Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyer owns Twilight
BPOV
As I laid there while Edward softly placed kisses on my stomach, I thought back to when I first found out I was pregnant.
Flashback
I was standing in the aisle at the pharmacy. Gazing at the dozens of tests, not sure which one to pick up. I had been standing contemplating which test to get for over a half hour now. Really it shouldn't be this hard, all I had to do was pick one take it home pee on it and wait for the results. But which one should I get?
"You should get that one right there."
Startled out of my train of thought, I turned to see a tiny pixie standing behind me. She had short spiky black hair and large expressive honey colored eyes. With some designer jeans on and a blue top with green swirls that wrapped around her waist. She had on black peep toe pumps and a large Gucci purse was slung over her left shoulder.
"Huh?"
"You should get that one right there," she chuckled as she reached past me to grab a pink box.
"Oh, thanks."
" I know its hard to choose but I found this one is more accurate than the others. I had to take this exact test last week, I'm Alice by the way," she said as she held out her hand patiently.
"Bella," I muttered grasping her hand.
"So are you and your husband trying too?"
"No, we aren't," I could feel the tears crowding my eyes.
"Oh! I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to make you cry."
"Oh no its fine its just I don't think my husband will be very happy to find out I might be pregnant."
"Nonsense! Trust me your husband will be thrilled to find out you might be having a baby."
"Well thanks for the help, but I really must be going."
"Oh no problem. Here." She dug through her purse and pulled out a piece of paper and began to scribble on it. "Call me when you want to have lunch or something."
"Ok, well it was nice meeting you Alice."
"You too Bella." With that she turned and sauntered into the next aisle with a dancers grace.
As I made my way through check out I couldn't help but feel another wave of nauseous ness pass through me like a tidal wave. Hopefully I make it out of here without throwing up on anybody. When I finally stepped outside into the cool rain I could feel myself getting a little better. I quickly jumped into my beat up red truck and drove home. When I reached the mansion I could feel the panic start again. I looked around trying to spy Jacob's car, it was there on the other side of the flower bed. Great, now how am I supposed to get past him?
Surely he would want to know where I had been and what had taken me so long. At least now in our marriage he no longer had body guards following me around. As I was deemed his plain wife by more than one man.
Stepping out of my truck I felt my foot slip and before I knew it I landed on my ass on the gravel driveway. Before I could get up I heard a booming laugh come from the house. So much for my dignity. As I stood up I saw that it was in fact Jake standing there laughing. Quickly shoving the test in my coat pocket I made my way towards the house.
"So where have you been?"
"The store."
"Bullshit, why don't you have any bags with you."
"I didn't see anything I liked."
I quickly darted past him sufficiently ending our conversation. I made my way up the white marble staircase and into the bathroom. The walls were painted a light baby blue with a white trim. The sink and countertop where done in a royal blue, along with almost everything else in the bathroom. Back when we first got married I had nicknamed this the blue bathroom. Now this bathroom and everything and everyone in this house disgusted me except Edward of course but he only ever came over to talk business with Jake. Thinking of Edward had me nervous again. What would I do if it was positive? How would I keep Jake from finding out? And more importantly what would happen between Edward and me once he found out too? With shaking hands I dug out the dreaded test. I pulled out the test with cold clammy hands. Dip test in urine, set on stable surface, wait three minutes for results.
I sank to the floor, my legs unable to support me anymore. What I wouldn't give to have Edward be here to hold and comfort me. But he can't you know that. A voice inside my head whispered. Everything seemed like it was too much all of a sudden and tears started to fall from my eyes. Great now I'm crying and sitting on the floor. With more than slight irritation at myself I pulled myself off the floor and proceeded to take the test. Once I was done peeing on it I sat it on the blue counter top. I walked away from it and sat on the edge of the tub. You can do this, You can do this….. Before I knew it three minutes were up. I stood up and took one wobbly step after another towards the sink. I immediately began crying again because there was a little pink plus sign.
One Week Later
I sat there in the waiting room with my heart beating wildly in my chest. I had dreaded this moment since that test. I scanned the room trying to see if any one recognized me, all I would need right now is for someone Jacob or I know to see me here and for him to find out I was here. But all I saw where pregnant women with their husbands talking in hushed tones about what to name their babies and so on. But what really got to me was the looks of adoration on the husbands faces as the talked with their wives. Or the way they would rub their bellies. Oh Edward! Why couldn't that be us? Why did we have to hide our love behind closed doors? Why did fate have to be so cruel?
"Isabella Black?"
I gazed up towards the nurse. She was a pretty young girl, with blond hair that was pulled back into a bun and bright hazel eyes. She had on scrubs with a jungle pattern printed on them and pens stuck in her pocket.
"The doctor will see you now."
