A/N: Chapter brought to you by getting off early to vote and having time in between lol. GET OUT AND VOTE EVERYONE! Also, I don't own these characters.
Lanay kept trying to sleep but hearing Seth toss and turn in the next bed didn't help at all. The slightest sound never failed to keep her awake and with everything going on it was worst. Her eyes went upon the clock on the dresser. She grumbled to herself noting that it was only 1AM and she could fit in another 5 hours max. She threw the covers off and climbed in the bed with him without thinking.
"Fucking stay still." She moaned out in his ear placing her arm around his waist. The feel of his body felt comfortable and too familiar, it took everything within her power to not run her hands over his abs. The soft feel of the hair on his chest was her favorite to feel under her palms. Stop it. Stop letting your thoughts go this way, if you had a penis you would be humping him right now.
Seth stilled finally as his hand clasped over hers; it was familiar. He was that positive energy to come into her life. Her world only knew heartbreak, betrayal, abuse and he came and came in and made it change. His cocky attitude mixed with her nonchalant bitterness was one that no one saw coming, neither did they.
She never used the words "love" with him but it was damn sure felt. Love was unfamiliar territory for her but not Seth who could fall in love with the glance of a skirt or at least lust. She rebuffed his advances and it made him try harder until one night she finally gave into temptation and he was the only one for her. Isn't that what love is? Finding that one person that drove you crazy but being away from them will drive you insane? That's what he did. "When I saw you I fell in love and you smiled because you knew" She whispered caressing his hand. It was her favorite misquote, most mistook it for Shakespeare but it was actually from Arrigo Boito.
"I knew I loved you before I met you." A small voice whispered out. "Savage Garden circa 1999."
Lanay stilled her movements but wasn't shocked. His sleep was just as light as hers as she continued her caresses to his hand, moving them under his shirt to feel the hair she longed to touch under his shirt.
"You wouldn't stop moving."
"So you thought rubbing my hand and whispering would help."
"Something like that."
Seth turned around finally facing her, pushing her long braids out of her face, his hand went against her cheek, a light touch that she didn't want to admit she missed for so long. Her eyes closed as she bit her lip. They were never this gentle with each other, it was always rushed until the aftermath.
"I'm going to kiss you if I continue and I won't be able to stop. I won't let you out of my sight and you won't go back to Hunter. You're not prepared for that."
"How do you know what I'm prepared for?" Lanay scooted her body closer to his, their lips mere centimeters apart.
"You're not. I will risk my life for you. Again."
"Stop putting yourself in danger for me."
"You're worth it."
The kiss came quickly but was a light press of lips against each other and she wanted more. He was the last one she allowed to kiss, kissing involved feelings, it meant more than just sex and this wasn't any different.
"Stop me now." He said pulling away.
"I can't." Lanay pressed her lips against his again as their bodies groped for each other. This is what she's been missing in her life, he was the missing piece to an almost complete puzzle; the corner piece that would make it complete. "You make me complete in this messy ass world of ours."
"Same." Seth rolled himself on top of her making sure to keep his weight completely off her and she could feel him. It was all she wanted as she hunched her body onto his.
Their uneven breathing was all that was heard in the room as Seth bent down to continue pressing his lips against hers. It felt like no time passed since they last did this, it was as if she was always there but he knew it was from the truth.
There was too much between them right now with Hunter and Stephanie, he had to keep her safe. If they were to go down this road it would just cloud both of their minds, make them more confused, and even put them in further danger.
"Lanay, we have to stop." He moaned against her lips feeling her hands moving up her back.
"No."
"Yes. This is good but not right now." He looked down at her and she suddenly turned her head from his, feeling dejected.
"Get off me."
"I'm not rejecting you but we have to stay on guard for now."
"I will knee you in your dick if you don't get off me." Lanay's anger was serious. The embarrassment she felt annoyed her once he finally moved and she got out of the bed. "I'm heading out."
"That's not what I meant!" Seth exclaimed looking at her as she put her shoes back on.
"It's what I mean. I have to go regardless so I'd rather just do it now."
Seth watched her as she grabbed her gun off the dresser tucking it back in her ankle. "I wasn't pushing you away, you know I want this! You felt how I want this but I can't risk putting either of us in danger until this shit between Hunter and Stephanie is done."
"I understand." Lanay looked above him not able to look into his eyes. "I get it. You can't fuck me cause I'm going to be all fucked up more than I already and vice versa."
"It's not fucking" Seth hissed out. "Fine, you want me to fuck you? Let's go!" He got up quickly pushing her against the wall grinding himself into her.
"Get off me Rollins!"
"This is what you want, right?"
Lanay's knee came up immediately kneeing him and watched him collapse.
"See how easy it was to do that with me but couldn't with Dean, huh?"
"Fuck you."
"That's what you wanted to do." Seth wanted to stop his words but it was easy to lose sight of his emotions when it came to her be it happiness, sadness, anger, or even the frustration he felt now.
Lanay was too familiar with him, his ugly moments like now but the Seth she wanted a few seconds ago was a side she didn't get to explore often.
"We just destroy each other. You're right, let's hold off on... whatever this is and maybe one day we'll get it right."
She threw a smile over her shoulder as she walked out the door leaving him behind.
Lanay didn't even check her surroundings as she got in the car and felt a gun pressed against her head.
"You just couldn't leave him alone, could you?" A familiar voice spoke in the backseat.
A/N: thanks for reading!
