I said I would update again today, so here it is...We also return to the flashbacks so anything in Italics are flashbacks. Enjoy!
Meredith lands at Miami airport, just has Derek is boarding his plane, during her flight; she wandered if she was doing the right thing. She was mad at him, after the good time they had last night, she couldn't believe that he would sleep with Rose. She still wasn't sure that Diane was right, she was fully expecting him not to come after her, even thought she hoped that he would. She was grateful that Adam slept through most of the flight; it gave her time to think.
They got into a cab, and Adam woke up, he looked around at his surroundings, and then back at his mother.
"Mommy, where are we?" he ask sleepily.
"We are going to nana's place" she tells him, giving him a kiss.
"I like nana's"
"I know, baby"
"Where Uncle Derek, and Uncle Mark?"
"They are still in New York, baby. We will see them soon. Okay?"
"Yes, mommy" he says cuddling into his mother.
They arrived at the condo, and settled in what little she brought with her. It had been years since she last been here at the condo, she was struggling to fight off the memories of Derek, since they spent a lot of time here during their affair. She remembered that they had no food in the house, after she made their beds, she decided to take Adam out for some dinner, she remember a small café, that sat overlooking the beach, and decided to take him there for something to eat. She needed to get away from all the memories, she wasn't sure that this was the best place for her to come.
Five hours later Derek was relieved to finally get off the plane, he knew that it would take a couple of hours to get from Miami to Daytona Beach, but it was worth it. Derek knew it wouldn't be easy to convince her, he had hurt her so much, but it hurt him too. He had to make her understand that he still loved her that Rose was nothing more than a distraction to keep him from feeling alone, he had promise Mer that he would wait, but he hadn't. He had been flattered by Rose interest in him, knowing that Meredith wasn't ready, or he had interpreted it has being not interested in him anymore, when he knew that it wasn't the truth, that Meredith wanted him to show her that he loved her, that their affair for the previous 6 years had been much more than just lust, and he had failed them. He now hoped that Meredith would forgive him and finally get to be the couple they were before Addison lied, to finally be Meredith and Derek. He was looking forward to discovering his son, and his future wife, knowing for sure that she was the love of his life.
Meredith arrived back at the condo after dinner, she bathed Adam and put him into bed, she got the bottle of wine that she brought and poured herself out a glass. She settled down and watched some television, her mind not really on the show that she was watching, her mind wondered back to the last time she saw Derek here at the condo, 2 years ago. At the same time, Derek was in the cab, thinking about that same moment.
Meredith had arrived a couple of hours before, Russell wanted to take Adam too his parents and luckily for her it was the weekend that Derek had off. She was pacing the length of her living room, waiting for him, it had been four months since she had last him, and she just wanted to feel his arms around her, his flesh on her, to wake up entangled in his arms. She heard his key goes into the door, when he entered; like always he took her breath away. Meredith jumped into his arms, and kissed him deeply, to show him how much she had missed him. Derek pulled away, and smiles at her
"I guess you missed me"
"You have no idea"
Derek carried her into the bedroom laid her on the bed. He undressed her; he took a few moments to scan her body, as if he was taking a mental image, before undressing himself. He laid on top of her, their bodies melting into each other so they become one again, Derek kissed her, Meredith deepens the kiss, ands he feels his erection pressed against her. Derek kisses her neck and sucks working his way down to her nipples, Meredith grabs his curls and pulls him to look at her.
"Derek, fuck me"
"Are you sure"
"We have all weekend to make love; I need you inside of me"
"Okay", he says, coming up to kiss her. Derek quickly leans over Mer to the bedroom cabinet draw and grabs a condom and Meredith helps him to put it on. Derek places the tip of his penis to the entrance of her folds, slowly dipping it in and out, then quickly thrusts into her.
"Oh…" Mer quietly shouts, Derek's stops allowing her moments to adjust to his side, before thrusting in and out,
"Der…faster, please" Mer begs. Derek goes faster, darting his tongue in and out of her mouth mimicking his penis thrusting in and out. Derek can feel himself cumming.
"Oh fuck Mer…I'm cumming" Derek shouts out, Meredith can feel herself hitting her orgasm.
