Author's Note: It has been a long time since I updated this story but it was suppose to be in pending. However I kind a had a lot of time lately so here is the next chapter but be warn that this story is still in pending. Just check my profile to see if the story status would change.
RECAP:
"Is that you famous blueberry pancakes you're cooking?" Shuuichi can't help but to ask. He had tasted her pancakes before and it really the most delicious pancakes he had ever tasted and he was sure so eager to taste it again.
"In fact it is, the very same one that you and Kazuki fight about years ago before he died." Botan said as she remembers the old days.
As she remembers that memory, she didn't saw Shuuichi flinch at the mention of his ex-best friend name. But the mood on the kitchen change though.
Chapter Eight: A Part Of Botan's Past Revealed
Shuuichi and Botan are now making their way towards Shuuichi's neighbor to get the twins then to Shuuichi's house for Botan to settle down.
Botan could sense that something is wrong, especially after she had mentioned Kazuki's name. She felt Shuuichi distancing himself from her and that he barely looks or talks to her and that makes her wonder was it because of her or he was just remembering Kazuki and the night he had died.
She only had a guess why Kazuki had drove his car so fast that resulted to his death and she use that guess to blame herself of his death. She only found out that Kazuki is dead when Hiei had called him and told her what had happen. All she found out from Hiei is that Shuuichi had been the one who found Kazuki's car and when he had tried to save Kazuki, it was already too late, there's nothing he can do to save him.
Botan close her eyes as she remembers that night when she had gotten the call from Hiei. The way she blamed herself, reacted and how she had lock herself in her room.
FLASHBACK…"Botan, I like you." Shuuichi said looking at Botan
Botan who was so shocked to hear it was about to tell him her feelings toward him the one she was meaning to tell him when suddenly…
"I can't believe you betrayed me."
"Kazuki!" Shuuichi said looking at the new comer
"I thought you're my best friend but I was wrong." Kazuki said and before anything else he went back to his car and drove as fast as he can like he was in the racing track
Shuuichi who was full of guilt look at Botan with great regret in his eyes and without a word had left Botan's house to follow his friend to explain. Botan look at where Shuuichi had stood a minute ago before he had left. She was so happy to know that Shuuichi love her but when she saw his eyes looking at her with great regret, she can't help but blame herself for the regret she had saw in his eyes.
Botan was drinking some coffee, it already been 30 minutes and she still don't have any news on Kazuki or Shuuichi himself. The three of them are the best of friends if you include girls and Botan knew Shuuichi and Kazuki's attitude, if they had a fight, both of them would call her and she would have a hard time to divide her time for the both of them but right now neither one of them had called her yet and she's beginning to worry that something might have happen to them when…
PHONE RINGING
"Hello Shuuichi, Kazuki is that you?" Botan answered the phone anxiously.
"Botan, its Hiei." The voice said instead with an unreadable voice.
"Oh." Botan only answered with disappointment.
"Botan, you better sit down before I tell you this." Hiei said on the phone.
"Why?" Botan asked confuse of Hiei's order.
"This is really important Botan so please sit down so I can tell you." Hiei said with softness but order in his voice.
"I'm already sitting." Botan said after a few second when she had move toward her couch to sit.
"Botan, there has been an accident." Hiei said and stop to try and listen whether Botan is still on the line and okay.
"Accident…" Botan repeated Hiei's word in a whisper.
"Yes, it's a car accident, according to Shuuichi, Kazuki is driving so fast that his car had swerve. Shuuichi found him and tried to save him but his too late, I'm sorry Botan but Kazuki is dead." Hiei said trying so hard to break the news as slowly and pain free as he can.
"No, it…it ca…can't be, he…he was just only he…here. I…I just saw him, he…he can't be dead, he…he'll call me later on and will te…tell me that he…he and Shuuichi ha…had a fight and that he wanted my he…help to help them make up." Botan said trying to convince herself that none of this was happening but while she was doing it, tears from her eyes started to fall like river.
"I'm sorry Botan as much as I don't want to believe it, it's true." Hiei said as he rubs his eyes from tears that are threatening to fall. Hiei is not a sensitive guy but losing a friend really hurt. "I'm on my way to the hospital right now with the gang, do you want us to pick you up also to go to the hospital?" Hiei asked after checking that his voice will not crack.
"No." Botan simply answered as different emotions came flowing in her.
"Okay I understand." Hiei said looking at his window as he saw Yusuke and the others waiting for him. "Do you want to have one of us to stay with you?" Hiei added after he nodded at the others outside his window.
"No, I'll be okay, is Shuuichi in t6he hospital?" Botan asked Hiei, worried about Shuuichi.
"No, when he called me he was heading home and he had ask me to take care of everything that is needed and that to put the bills on his name."
"I see then I guess you better go, thanks for telling me." Botan said with a sniff.
"Bye, call me if you needed some company." Hiei said and hung up the phone after Botan had said goodbye with her best effort.
END OF PHONE CALLBotan pulled her legs up to her, as she hug her legs she waited for Shuuichi to call but none came and it made her cry even more. It's all her fault, Botan thought, if it wasn't for her then Kazuki might have still be alive. If only she hadn't fell in love with neither one of them then none of this would have happen.
As Botan crawled to her bed, she told herself that the reason why Shuuichi hadn't called her is because he blames her for Kazuki's death and somehow she told herself that Shuuichi is right it was all her fault.
Shuuichi and Botan hadn't seen each other until the day when Shuuichi had drop by in her house to tell her that he was leaving to take care of his parents house and he also told her he was sorry for not being there when they were suppose to help each other cope with Kazuki's death and last he said that he didn't blame her for Kazuki's death and that no one should be blamed for it.
After that faithful day, Botan had kept on visiting Kazuki's grave, everyday, she would find a time to visit him and it help her a lot, it help her to move on, she sometimes talk to Kazuki's grave for hours telling him the progress of his life, how she planned on studying again for master's degree so she can have a doctor's license and she even told Kazuki about Shuuichi, if ever she got a news about him from Hiei and last but not the least, she told him how much she regretted not showing him how much he had meant to him that he might not be the person for her to be a boyfriend but he is the person for her who could be a brother and a friend.
END OF FLASHBACK
"Where here." Shuuichi said as Botan opened her eyes to see that Shuuichi's neighbor was standing in front of the door with the twins waiting for them.
Short I know but I'm trying so hard so I hope you'll like this chapter! Tell me what you think, don't forget to review.