Her Shiny Diamonds
Follow-up
Oh what the hell she says
I just can't win for losing
"You know, Fisher," Massie chewed thoughtfully on her gummy bears. "You're not half that bad." She tried to hide her bubbling smile but she slipped.
"You're dead, Block."
Her smile faded just as quickly as it appeared; her eyes drooping. Cam shortly realized his slip-up and he smacked his forhead for being so stupid.
"Sorry—Mass, I didn't, r-reali—" He stammered.
"—It's okay. Whatever." She muttered, her amber eyes glancing downwards. "I'll get over it." She assured him as she hugged him anyway.
Discarding the box of gummy bears.
And she lays back down
Man there's so many times
I don't know what I'm doin'
Like I don't know now
He worriedly glanced at her many times as he watched her lay on her bed, staring emotionlessly at her blank white ceiling. Wiped clean of any traces of previous feelings.
Helpless and unsure, he goes over to her bed and sits down. She pats the spot next to her half mindedly and he lays down above the covers and slips next to her. His eyes following hers.
By the light of the moon
She rubs her eyes
Says it's funny how the night
Can make you blind
They both fell asleep before he could even realize it and it was dark out now. Their parents didn't seem to care that they would hang out so much and have sleepovers together; they were nothing more than best friends.
He was startled when he woke up and he flinched. "Huh?" She drowsily murmured. Her eyes shot open and she looked at Cam with those startling amber eyes.
"Hey, there." He whispered.
She didn't reply, her eyes were staring at the white moon with a far away look etched upon her pale face.
"It's kind of funny how the night—makes everything less noticeable, as if you were blind." She murmured half mindedly. Her amber eyes fluttered shut as she quietly thought.
She had always been a quiet thinker…
I can just imagine
And I don't know what I'm supposed to do
But if she feels bad then I do too
So I let her be
Still feeling helpless, he glances at her peaceful form. He has no idea what to do to comfort her; his pain or her pain it all felt the same. She laughed, he laughed. She cried, he cried. It was a reflex action now… and he couldn't explain to himself or anyone why this happened.
And she says oooh
I can't take no more
Her tears like diamonds on the floor
And her diamonds bring me down
Cuz I can't help her now
She's down in it
"I don't know how much longer I can take it." She whispered bleakly, her voice cracking. Cam's eyes were alarmed as he pulled her in his arms and hugged her as tight as his arms would let him. He never wanted to let his best friend go.
Cam felt something wet on his shoulder, at first he thought it was her drool, but he noticed it was a lonesome tear.
He felt like he could relate to that single tear.
She tried her best and now she can't win it's
Hard to see them on the ground
Her diamonds falling down
He walked silently by her side as they made their way to the cafeteria—both at a loss for words considering they spent the whole night hugging each other like life jackets… and they had no explanation for why.
He gently lead her to the table with Alicia and Josh, both of them flirting heavily. Cam sighed in distress as he sat her down with mild annoyance elating.
"Hey guys." Josh greeted, squeezing Alicia's hand discreetly—probably to spare the pain for Cam and Massie—but as usual, Massie never missed a beat.
She just looked down at her clasped hands as Cam went to go get their lunches.
Returning, they found Derrick and Claire giggle-flirting as they chatted with Alicia and Josh.
Massie was no where to be found.
No surprise.
She sits down and stares into the distance
And it takes all night
And I know I could break her concentration
But it don't feel right
After searching for hours—ditching classes included—he found Massie sitting by herself on a single swing, just dragging her feet as she swung back and forth.
His heart broke for her, for him, for her mostly.
He doesn't say anything though, feeling wrong with whatever choice he had decided; so he just stood there like an idiot and stared.
By the light of the moon
She rubs her eyes
Sits down on the bed and starts to cry
And there's something less about her
And I don't know what I'm supposed to do
So I sit down and I cry too
And don't let her see
And just like last night, Cam slept over and held her helplessly too as she muffled her cries of pain.
And just like last night also, he felt his own tears slide down his cheeks as silently as he cried. He hugged her tight and whispered quietly that the pain will lessen soon, he promised.
Yet, he couldn't help but notice she wasn't the same courageous amber-eyed brunette that was fearless and unstoppable. That's what she was with Derrick, not with him, himself. He wanted to see the Derrick's Massie, not broken-hearted Massie…
She shuts out the night
Tries to close her eyes
If she can find daylight
She'll be all right
She'll be all right
Just not tonight
Her brooding pain worried Cam. Shutting out his own pain, he'd observe her tactics to shut out the nighttime. He watches as she squeezes her eyes tightly, locking out the amber eyes that were once so bright and full of life…
He knows that within long amounts of patience and time, she'll be fine. Not perfectly fine. Not the way she was before, but okay.
And in a dark way, that made Cam sad.
He liked being her safe harbor for reasons he wish he understood.
And she says oooh
I can't take no more
Her tears like diamonds on the floor
And her diamonds bring me down
Cuz I can't help her now
She's down in it
She tried her best and now she can't win it's
Hard to see them on the ground
Everyday they made a routine of it:
Sleepover, go to school with hands clasped tightly together—at first people thought they were a couple but they knew they weren't—and talked quietly amongst themselves; shutting out the world around them.
And Cam wouldn't have it any other way.
Her diamonds falling down
Author's Note: This chapter is dedicated to .AND MASSINGTON for being so totally awesome and a GREAT reviewer and friend to me. I owe you a ton! Thanks so much!
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