I studied until midnight yesterday and today, when I arrived to school, they told me to go back home, that the classes were suspended. If there's a God, he hates me a lot.
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The food was ready and the boys were sweaty. They stopped playing once Tom said the hamburgers were ready to die, but Emma didn't like toward Tom –like everybody else did, I would have if she didn't have her head on my shoulder-, she stood up slowly and walked toward the ball, which was lying in the middle of the field. She started to play with it but she didn't seem as soon as she was when we were kids; I didn't know if it was the lack of practice or if she didn't have too much energy.
"Hey, don't you want eat?" I asked her as I walked toward her. She didn't look up, her eyes were focused in the ball that she was trying to keep over her foot… I'd never been able to do that.
"I'll go in a minute" she said.
She put the ball down on the floor and started to run toward the end of the field. She was about to score a game when she fell to the floor. I first laughed but then I felt a horrible feeling in my chest when she didn't stood up and insulted me.
"Emma?" I waited one more minute, I thought she was kidding "Oh, come on, Emma, that's not funny"
"Emma?" I turned to see Harry running toward her. The rest were just looking with worried looks.
"Shit…" I mumbled and then ran toward her too, I was the closest one to her. I knelt down by her side and took her in my arms. Her eyes were closed and she was really pale. I shook her a little bit and she opened her eyes. Harry knelt down by my side.
"What happened?" he asked.
"I don't know" I said.
"I just fell" she said.
"You don't loose consciousness when you fall" Harry said.
"I am fine" she said and sat down in the floor.
"Is everything alright?" Tom's girlfriend asked from the house.
"Yes" Emma said.
"No, it's not, you fainted, we should take you to a hospital, Emma"
She rolled her eyes and stood up "I just lost by breath, alright Poynter?"
I wasn't convinced, I'd always been her protector and I didn't like the way she fell; she hadn't stumbled, she'd always been able to run a lot, she was athletic and she hadn't ran that much so as to lose her breath. I was afraid there could be something wrong with her… As I'd said before, she was too perfect, she must had something wrong, everybody always has something, anything, wrong about them.
She gave me a small smile "Come on, I'm hungry"
I took her hand and noticed how cold it was, it was weird, and the weirdest thing was the feeling I got, like something bad was going to happen. I put that thought in the back of my mind and looked at her, admiring all her beauty. I knew it was too soon to fall in love, I'd only seen her for two days now, but we'd shared half of our lives together, every minute of everyday together, and I knew all about her, and she knew all about me, I was only me when I was with her and you don't get that feeling with everybody. I could even fart in front of her. I know, gross, but she was used to it; I'd done it so many times when we were kids, just to bother her, that she ended up getting use to it.
Yes, it was soon, but for me it was real… And I was afraid of that. Girls like her don't date jerks like me, specially if they are your best friends. It's complicated to fall in love with such a close friend… I'd known this girl who was in love with her best friend. She had to wait 9 months before her friend finally realized he liked her too. Nice months! Can you believe that!? I can not wait 9 months! [author-not: that 'girl' is actually me. My best-friend, who's now my boyfriend, is kind of shy, you see… But 9 months! Come on! haha]
"Oh, Emma, your coat is dirty" Giorgina, Giovanna's sister, asked "Come on, I'll fix that"
"Oh, no, there's no need, I'll do it later"
"It's mud, if you don't do it now, I won't go away later" that girl is very persistent; I'd even heard Giovanna tell Tom she never when shopping with her sister because she would always buy things she didn't like because of Giorgina… She practically took off Emma's coat and I felt bad again when I saw a big bruise in her chest.
"What happened to you?" I asked her as I kept staring at her bruise.
"Firstly; stop looking at my boobs, Dougie. Secondly, I cant take care of myself"
"Did someone hit you?"
"No, I just stumbled and hit my chest in the hotel"
"But that thing is huge"
She rolled her eyes again "Don't you think I would know if there was something wrong with me?"
"Yes, but I don't think you wouldn't tell me"
"I'm fine, Dougie" she took my face with her hands and smile "I am fine"
I sighed, I believed her, I would always believe anything she said to me, but I just couldn't get that weird feeling out of my head, it was stuck there.
Once again, I loved to see my friends adored her, she seemed happy around them and that made me happy. My first girl, Hannah, didn't like Danny and I think that was one of the reasons that made me dislike her in the end… I mean, it's not normal, everybody likes Danny! And I can't stand someone who doesn't, she must be the only one in the whole world who doesn't like him.
I walked her to the door of the hotel again and she turned once more to say goodbye.
"I like your friends more and more everyday. Danny's still single, huh?"
"Emma…"
"I was only kidding!"
"I wanted to ask you something…" I think I blushed, so I looked down at my shoes; wow, they are really dirty.
"Go on…"
"Did you love your boyfriend?"
"No" she didn't hesitate, she answered right after I'd finished asking.
"Then why were you together?" She wasn't the type of girl who messes around with boys, she likes relationships, something real, honest, safe. Yes, that's the word; safe. She wanted to be safe. She'd had a kind of tough childhood, it made sense that she wanted something real and safe for the first time in her life.
"Because I didn't want to be alone. He didn't love me either, but that doesn't mean we didn't care for each other. We are still friends. He was there for me all the time"
I nodded. It bothered me to imagine them together, but I felt it was my fault; she'd been with him because I'd left her alone. She needed someone and I hadn't been there for her.
"Why do you ask?" she asked.
"It's weird to imagine you with boys"
"Well, I grew up. There are some parts of my body as evidence"
"Are you making fun of me?" I remembered saying that yesterday.
"Yes, I am" she said. Well, I didn't care, she was right, she was really changed… Well, only her body. And what a body.
"And would you like to have a new boyfriend?"
"I don't know… Everybody likes to be loved, right?" she looked sad for a moment "But I don't need a boyfriend now… I need you, I need friends"
She walked closer to me and I put my arms around her. I wanted to know why she looked sad, but she would tell me if she wanted to, if she didn't I wouldn't force her.
"Are you alright?" was all I whispered.
"Now I am"