I got up and followed her back into the examination room. The room was painted all white with various posters all over the walls. Some where the various stages of pregnancy and others where the various venereal diseases and what they looked like.
"Here put this gown on, open at the front and the doctor should be with you shortly."
With that she left, closing the door behind her. I quickly stripped myself of my jeans and t-shirt and pulled on the crinkly gown. I still couldn't see how anyone could call these gowns they were more or less paper in the shape of a body, with plastic strings to tie it together. I sat down on the table and numbly stared at the pregnancy posters wondering which one I was at and which one would best depict the way my baby looked right now. Suddenly there was a knock at the door, as the door opened.
"Hello Isabella I'm Dr. Rosalie Hale." she shook my hand as she sat down on the stool near the sink. "So what brings you in today?"
"Please call me Bella."
"Ok Bella, what brings you here today?"
She was inhumanly beautiful, with long blond hair and deep honey colored eyes, high cheek bones and delicate features. She looked more like a supermodel than a doctor.
"Well I took a home pregnancy test and it came back positive."
"When was your last cycle?"
"About two months ago."
"And how was your flow? Was it light?"
"Yeah it was but I thought it was just stress, I didn't think much of it."
"Alright well lets take a look and check how far along you are."
She left for a moment and when she returned she had a cart with her. On the cart was a little monitor.
"Alright Bella now pull the gown away from your stomach and I'm sorry but this gel will be a little cold."
With that she squirted my stomach with bluish almost clear gel, the smell of it alone made me gag.
Noticing my gag Dr. Hale asked, "Are you going to be alright?"
"Yeah just the smell from the gel that's all."
"It's ok most of my patients completely forget the smell when they see their child on the monitor."
Then she took out the wand and proceeded to rub the gel over my stomach. Within a few minutes I heard a loud whooshing sound. I felt my eyes tear up with the sound I quickly glanced over and saw a little outline of a person on the screen.
"Well now it looks like your about eight weeks along."
She froze some of the shots and printed them out for me. I couldn't help but to stare in awe at the little picture in front of me. She turned around and wrote onto her script pad.
"And here is your prescription for your prenatal vitamins, now I would like to schedule an appointment for next month. Just to check up you and the baby."
She turned around ready to walk out of the door. "Dr. Hale wait."
"Yes?" She stopped mid step and turned towards me.
"I was wondering if there was anyway that I could have a test done to see exactly when thi baby was conceived."
"Well yes but normally we don't do that kind of test."
"Please" I begged, "I really need to know."
"Alright but we need to take a blood sample to run the test."
I cringed "Ok."
I hated needles and the smell of blood always made me want to puke. For as long as I could remember I could always smell blood. No one else I knew could, only me.
Dr. Hale walked out of the office giving me a weird look on the way out, muttering something about getting a nurse.
I just sat there idly wondering what I was going to tell Edward. Should I lie to him and get rid of it? No, that would be wrong and besides he has a right to know. I mentally chastised myself, Edward had been nothing but wonderful and perfect to me. Of course he would want to know, I mean after all if it was his he would definitely want to know. Even if I was forced to get rid of it.
Just as quickly as I got undressed I got dressed and sat back on the table, awaiting the nurse. Before too much longer the same nurse who had shown me to the room walked in and walked over to the cabinets by the sink and began pulling out a vial with a needle.
"Now I promise to get this over with as soon as possible." She smiled at me as she said this, "Trust me I hate getting my blood drawn to so I'll try and be as quick as I can."
True to her word she drew my blood rather fast. "Now when call I find out my results?"
"Um just call within a few days we should have the test results then."
As I walked out and to the front desk to make my next appointment, I looked at everyone still in the waiting room and my chest tightened. How was I ever going to tell him?
End of Flashback
I called the doctors office four days later to discover that the baby was conceived a week before my last period. My and Jake hadn't slept together in four and a half months.
"Bella, did you hear me?"
"Huh?"
"I said what's wrong you look like your going to cry?"
"Oh nothing," to my horror I discovered I had tears in my eyes, I quickly went to wipe them away.
"Bella love, don't worry like I said I will keep you safe, you and the baby mean everything to me. I promise I'll even use my dying breath if I have to just to keep you safe."
His words brought fresh tears to my eyes, "I know I would too."
"I love you Bella."
"I love you too Edward."
"Oh I almost forgot here I brought something with me hoping you could hang onto it for me for safe keeping."
With that I got up and looked through my purse sitting at the end of the bed. Once I found the envelope I had been searching for and guarding for the last week I handed it over to Edward.
"What's this?"
"Just open it and you'll see."
He opened the envelope with wariness but froze when he spied the pictures.
"Are these…"
"Yes my love those are the ultrasound photos, that's our baby."
"All the more reason I should make you my wife for all eternity."
