Chapter 5: I Just Ride

Andy woke up the following morning and observed the room around her. The room looked like someone had robbed them in the middle of night. Then Andy remembered. She smiled to herself and lifted herself up slightly. She saw a note to the side of her with a bunch of scribbles on it.

'Out on a run. Didn't wanna wake ya. Be good. Xo'

Andy smiled and headed to the shower. She hopped in and made her bathing quick, as usual. They had to use the well and they had to preserve. Andy ran her brush through her hair and pulled on her clothes. She shoved her boots on and walked to the cafeteria. She walked in and everything went silent. All eyes were on her and she tried her best to ignore it. She grabbed a piece of bread and headed back towards her room. She felt uncomfortable. Just as she reached their room, Sherry approached.

"Andy wait! I'm sorry about that. They are just freaked out about yesterday. Just when we thought Negan was turning into a nice guy…" Sherry said sympathetically.

"Negan IS a nice guy. He has to do what he has to do. Ashlynn tried to kill me Sherry. What would you have done?" Andy yelled.

"Don't get me wrong, I am glad that you are okay. Ashlynn was no saint, we all know that. But did she really deserve that?" Sherry asked quietly. Andy looked down.

"Well maybe not. But you have never been leader to a group in this fucked up world. I have. It's horrible. People try to walk on you, people take advantage. Sometimes you have to make the messy decisions." Andy argued. Sherry nodded.

"Okay I get it. I can't really be upset. You are the reason I got Dwight back in one piece." She said trying to smile. Andy forced a smile and watched Sherry walk away. Andy walked in their room and slammed the door. She angrily munched on her piece of bread and pondered. Was Sherry right? Did Negan really have to kill Ashlynn? And so brutally? Andy was no stranger to making tough calls. She had to make plenty when she was leader of her group. But what Negan did was horrible. But what made Andy even more disgusted was the fact that afterwards, she didn't feel anything except excitement. She fucked Negan like there was no tomorrow and she shuddered at her coldness. She knew this world did something to people. It did something to her. She never used to be heartless in any way shape or form. But she could feel it coming on everyday and getting more intense. It scared her but at the same time it made her feel safer. She couldn't help how she felt about Negan. He was funny, smart, caring (towards her at least) and downright hot. He was basically the man of her dreams. No offense to her ex husband who was long dead.

Andy lifted her head when the bedroom door swung open. Negan walked in with Lucille towed behind him. His smiled faded as he saw her.

"Hey doll, what's wrong? What the fuck happened?" Negan said as he sat next to her on their couch. Andy shook her head.

"It's nothing." Andy said trying to sound convincing. Negan eyed her.

"Come on. Fuckin' tell me." He said.

"Nothing, everyone is just looking at me like I am Satan or something." Andy said. Negan nodded his head.

"Yep. That will happen. But until people fuckin know what it's like to be a leader like this, they will never fuckin' understand. That's why we have to show em, yeah?" He said as he lifted her chin with his gloved finger. Andy nodded and kissed him.

"How was the run?" Andy asked as Negan got up and wiggled out of his jacket.

"It was fine. There is a fuckin' group just south of here that has been giving us shit. They have taken out six of us so far." Negan said calmly. Andy blinked quickly.

"What? Why did you not tell me this earlier?" She asked.

"I didn't want to worry you. I also didn't want you going out there on your fucking own for retaliation." Negan said starting to sound annoyed. Andy shook her head.

"Negan, if they are dangerous, you'll need me. I am a good fighter." Andy explained. Negan shook his head.

"I don't know that they are dangerous per se. They are just….way to fuckin' ballsy. Especially that leader of theirs...Rick. He will be a challenge. We just have to fucking show em' who's boss around here." Negan said as he stroked Andy's cheek. He kissed her deeply and growled into her before breaking away. "So don't worry that pretty little head fucking of yours, alright?" he asked. Andy nodded. There was something he was not telling her. That much she knew. She had to find out what. Negan left the room to do his leader filled tasks and Andy thought. If anyone would know what Negan is up to, it would be Dwight. His right hand man. Andy knew if she followed him around a bit, she would eventually find out what Negan was hiding from her.