Sorry, I'm late and only posting one chapter, I know! But I found out today about this homework for tomorrow and I also have to study for another stupid exam. I didn't do too well at today's exam, but whatever, I have the highest mark in that class anyway, so it's not big deal!
There are only three chapters -including this one- until the end of the story!
Have you voted like I asked you? Please do it! I would also like to say that the story 'Blind' [see summary in my story call 'HELP ME CHOOSE A STORY'] has the possibility to be the sequel to this story.
Enjoy and review. Thanks.
"Dougie" Emma said "What are you doing here?"
"Nothing" I was trying to hold back my tears, I couldn't even speak properly, no one had ever hurt me this much "I'm leaving"
"You didn't ask her?" Giovanna said confused.
"Ask me what?" Emma asked.
"To marry him!" Giovanna put her hand over her mouth "Damn, I wasn't suppose to say that, was I? I'm so sorry, Dougie!"
"It doesn't matter" I said and threw the box with the ring to Emma's feet "Keep it, I dont want it"
I turned away but Emma shouted my name and ran to stop me.
"Please, wait! Did you hear what we said?" she asked.
"Yes" I needed to leave, I couldn't hold back the tears for too long.
"Oh, God, Dougie, I'm so sorry!" she started to cry "I wanted to tell you before, I swear, but just couldn't. I wanted to be the one to tell you, I can't believe you found out about this in that way, please forgive me"
"I don't care anymore" I said.
"How could you say that? You really don't care?" she seemed so hurt. I looked away, I couldn't see her like that, her eyes so sad; I hated her but I also still loved her so much, and I just couldn't see her crying like that.
"I hope you'll be very happy with Tom"
"What?" the three of them said at the same time.
"Don't pretend anymore!" I shouted furiously "I fucking heard you!"
"You think I'm with Tom?" Emma said.
"I'm not stupid, stop it, Emma!"
"But Dougie-"
"I know I have been an idiot" I said before she could say anything else "but I dont deserve this, alright?"
"Dougie-"
"I loved you and I still do, but I hate you for doing this to me! I was going to ask you to marry me and now you-"
"I'm dying"
I stopped. My heart seemed to stop too.
"What?" I almost choked.
"I'm not dating Tom... I'm dying" her eyes were sad, but also honest. I could tell it was true just by looking at them.
"But... But why?"
"I've got leukemia"
I didn't know I had more tears but more arrived to my eyes very soon. I suddenly felt so scared, so unprotected.
"But that's a treatable disease, isn't it?"
"Not my type of leumemia... The doctors can't seem to find the way to heal me"
"And... Why did you and Tom disappear from time to time?"
"I knew there was something wrong with her" Tom said "My grandmother died of leukemia and she had the same symptoms; fever, bruises, she was always tired, bleeding easily... I took her to the best hospital. They tried a couple of things with her but they didn't work"
I sat -kind of fell really- on the floor. Emma knelt down by my side, tears running down her face, her sweet beautiful face.
"How long have you known?" I asked.
"A couple of months... Please, dont be angry at me, Dougie... I came to London for you, I wanted to see you at least one last time. I dont know if I'm going to be here to see the 'New Moon' on the cinema, I dont know if I'll be able to listen to your new CD. I certainly will never have a baby. I dont know if I'm going to wake up from sleeping the next week... But I couldn't die without telling you how much I've always loved you, Dougie..."
Tears ran down my face uncontrollably. I put my arms around her, afraid that she could die the very next day. I wanted to be strong, but I couldn't help it, I was out of control.
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you, I am so sorry, Dougie..."
I did my best to stop crying, at least for one moment. I took her face in my hands and looked straigh into her eyes.
"Love means never having to say you're sorry"
