Sad Saviour

Chapter 2:

The following morning had been rather uncomfortable, since the two mages didn't really have a topic to talk about. She, of course, didn't wanr to talk about the incident from the day before. But he didn't want to act as if nothing had happened. And so they both just remained silent the whole morning. The heavy silence filled the room and that especially tugged on Gray's nerves. He wanted to talk about what had happened and what they were going to do now, but he didn't want to force Lucy into something, she wasn't ready for. And he knew for sure that she wasn't ready just yet. No one would be. But he also had to do something about this, he couldn't just leave everything like this...

„Lucy, sooner or later we gotta talk about what happened." He broke the exhausting silence and stared down at her.

„..."

„Come on Luce, I just wanna help you." He begged, this time with a softer tone.

„What is there to talk about? He raped me, took my virginity, left me in a god damn alley. What else is there we should discuss, Gray?" She stated blankly, staring up at her opponent.

His brows furrowed and he clenched his fists in attempt to surpress the urge to strangle the guy who did this to his best friend. „You don't need to remind me." He took a deep breath and continued. „But we need to get you help, we can't just leave it like this and just live on as if nothing happened."

„I don't need help! I'm f-fine, okay!" She raised her voice a little, her lip starting to quiver and tears forming at the corners of her eyes.

„No you're not, Lucy. And that is completely understandable." He grabbed her by her shoulders, making her wince slightly.

„B-But I am..." Her voice had gotten much weaker and quieter and the tears started streaming down her face.

He released a sigh and let go off her shoulders. „Sometimes it's okay to break down and show weakness..."

Just then she broke down, fell on her knees and cried her eyes out. And all he could do was sit there, next to her and watch her suffer, for she was just too fragile. He could break her, if he touched her, though he wanted nothing more than to hold her close and show her that everything was going to be okay again. And it hurt him. Yet again he couldn't save the ones dear to him. Just like he couldn't save Ur. Nor his father. He was pathetic, useless. And being reminded of that over and over again tired him. His old wounds were ripped open again. But he had to cut that out for now, since Lucy needed him now, even though she denied it. He clung to the hope that sooner or later she'd open up to him and let him in, let him help her. He would wait for her. And when she was going to be ready, he'd be there.

„I'll head to bed then, thanks for everything Gray.." She said, her voice weak, as she stood up.

„Alright, I'll just stay here for a bit longer." He replied, giving her a quick nod.

She then turned her back on him and went for the bedroom, leaving him on the couch, all by himself. He just stared down at the floor, his dark hair shadowing his eyes. The memories of the past few days flooded his mind. And it made him angry. Frustrated. Hatred for the man who had taken Lucy's virginity coiled in his chest.

„That bastard.." He mumbled through gritted teeth, clenching his fists tightly. He then took a deep breath and ran his fingers through his thick hair, before violently punching the wall next to him.

All this had really gotten to him. Well, of course it had. Some filthy asshole had hurt his best friend. His Lucy. And when he came, it was already too late. It made him feel even more useless than before. Never could he be the one to save. Especially not for Lucy, Natsu had always been her saviour, her Knight in shining armour. He had always been there, when she needed someone to hold her tight and make sure everything was going to be okay.

Gray was so incredibly jealous of that flamebrain of a Dragon Slayer. Though Lucy and Natsu were not really a couple, they shared that special bond. 'How did that oblivious, dense idiot get such a beautiful, caring, sweet girl?! He doesn't deserve her.' Neither did Gray. At least that's what he thought. He was just a pathetic, useless waste of space. Never had he achieved anything, done anything right. Always had he screwed things up. He would only mess things up with Lucy as well.

„Fuck!" He whispered out furiously, punching his head over and over again, as tears were already streaming down his face.

„Gray...?"

He froze. He did not dare move an inch.

„What is wrong?" He heard her ask, her voice full of concern.

He quickly wiped his eyes and regained composure. „Nothing. Just go back to bed."

He heard her come closer and felt a light touch on his shoulder. „Why are you crying?"

„I-I'm not.." He said, trying to sound as confident as possible.

She sat down beside him and looked at him with those deep, chocolate brown eyes. „Come on, you can tell me, Gray. Didn't you say breaking down was okay sometimes?"

He avoided eye contact and shrugged. „It's nothing I couldn't deal with myself."

„Why won't you let me help you? You don't have to act up all cool, you know?"

„Because I should be the one helping you, Lucy. Not the other way around." His voice grew a bit louder and regained strength.

„Who said that?" She offered him an encouring smile.

„I. For fuck's sake, I just want to be the one to save you, just one effin' time! But no, instead, I'm bathing myself in self pity again! No wonder you chose Natsu and not me!" He snapped, his voice full of frustation and anger. „I couldn't save Ur, nor my father! I always fuck things up! And this one time I wanted to make things right!"

Her eyes went wide for a moment, but then she lowered her gaze and her expression saddened. „I'm so sorry, Gr-"

„No! I don't want your sympathy! I don't deserve that! I'm useless and pathetic, I should just go kill myself!" He bursted out furiously, standing up and towering above her.

„But I need you, Gray. I need you to stay here with me and protect me."

And at that moment he just wanted to hold her tight and never let go. She said wanted him, and not Natsu, not anyone else.

„If you just kill yourself, who is going to be there to help me get better? Who will be going to the police with me and hold my hand, when I tell them what had happened?" She reached for his hand and pulled him back on the couch.

„Thanks.." He mumbled under his breath. „I'm sorry, I didn't mean to yell at you."

She gave him a warm smile and shook her head. „It's fine."

„So, you're willing to go to the police?" He asked, deciding to just change the topic.

She nodded her head and sighed. „I still don't feel very well about it, but I guess I can take that."

„We can wait, if you want. You don't need to force yourself to do this, if you're not ready for it." He stated in a soft tone, not wanting to rush.

„No, I just want to get over with it.." She replied and shrugged.

„Alright. I guess we should go to sleep now?" Her slowly stood up and looked down at her, his eyes still a bit red and swollen from crying earlier.

„Yeah, you look pretty messed up." She joked and got up from the couch now, heading towards the bedroom.

„Shut up." He growled back, following her.

„Oh and by the way... I didn't choose Natsu."

Hah, I bet you guys thought this was gonna be all about Lucy, but nope! I guess I'mma do that in the next chappie, I'm not sure yet. So, I hope you like it so far and I'd be glad, if you gave a review ^_^