"Usagi-san, please do not make me wait." I whined as his fingers brushed ever so slightly on my stomach. He chuckled into my ears. "Patience Misaki."

"You are such a tease."

"Uhh, Misaki? Are you alright?" I quickly sat up at the sound of niichan's voice. Coming back to reality I saw I was at the kitchen table, bowl of half eaten cereal in front of me. My hand was asleep from my face leaning up on it and the spoon in my hand angled down, a puddle of milk underneath. "I'm sorry! I will clean it up right now." I grabbed a napkin and wiped it off.

Niichan chuckled. "No worries but it is strange to see you so lost in thought. Is everything alright?"

"Yes." I answered too quickly. No way would I tell niichan the truth. "I have to get to school. Bye niichan." I ran out, lucky to have dodged that.

I barely paid any attention in school. I could not even tell you what the teacher was talking about in class (thank God I was not called on). I did not even hear the lunch bell ring.

"Misaki, you are spacing out again." I looked up at my only friend, Hidori. She was a sweet girl, the only one I actually found something in common, and she did not judge my brother complex. In fact, she has her own complex with her younger sister.

"Sorry, what did you say?"

"I saaaaiiiid I have your lunch right here." Since the both of us do not eat a lot and to save money, we switch off who makes one bento for us to share. I had no appetite that day. How could I when everytime I daze off my naughty thoughts now star my tutor?

Could this be considered cheating?

"Misaki, are you alright? You seem deep in thought."

"I'm fine."

She stared at me for a second when before I could prepare to dodge she tossed her napkin, hitting my forehead. "What was that for?!"

"'Cuz I know you are lying to me. Now what is really going on? That Manami chick move in yet?"

I growled, "No." That sure would suck. When she kept looking at me I sighed, giving in. "Fine. You know how almost everyday I go over to Usami-sensei's house to study."

"Right. The man-child who is your new love rival."

"Well…lately I have been having strange dreams about him."

"Strange how?" I am pretty sure I was blushing because my face was on fire. "The…dreams…that I usually have of me and niichan…he is now in them."

Her face went blank. "So you are fantasizing about Usami-sensei instead."

"YES!" It definitely sounds like I am cheating on niichan! "I cannot help it. No matter where I am or my thoughts, whenever I start thinking niichan is hardly in any of them! I don't know what is wrong with me!" Maybe I should see a doctor.

"There is nothing wrong with you Misaki."

There is not?

"You just are breaking your brother complex."

Wait what?

She snickered. "I guess you finally found someone who is more attractive then your brother."

"No, no, no! I cannot cheat on niichan!"

"It is not cheating if you are never going out." Damn she is cruel. "But there is no harm in finding someone else attractive. That just means you are growing up. We all cannot have our sibling complexes forever."

"How could you say that Hidori? You yourself have a complex."

She nodded, eating the last bit of rice. "I know but that is only because I had to raise my lovely Miwa-chan since our parents work too much. I am always going to be over-protective of her but I have to understand that she will one day live her own life that does not surround me. And I will live mine. The same is going to happen with you and your brother. It already is happening with him being in love."

Live my own life? How could I do that without niichan? "With Usami-sensei you do run into the problem that he plays for the other team."

Her words stuck with me after lunch and all throughout school. Let's just say, and this is a huge 'what if,' what if I did fall out of love with niichan and in love with Usami, that is still a heartbreak since Usami is gay. And then what if niichan decides to choose Manami over me, another heartbreak. "In the end I will be alone."

"What did you say?" I glanced up at Usami-sensei. "You need to focus Misaki or your grades will go down again."

"I know. Leave me alone."

"Someone is moody today. Are you on your period?"

"Shut up!" How could I focus on anything; my heart is in a turmoil right now. When he was not noticing I caught myself glancing at Usami. He was handsome I will give him that. If he was straight he could get any girl he wanted I am sure. Not to mention he is a famous author and rich. Anyone really would be lucky to have him. "Hey Usami-sensei, can I ask you something?"

He looked up from my workbook, his glasses slipping to his nose. "What?"

"How come you never confessed to niichan? I am sure you could have easily gotten him."

Usami looked amused before chuckling softly, "His friendship is something I value deeply. I would never do anything to jeopardize that. I am satisfied with the way we are now."

"Does not sound so satisfying."

"You are not happy with that answer? Miss brother complex?" My normal self would have argued and yelled back but right now I was too confused to say anything. "No comment?"

"I am not in the mood." He looked at me weirdly but went back to looking at my work. Am I really breaking my brother complex? And because of this man?

At home I barely touched my food, which was strange since niichan made it and usually I am the first down. "Misaki is everything alright?" Niichan asked.

"Niichan, what is it like to be in love?" I blurted without thinking.

When he did not say anything I looked up only to be taken back with the frantic look in his face. "NO MISAKI! YOU CANNOT BE IN LOVE! NOT MY SWEET, INNOCENT LITTLE GIRL. YOU CANNOT GROW UP ALREADY."

"Calm down niichan! I am not in love." No way.

He took several breaths and wiped his eyes. "Misaki, do not give me such a scare like that again." Sorry? "But then why did you ask that?"

"Uh a classmate of mine was going on about being in love with her boyfriend and I was just wondering what it felt like to be in love."

He sighed with relief. "Well Misaki, love is when you have deep feelings for someone. You will want to see them everyday, want to make them smile, want to hold them when they cry. Being in love is finding that special someone you want to be with. Misaki?"

So…I AM STILL IN LOVE WITH NIICHAN!

"Nothing niichan." I smiled brightly, eating my food. "This is really good."

"Glad to see your mood improve!"

"Of course! Niichan always makes me feel better." I never had those feelings about Usami before. So just because I think about Usami means nothing.

Right?

"Ahh, Usami…" "You did great on your last test. You deserve a reward."

"Usami, I can't no more." His hands traveled lower, lightly brushing against my stomach. "Don't tease me."

"You love every part of this."

"I love you."

I jumped up, sweat going down my cheeks. "What the hell is going on?"