shocked, that he was not expecting to hear from her. Derek loosen his grip, which gives her the chance to wriggle free and sit up, on the edge of the bed.
"Meredith, what is going on?" he says, scooting over to her side of the bed, pulling her close to him, but feeling her pulling away from him, not physically but emotionally. She takes a deep breath, before starting.
"I'm leaving, Derek" she says simply. Derek feels a knife go into his heart, he stand up, starts pacing the room.
"Leaving?" he says standing in front of her. Meredith stands up,
"I can't stay here, not with you and her here" Meredith says.
"I'm leaving her Mer, after everything I should have never married her in the first place" he says, Mer takes a minute to digest what Derek is saying to her, she has always wanted that, but it's too late.
"It's too late Derek, I made my choice" she says sadly.
"Meredith, it never too late, not for us, I love you" Derek pleads with her,
"Yes it is Derek" she says. Derek kneels in front of her with tears running down his face.
"Please Mer, don't do this" he says pleading with her "I need you, even if it only seeing you in the distance",
"I can't break up your marriage up Derek, I've already done enough damage" she says imploring him to understand.
"She did that the day she lied to you Mer, she knew I never loved her, you are the love of my life, and I want to be with you" he says, still crying.
"I'm sorry Derek, I love you, but…" she pauses.
"But what" he says,
She closes her eyes, mentally preparing herself for what she is going to say, she can't believe she is about to say this. This will break his heart, as well as her own but she knows otherwise he will not let her go.
"But I love my husband more" she says her own heart breaking as she says the words, but she needs him to believe her.
"No, you don't mean that Meredith, you can't" he says, holding onto the last piece of hope that he has left.
"I love Russell" she says looking him in the eye. Derek looks for any sign that she is lying but he can't, for once he can't read anything in her eyes. Derek gets up, hastily putting his clothes on, looking back at Meredith one last time hoping she tells him not to go. She watches him walk out of the bedroom, hearing the front door slam; she finally collapses in sobs of tears.