A/N not mine, I own nothing but the plot.
Visitor
"...we gave her up for adoption. You were born one year later to the day. When your Mom found out, she was livid. Not only did I cheat on her with my best friend, but I never told her about my daughter. When I got home after leaving the BAU for the last time. Savannah confronted me on all of it. She informed me that if I ever spoke to any of my friends from the unit, she would take you from me. She would have too. If I tried to divorce her, she would take you. No matter what I said or did, she would use you as my punishment. When she left, finally, I was still looking over my shoulder. I needed to protect all of you."
"Derek, you need to know that on her eighteenth birthday, Alison contacted me. Spencer and I have met with her. We haven't told her anything about you. If you want to talk to her, I will give you her number. If not, it's your loss. She is an officer with the NYPD.
"I can understand why Savannah was upset, but why did she use Hank that way? No parent should hold an innocent child over the head of the other, just as punishment. In the end, it hurts the child more than either party. We had a drunken one night stand, that resulted in the birth of Alison. We both needed comfort that night and we turned to each other. It wasn't intentional to hurt anyone. I still would like to know how she found out. The only person I told was Spencer and that was a year after you left."
"I told my sister, Des." he whispered.
"And your sister let the cat out of the bag, so to speak. Spence, do you want to add anything here?"
Spencer cleared his throat, "I don't know what to say. I mean, you deliberately cut us all out of your life. Do you know how terrified Penelope was when she told me she was pregnant with our oldest? She was afraid that I would leave her too. She was afraid that I would want her to have an abortion or put the baby up for adoption. She was afraid that I would treat her, the woman that I love, the same way you did. I wouldn't abandon her or our children."
Derek was shocked by the possessive nature of Spencer. The venom in his voice. The hostility in his body language, had Derek in high alert. He knew that Spencer would make it hard on him. After everything that happened with Gideon and Emily; then he played the disappearing act on him. If he was standing in Spencer's shoes, it would be the same.
"Pops, I am actually at a loss of words."
Penelope stood and began to pace. This was something she had always done when she started to feel anxious.
"There's something you're not telling us, I can hear it in your voice." She stated pointedly at Derek.
"When Savannah left me, she told me that if I even thought of speaking to you or anyone for five years after our divorce, she would make sure that the white whore and her bastard child would pay with their lives. I couldn't let that happen. So, I stayed away."
"Why now? We could have helped you. Why come back into our lives now?"
"I had a visitor, turns out he is also my namesake. He talked some sense in me. Your oldest son is a force to be reckoned with, he should be a lawyer. As soon as he left my home, I knew I had to at least reach out. I missed my friends and family."
"You must not have missed us that badly. I mean you stayed away for over twenty years. Even after Savannah left you. Now tell us the rest of it." Penelope growled out.
"The night I left the BAU, she and I were arguing. I yelled at her after she told me she knew about our daughter. I yelled that I married the wrong person. That I should have married Penelope. I told her that I never loved her and never will. That's when she threatened me with Hank. I had already signed my daughter to strangers, I wasn't about to lose my son too."
"You do understand that no matter what you may think. I am married, happily. You may have deserted us, but Spencer and I never deserted each other. I fell in love with him. I realized that what I felt for you was just a distant memory. You became more of an acquaintance before you left. You, and only you, made the choices that you did. I didn't want to give Alison up, but it was either that or move away from the only family I had left. She needed two parents to love her and raise her, and I couldn't give her that. For someone that supposedly loved me, you choose your ex-wife over me. That's not love, that's something else entirely.
"If you ever really gave a damn about us, you would have found a way to let us in, to help you. You wouldn't have let any of this go that far. You're a fighter, Derek Morgan, for those you truly love, you are a fighter."
Conversation came to an abrupt halt when they heard the front door slam. Three young men walked into the den. Two of them looked like Spencer and the younger of the three looked like Pen.
"Mom, why is Hanks car here?"
"Guys, I would like to introduce you to Hanks Dad, Derek Morgan. Derek, these are our other three children, Thomas and Joseph are the 16 year old twins, and Jordan is 14."
He shook each of their hands, before they left to go up to bed. He couldn't help but think of what might have been. If he had just given into his heart, these might have been his children with Penelope.
"I thinks it may be time to say good night. It's getting late, and Hank starts his new job in the morning. I would like to meet you all for lunch one day this week. I want to try and renew our friendship. Start over. I know that I have a lot of work cut out for me, and I'm willing to do it all."
"Penelope and I will discuss it. However, Alison will be in town this week. Maybe we can set up a time for all of us to get together."
"I would love to meet her. You name the time and place, and I'll move heaven and earth to be there."
With that, Derek and his family left the Reid home. The trip was made in silence. He got up to the bedroom and flopped face first into the bed. He knew Spencer was going to be pissed, he just hadn't expected the side of him, that he saw tonight. They were once his best friends, and he was now afraid that he had damaged their friendships beyond repair.
