Personality

AN: hey kids! Its story time!

Once upon a time I had a wonderful story written out for this.

And then my computer threw up.

And the story died.

The end.

D: so yeah a late, very short, crappy reproduction of the original. D: I'm sorry!

Laven week: day six: Caged

AU

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Allen Walker was lucky to be alive. That's what everyone said. I'm lucky. I get a second chance at life, a new beginning, a fresh start. But I didn't want any of those things. I didn't care enough to enjoy them, even if part of me tells me I should be happy to still be breathing. All I feel is apathy though, a numbness that sinks into my heart and blocks everyone out.

I shouldn't have survived that fire. I should have died with my father, then at least the coldness I felt wouldn't be consuming me, freezing me from the inside out. I hated how empty everything seemed. The walls of the hospital I was forced to stay in were blank and dead, the room was always silent save for when nurses came in to check on me, the eyes in the mirror that I saw every day, all of it. Empty, lonely, cold, everything I had never thought I would be.

It was worse than anything death could have held in store for me.

Living like this was like living in a cage that was too small. Sitting in a lonely place day in and day out without the freedom to move at all, restrained by bars and chains and locks that were too heavy to even try to move. No one came to visit, no one cared enough to make sure I was alive except for the nurses, but they were paid to do that.

A commotion in the hall made me look up. There was someone arguing with the nurses about something or other and I sighed in irritation. I didn't want to hear someone else's friend or family member or whoever fighting. I didn't want to think about someone else having a person they loved close by when I had no one. I was all alone in the world and-

"Allen!" the white haired teen jumped and looked up, eyes wide as a familiar figure ran through the doorway, slamming the door shut on an angry nurse.

"L-Lavi?!" The redhead smiled sheepishly, locking the door behind him as the nurse swore furiously.

"Hey, I don't have much time before they get the door open and get security to drag me away. Again." Lavi looked to the side with a small, guilty grin on his face. "How are you? Are you holding up okay? Everyone sends their love. Except Yuu-Chan. He said to get your ass out of the hospital because you owe him a rematch."

The redhead dug around in his pocket and pulled out a small package and a camera, tossing them to me with a grin. "Lenalee baked you a giant batch of cookies but that's all I could get in here. We held a memorial for Mana outside the ruins of the house. I took pictures and recorded it for you. Sorry I haven't been able to visit you until now; stupid nurse said you're 'not in fit mental condition' to have visitors. Bullshit right?"

I didn't even know what to say to him, so I just sat there, shocked. He chuckled and walked over, sitting in front of me on the bed with a smile. It was so strange to see anyone in that room with me, especially someone as bright and warm as Lavi.

"Uh..."

"Yeah! It totally is! So I snuck past security and the nurses but one caught me at the last second so I had to make a mad dash for your room."

"Oh..." I really couldn't think of anything else to say. Here was this person, my best friend, talking to me like nothing had happened, doing everything he could to cheer me up.

"So yeah, the nurse will probably be in here to drag me out in about five minutes." Lavi smiled, moving forward and pulling Allen into a careful hug. "You can get through this, Allen. And as soon as the stupid nurses let me in, I'll be in here as much as physically possible." He pulled back smiling, and I felt my heart warm a little, and I tried to smile back.

"Thanks... Lavi... I-" the nurse burst in at that moment, looking livid.

"Lavi, you little creep! You are not to see this patient until I give you permission!" I blinked at the exchange, watching as Lavi was dragged out complaining loudly.

"I'll sneak in again to see you soon, Allen! Hang tough!"

"Like hell you will! No one is to see the patient!" I sighed as the door slammed closed and Lavi's protests got fainter as he was dragged away from my room.

I let a tiny smile creep onto my face, unwrapping the crushed cookies Lavi had given to me. Perhaps living without Mana wasn't quite like being in a cage after all.

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END, I PROMISE.

AN: DX emoemoemoangstangstangst this was so much better the first time. Sorry!