Chapter 1: One or the other?

I stumbled back to the house, Jakes arm around my shoulders. I was crying. Big surprise. Jake was trying his hardest to calm me down, saying how Seth will be back. "Did you hear what he called me?" I whimpered, burying my face into his chest as we stopped in the backyard by the newly reconstructed angel that had been looking over my dead friend's body. Although the body was no where to be found, Alice and Rosalie still mad another angel. "He was just trying to make it easier for himself to let go of you." He whispered, hugging me tightly, pressing his lips to my forehead. "But I don't want him to let go of me." I sobbed, my tear stained, scrunched face making me feel particularly ugly. Why did he have to do this? Why did he have to make me feel like this? How dare he tell me that I didn't know how he felt? Did he think that I hadn't been through hell in my life as well? "May, Seth loves you, but he knows he can't have you for as long as you've chosen me. He's trying to take that wish and make it true, but it will be very hard for him to do that here." He pulled away form me and cupped my face in his hot hands. "Just give him some time to let the facts sink in." He went quiet. I continued to stare at the ground, waiting for him to continue, but he didn't say a word. I looked up at him, my eyes connecting with his. His face looked troubled. "If you'd like, I can hand you over and you can love Seth instead, if that's what you want." My heart skipped a beat. "No! I don't want to lose you!" I squealed, reaching up, grabbing his wrists. He pulled away and shook his head. "Then let Seth leave." He replied, all sincerity gone in his voice. "But I don't want to lose him either!" I cried in agony. "Choose one or the either May! Not both!" He turned around and stomped away, leaving me in the heavy downfall of rain. I looked at the grass, the tears that had felt so hot before, feeling frozen on my cheeks. I had to choose one…or the other?