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Alex to Pipes: Can I come over, I think we need to talk
Pipes to Alex: Larry is here, not a good idea.
Alex to Pipes: Can you sneak out for a bit, over to mine? I really do think we should speak.
Alex's heart was in her mouth, Piper hadn't replied for a few minutes and she wondered if the silence was an answer in itself. The truth was she had never felt like this about anyone before, and had never wanted to spend more than one night, never mind the following morning with anyone. To Alex Vause, women were like cheap razors: easily broken and disposable. Until that is, she had met Piper Chapman. Now everything she thought she new about women had been thrown out of the window, because what she felt for the blonde was like nothing else. It felt like Christmas morning and all her birthdays rolled into one, but she couldn't explain why, only that it was a special feeling. Finally a whatsapp alert appeared on her phone from the less tall woman.
Pipes to Alex: Ok, I'll see you at yours in twenty minutes.
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Alex had tidied the apartment and lit some joss sticks and candles to make the place cosier. She placed a lilac throw on the floor and adorned it with some Potpourri (she had wanted to get rose petals, but when she found out the cost of them and that it would be a huge chunk of her pay check for the week, she promptly vetoed that idea). Taystee had managed to smuggle her out a bottle of the house white for her, "this stuff tastes like toilet water if y'all ask me, but you owe me big style girl" she had chimed, when handing over the "borrowed" booty to Alex.
Alex's stomach felt like it was competing in the gymnastics at the Olympic games with the number of somersaults it was doing. She tried to ignore it best she good and lit a Marlborough red to ease the tension. She suddenly noticed her stomach rumbling so quickly chomped down a Baby Ruth and washed it down with some Ocean Spray cranberry juice. Feeling slightly replenished, she hunted around her place to see what she could rustle up as a romantic meal for Piper and cursed not asking Olivier, the head chef and her good friend, to prepare something for her as a favor. It was too late now though.
She opened one cupboard, it contained some gram crackers, some chocolate spread and a jar of pickles. Alex was no cook, but she was pretty certain nothing edible could be made out of that. She opened the next and noticed a couple of cans of mac n cheese and she suddenly had an idea. She scooped the contents of both cans out into an oven dish, sprinkled some smoked paprika over the top, some slightly stale breadcrumbs and some Monterey Jack cheese on top of that and placed it in the oven on 350 for 40-45 minutes. She grinned, pleased with her efforts.
She opened the salad drawer of her small fridge and pulled out some lettuce. Since she had been earning her own money, it had been nice to buy little luxuries like iceberg lettuce. Growing up, the fridge had never seemed to contain such treats. She quickly remembered her sickly mother and suddenly felt guilty about basking in the glory of her fresh produce. She hurriedly shoved it back into the fridge and slammed the door shut, the bottles of Heineken rattling in the fridge door as she did so.
A few minutes later the door buzzed. With her heart beating a strange sort of rhythm, she strode across the room and let the blonde in. One entering the room the blonde spotted the throw and the adornments and smiled, although she quickly began to cough and splutter as she got a lungful of the joss sticks.
"You ok?" Alex asked, handing Piper a glass of Evian. Piper nodded.
"Just never got on well with incense, even at college the smell used to make me barf"
"Oh, I'm so sorry" Alex replied "I was just trying to make this special". A single tear threatened to trickle out of her eye, but she managed to hold it back.
"Don't be" the blonde said, clasping Alex's hand with her own.
The contact make sparks shoot through Alex and it was all she could do to stop herself ravishing the blonde there and then atop the potpourri.
"Piper, I wanted to know why you left like that the other day. I'm gonna be real with you, I really like you, I want to do this, like more than anything I've ever wanted before, like more than getting VIP tickets at a Guns N Roses concert. But I need to know you want the same thing, otherwise we can't carry on like this." She paused, allowing the blonde to have her say and Piper didn't hesitate.
"Since I met you at the zoo that day, I can't think about anything else. In the monkey enclosure, I knew this was something special…but…"
Alex could sense the but, but it didn't make it any harder when she actually heard the words leaving Piper's lips.
"Larry" Alex said.
The blonde nodded. "I've been with him so long and I don't want to hurt him"
Alex on the other hand could think of nothing more than how she would like to hurt him.
"So what do you want to do then?" she asked the blonde, her eyes threatening to spill over with one single tear after another. Yes she had fucked a woman last night, tried to forget about Piper and later pretend she was Piper, which the woman had got cross at, informing Alex several times that her name was actually Zoe. But really, she could not see beyond this blonde and it was breaking her heart into tiny, small little pieces.
"I'm sorry Alex, but I don't think I can see you again" Piper said, snatching up her Chanel vintage beret. "Take care".
Alex watched the blonde leave and stared down at the scattered potpourri; pieces of her heart.
