When they were done, he dropped her off at her place, which was a cottage like house along the beach. She was a pretty privileged girl who lived on her own now. She worked at the most expensive clothing store in Wasaga.

"Coming in?" she took his hand while going up her stairs.

Sean cringed a bit, but she pulled him inside and slammed the door shut behind him.

"I thought you wanted to talk." he said, sitting on the couch as she disappeared in the kitchen for a second.

"I do." she called back.

He stared hard at the coffee table, then glared at it. He should come clean.. but this whole situation confused him. Emma wasn't some dirty little secret, infact, nothing was going on between them.. so he didn't REALLY have to say anything but some of him was telling him he did. Some of him felt guilty, but maybe that's because the old feelings for Emma was confusing the hell out of him.

He should be focused on Victoria and he just couldn't, not knowing Emma was back in his life again.

"Maybe I should do the talking.." he confessed and heard her foot steps behind him and turned his head, "Victoria I'm-" he stopped talking. She was in that outfit she bought in the store.

That was fucking evil.

But, as she walked over to him and pushed him more back against the couch with a giggle, he couldn't help but wish her legs were longer, tanner, and her green eyes hazel, not to mention, he wasn't loving the brunnette hair..

you love your blondes...

Sean shut his eyes as she ran her fingers through his hair, "It's been too long since you've had me." she whispered seducing in his ear.

He shook his head no but her hands were trailing up his shirt and took it off, "Victoria.." he protested, but now shirtless and groaned when she straddled him and then pushed her own breasts together in front of him in that lacey lingerie.

"Don't you want me?" she purred, and kissed him, biting his lower lip and he sighed as she kept straddling him.

She was hot, but she was no Emma Nelson. She wasn't beautiful to him you know? I mean she was a good looking girl but she didn't leave him out of breath just by looking at her. He hoped she'd find a guy who'd feel that way about her, but for him? She just wasn't the girl who he could talk about anything to, or made him laugh, or couldn't keep his hands off of most of the time, and Victoria definitely wasn't someone who challenged him. Victoria was also wild 24/7, which is what he did like most about her before, but that was when he was in a bad place, and not looking for a relationship.. now he was starting to think Victoria might think they were in one. They had been messing around for more than a year but he was gone MOST of the time to the army.. plus, it's what he told Emma in spite right? That he had a girl friend. But he wasn't sure anymore if he wanted Victoria anymore or she was just another Ellie, or Amy, another girl he was trying and failing to replace the real thing with. .

He wanted a girl who acted like she was untameable, but who could let him have her completely if he tried hard enough. . that's what he loved most, the challenge, the chase, the respect she made him have for her before she let him have her. He wanted a girl who gave it to him straight, who knew what was best for him, who made him a better man. He wanted the girl who knocked him off his feet the moment he met her and never expected her. If he hadn't of met her, he didn't think he would ever fell inlove. He wanted the girl who he could also make breathless just by a kiss, the girl who actually laughed at his lame jokes, the girl who dropped everything just for him, the girl who kept giving him chances every time he screwed up, whose family took him as their own...

...the girl who, infront of a crowd, was his classy respectable girlfriend nobody ever thought he could get, And then behind closed doors, she was his quite the tease, naughty type of girl in the sheets.

He wanted the girl he's been inlove with since he was 13 years old.

and yes, maybe a bit of a control freak.

He wanted Emma.

He pulled away from Victoria's kiss like fire, "I'm with someone."

Victoria stayed on top of him, but looked at him like he was crazy. She already knew, but what the HELL!? he was pulling away from this!?

"I don't care." she confirmed, shocking him and pulled him into a passionate kiss before his hands grasped her shoulders and leaned her back.

"I..." he stopped and explained, "I'm not with her but-"

"Good, who cares then." she straddled him again and began to undo his pants as she kissed around his neck and he groaned.

"Victoria I'm in love her!"

Now that, felt like a punch.

She got off him, numbly. She shook her head, "I can't believe that." she said, "I won't."

He looked up at her sadly, feeling awful, "It's true." and everything in his eyes said it was. He also did look sorry.

"Why can't you love me?" her voice cracked, showing her insecurities slipping through the cracks

Sean stood up, "Vicky.." he put his hands on her waist, "You're great, you are...attractive-"

"Great, a pep talk." she sneered and turned her back on him, crossing her arms and quickly whipped her tear away.

"Do you really wanna be with a guy who has some other girl on his mind?" Sean saddened and admitted, "I don't wanna be that type of guy. . believe me I wish I wasn't so hung up on her, I shouldn't be, we're not even together nor have plans to-" he stopped, painfully looking at the ground.