"Derek…fuck" she screams, has they cum together, their fluid mixing with one another. Derek stays inside her a little longer not wanting to lose this connection to her. He pulls out of her, chucks the condom in the waste basket; has he rolls off her, and pulls her close to him, spooning her, gently kissing her on the head, breathing in her scent.
They lay there, relishing the fact that they are together once again. Derek is terrified of letting her go, Addison had discovered that he had been seeing Meredith. He knows this is the last time he will ever see Meredith, and he has to tell her, but he doesn't want to. Meredith lays there in his arms, worried, Derek has always made her feel safe, but right now she feels that he is slipping away from her, she want to ask him, but she is too scared.
Over the next two days, they spend most of their time in bed, Derek wants to remember this weekend, and in some sense so does Meredith. On the final day, she plucks up the courage to ask him, what had been nagging at her all weekend. She walks out onto the balcony, watching Derek sips the wine; she poured out for him an hour before.
"Derek, what going on?" she asks, Derek grabbed her and pulled her down on his lap. He buries his face into her hair, breathing in the lavender from her conditioner.
"Meredith, I can't see you anymore" he says, Meredith pulls away from him, Derek lets her go.
"Why"
"I just can't do this" Derek can't look at her in the eyes, he can't stand the thought that he is about to break her heart, all hopes that they had for the future would be lost. He was about to give up the love of this life,just so he could protect her. He knew that he would suffer from the loneliness for the rest of his life, he would miss the daily little phone calls they had, seeing her when he could get off, never making love to her again. These thoughts terrified him, but he wasn't going to let Addison ruin her life, she did not deserve that.
"So, you're leaving me for her again" Meredith yells at him.
"Meredith, I love you so damn much, which is why I'm doing this" Derek says with tears running down his face.
"Love me, if you love me Derek, you wouldn't leave me. Please don't leave me, not again" she begs breaking down in front of him. All he wants to do he take her in his arms and tell her that he doesn't mean it but he can't. Seeing her break down in front of him breaks his heart. Derek walks into the bedroom that he has shared so many passionate nights with the woman that he loves so much and more than life itself. He packs his bag, unable to hold back the tears any longer.
Derek walks back out of the bedroom, and see Meredith huddled on the couch, he leans down to her.
"I'm so sorry Meredith, I do love you. I hate myself for what I'm doing to you, I just hope that one day you will understand" he says, giving her a kiss on the top of her head, before standing up and walking out of the door. Meredith watches him walk out the door, hoping that he would turn around and say he was making a mistake, but he didn't. She was supposed to go home that night, but she couldn't face it, not without him. She stayed at the condo, curled up on the sofa, crying, and didn't move all night.
The taxi Derek got finally arrived at the condo, he paid the taxi driver and got out, he breathed in the sea air, before entering the condo complex. A thousand thoughts ran thought his head, what if it was too late, what if she wasn't there. He wanted the love of his life and his son; he arrived on the 19th floor of the duplex and outside her door. After a moment he knocked, praying that she would answer the door.
Meredith was laid on the couch, drifting off to sleep, when she heard some knock at the door, she wasn't going to answer, not in the mood to be dealing with anyone, than she heard the person knock again. Has she got up off the sofa, and went to answer the door, she groaned, she answer the door, the next moment, she felt his lips on hers, she didn't respond at first, but she melt into the kiss and had no desire to make him stop. Derek pulled away from her breathlessly, his hands grabbing her waist so she couldn't escape from his grip.
"Meredith, I love you"
"I'm…"
"Me and Rose should have never started. I think Meredith after 16 years we deserve our happily ever after"
"Derek that last night in New York when I told you about Adam, I was ready to tell you that I love you, I want this, I want us"
"Meredith, all I have ever wanted is you. Please show me that you trust me, that we can finally after everything, to be the people that we could have been the first time I asked you to marry me" Derek gets down on one knee and pulls out the ring he had got from his grandmother 12 years previously, the ring that was meant for her, but she never got to see.
"Meredith Grey will you marry me"
Sorry another cliff, and although this is already writing, what do ya think?