A/N- Okay... just a random story idea I came up with while listening to a song the other day..... I hope you like it.....

ENJOY.....

Emily wondered around the house bored out of her mind. The BAU had been given a week off after the events of the past weekend. Events that had almost cost Emily and Morgan their lives but once again, luck was on their side and other than a few scrapes and bruises both had come out unharmed. Though she was sure that Garcia and JJ didn't look at it that way. While Emily and Morgan had been otherwise detained, JJ had dealt with a very hormonal 5 month pregnant Garcia. Emily did not envy JJ in the least. She would take life and death with Morgan over that any day.

Deciding that she needed to do something constructive, Emily made her way to the office; which had long since been neglected.

"Time for some spring cleaning." Emily said to herself as she looked at the sight before her. In the 7 years they had lived in that house, she never once remembered either of them cleaning the office. Oh sure they dusted and vacuumed, but that was about it. Drawers were full to the brim with various papers, most of which Emily was sure they didn't need.

Two hours later Emily had two rather large garbage bags full of crap that they no longer needed and a huge pile of questionable stuff; also known as stuff she needed JJ's approval to discard. She had one more drawer to clean out before making her way to the closet. The dreaded office closet. The place where everything that they didn't know what to do with at the time ended up. The place where when last minute guest popped in, things were thrown.

Emily pulled the last few files out of the bottom drawer, when an envelope fell to the floor. Emily picked it up and was shocked to see her name written across the front. It was clear that it was JJ's handwriting. Emily pulled out the paper inside and was once again shocked to see it was a letter written from JJ to her.

My dearest Emily,

Well I guess if you are reading this then I must start with an apology. I'm sorry that I couldn't fulfill my promise. My promise to be with you until we were old and gray. My promise to come home safely to you each and every night; to come home safely to you and to our daughter. I don't know way you are reading this letter, because let's face it if I did I'm fairly sure I would have locked myself in my room on the day in question, but all I know is that you are in fact reading it.

I know that the next few days are going to be difficult, but you need to be strong for our daughter. She is going to need her mother. She is going to have a lot of questions, ones I sure will be hard to answer. Just make sure she knows how much I loved her and that I will always be with her. I regret that I won't get to see her grow up. That I won't be there for her first dance, her first boyfriend (be nice and please don't kill him) and that I will miss her graduating from college. I never imagined myself having kids. I don't think you did either, but out of that horrible tragedy god blessed us with an amazing little girl. One that in these brief six years has given me so much joy and happiness that I can't even put it into words.

Please look after my parents. This is going to be especially difficult on my father, but please make sure they both understand that without them I wouldn't have become the woman I am today and that I loved them very much.

Make sure that everyone else understands how important they were to me and tell Amy that if she tells a bunch of embarrassing stories about me at my funeral I will come back and haunt her ass. I'm serious Emily don't let her tell any more stories about me and that goes for Garcia too. Keep a close eye on Spence too. I know that he has been clean for a long time now but I don't want this to be the reason he has a relapse. I think he will take it the hardest, so please just look at for him for me. Tell Hotch that I appreciated everything he ever did for me. He made me the agent that I became (although if I was killed the in line of duty maybe you should just leave that out). Morgan was like the big brother I never really wanted, but loved just the same. I know that he is going to be try and be all strong and brave but remind him that it's okay to cry.

As for you, my love, I hope that you know how much I loved you. I never knew true love until you walked into my life. I will never forget the first time I saw you. I was shocked by your beauty. I remember going home that night and praying to any god that would listen to let me at least have a chance with you. Little did I know where I would be 7 years later. That night I would have never imagined that you would become my wife and that we would have a daughter. You are the best thing that ever happened to me Emily. Every time I thought that our life couldn't get any better you would find away to make it just that mush better. First you asked me to move in with you, then you stood by me during one of the darkest times in my life and made sure I found my way out. You never even flinched when I told you that I wanted to keep the baby (though secretly I think you hoped that I would but you waited patiently for me to make the decision myself and for that I will always be grateful). Then two years after AJ was born you asked me to be your wife. Our wedding was one of the happiest days of my life.

I know that you are going to mourn and I expect you too. I would never expect you not to grief but I need you to promise me right now that you will not mourn forever. Eventually you need to move on; I want you to move on. I hope that you can find someone else to love you like I loved you. I hope that you can find someone who is a great mother for AJ, someone who will be there for you in the future. I'm just sorry that someone isn't me. I want you to be happy Emily. That is all I have ever wanted.

I hope this letter offers you some closure, although I'm sure it doesn't right now. I'm sure right now you can only feel the pain and the sorrow but some day I hope this helps.

I have no regrets Emily. There is not one thing about our life together that I would change. Just know that I am in a better place and that I will be here waiting for you when its your time. Just please for our daughter's sake, for once in your life be patient. I'm not going anywhere.

Love Always,

Jennifer

PS I have one request for my funeral. Please ask Rossi to give my eulogy. He'll understand.

Emily stared at the letter as the tears flowed down her face. She heard the front door open and she jumped from her chair and ran to the foyer.

"Hey Em, I'm h…" JJ was cut off by Emily's lips as she pulled JJ into a passionate embrace in the hallway. "…home." JJ smiled after the broke apart. "Well not that I'm complaining but what was that for? And have you been crying?" JJ asked as she noticed the tear tracks on Emily's cheeks.

"I found this while I was cleaning the office." Emily held up the letter.

"You weren't suppose to find that." JJ said she led Emily to the couch. "I put it in the desk drawer because we never clean the desk drawers. Only Garcia knew it was there."

"I got bored." Emily said as she wiped a few stray tears away. "When did you write it?"

"I write one every year." Emily stared back in shock. "A couple days after New Year's I write another one. It's mostly the same from year to year but some things change. Mostly I try to keep it current with AJ. I can't very well talk about AJ's first boyfriend if she already has one, now can I?" JJ teased.

"Oh yeah, as for that; I can't promise that I won't kill him." Emily laughed for a few seconds and then she fell silent as a few more tears fell.

"Baby, I'm sorry if the letter upset you but I wanted to make sure that if something happened to me you knew how much I loved you."

"I do know how much you love me and that is what hurts. While reading this letter I had a brief moment where I felt what it would be like to not have you here with me anymore and it sucked. In that brief moment I felt pain like I have never felt before. You tell me to move on, but honestly I don't think I could or would want too. You are everything to me JJ. I can't lose you." JJ wiped Emily's tears away with her thumb as she cupped Emily's cheek.

"I don't think I could move on either Emily, but for our daughter we can't mourn each other forever. I don't want to lose you either; but given the job that we do we both know that is a strong possibility. Take last weekend for example."

"I know. I guess the letter just came as a shock to me is all." Emily smiled. "Are you going to keep writing them now that I know about it?"

"If you want me too I will. It is your letter."

"I would like you too. It is something nice to hold on to, if something does happen." Emily felt her heart cringe a little just thinking about it. "I do have one question though."

"Yeah, what is that?"

"Why Rossi?" Emily asked referring to JJ's request. "I didn't realize that you were that close."

"My senior year at Georgetown Rossi was promoting his second book and it was his speech and that book that convinced me to become an agent. He is the reason that I am here today. Everything that I have, everything I have become is a direct result of that meeting."

"Wow, I had no idea." Emily replied back in shock. "Does he know?"

"Yes he does. That is why I wanted him, plus I figure between all of you he is the least likely to tell an embarrassing story about me." JJ laughed as Emily slapped her arm.

A/N- You seriously don't know how difficult that letter was to write..... PLEASE REVIEW.....