She turned around, hopeful, "There you just said it," she cupped his face, "Your guys aren't anything. You can move on." she slid her hands down his strong chest, "I can make you happy."

He shut his eyes and exhaled deeply, "No you can't." he whispered honestly. He couldn't even remember a time she made him laugh, but he wouldn't say that.

She bit her lip, her emerald eyes watering again, "Sean...you're the only guy around here who has the beauty and the heart."

"But it belongs to someone else."

She started to yell, "But you just said-"

"Jesus Victoria! I can't do this anymore, my heads ready to fucking explode as it is with Emma back in my life." he turned and rubbed his temples, then sighed ,"I've been in love with her ever since I was 13."

Victoria's eyes widened a bit. Wow..

Sean looked down in agony, remembering everything about him and Emma, "we dated, on and off for years until I finally proved myself to her, a-and even then we just fell apart."

Victoria frowned, and looked around to see her long black cotton jacket on the couch. She slowly began to put it on and he looked up, smiling sadly. She could tell he was really bothered by this though, she had always wondered what the dark secrets in Sean Hope Cameron were..

"what happened?" she whispered, showing she slightly cared, but only for him. She had a feeling she might resent this other girl for taking Sean away but hey, what girl wouldn't? He was a catch, a charmer.

Sean put his shirt on and sat on the couch with a sigh and frustrated look, "I was only gone for a few months." he glared at the coffee table again (though it wasn't it's fault), "and I went for her, the whole army idea was for her and for our lives together and.." his voice cracked a bit and he gritted his teeth until he calmed down, "and she just tells me she's moved on. Already with another guy."

Victoria even angered for him, shaking her head. This girl was an idiot! "What'd you do?"

Sean snickered bitterly, looking back up at her, "I lied and told her straight away I did too. .just so I didn't look like a fool." his eyes suddenly darkened a little and drifted back to the floor, "Wanna know the funniest thing?"

She tilted her head curiously.

"I had an engagement ring in my back pocket for her that night..."

Victoria's mouth dropped.

Sean nodded, and kept his eyes of Victoria, and for the first time since she's known him, she saw him struggling with his own feelings, clenching his fists.

"wow." She whispered, "This girl messed you up good."

He clenched his jaw, "Not like I didn't deserve it I guess. I hurt her a lot at the start. I wanted to go find that new guy she was dating and beat him to a bloody pulp but I didn't, cause I knew maybe I deserved this, and she deserved him..cause I didn't treat her right in the beginning." his eyes glazed over.

"Sean, you deserve.." Victoria drifted off, laughing sadly, "A girl who would not hurt you like that, who would gladly take your ring and who knows she's lucky to have you.."

Sean knew she was trying to make him feel better, but love just wasn't like that. When she falls for someone truly, she'd understand more that you couldn't pick who you loved or how they loved you or how much they 'should'.

He changed the subject, "Anyways. . she's only here now cause my mom still thinks we're engaged. I lied horribly to Emma and said it was my moms illness that made her think we were engaged but it was me, I actually told my mom before I visited Emma the last time that I was going to propose.. and after, when it never even happened, I was too hurt to want to talk about it with her, to explain and go through my break up again. So I kept away for a year, focused on the army, and I thought I could just confess what had happened the next time I was home from the army, ..and then I met you, and then my dad died, and then she got sick, so I waited...and then the next time she was so happy, already planning fucking wedding plans..and then she actually tells me to my face that her dying wish was to meet Emma." he looked at Victoria with a look, "So what the hell was I to do?"

Victoria smirked sadly, now understanding it all, "You go back to the girl who broke your heart and ask her to pretend to be your fiance."

Sean nods.

"then you fall inlove all over again, and put yourself all through it again." she muttered.

He nodded again miserably.

"What now Sean?" she asked, "What now since you say she doesn't want you? Though I don't see how she couldn't. You're just going to give up on what we could of been?"

"You don't want a guy whose still on the rebound from a three year ago break up, Victoria." muttered Sean and admitted, "I'm pathetic. She's got me, all of me, even when she doesn't even want me."

"Are you 100% sure about that?"

"Huh?"

Victoria smiled micheivously, "invite her to Tylers party this weekend, I'll find out if she is or isn't over you Sean Cameron."

"She said it herself." he said blankly.

Victoria scoffed, "guy like you doesn't know when a girls trying to yank your chain? We love to make you fight for it."

Sean snickered, yea, guess that was true.

"I don't know Vic, she seems over me."

"Nothing is ever as it seems, don't you know that?"