(sorry it took so long for me to update. My father was diagnosed with cancer at the beginning of June and died the fifth of August so it's been kind of a last-thing-I-want-to-worry-about deal. R.I.P Father.)

Enli was mad. I didn't blame her though, Moku was a sick freak! Why the hell would he imprint on me? Ok, I know it wasn't his choice, but for him to admit it?

"Seth?" Enli whispered, sitting on the edge of the bed next to me.

"Yeah?" I looked at her, my heart leaping in my chest at the sound of her voice.

"Are you mad at me?" She looked at me with those, glistening blue eyes. Her thin, full lips, pulled into a straight line. She looked sad. It hurt to look at her like that. I propped myself up onto my elbow, shaking my head.

"No, why would I be mad at you?" She looked down at her hands, her nails digging underneath the other ones as if she were cleaning them.

"It's just…everyone hates me! They hate me because Moku said something to Edward after he left." She looked depressed.

"But Edward wouldn't lie, he can read minds." I reminded her.

"Moku made it all up in his head!" She growled. "Any idiot with an imagination can!" I looked away. It was true. I had confused Jake with my daydream of Ella and made him mad at her back when she was human. But how?

"But Moku has proof." I protested.

"Oh what? He comes in bloody? Anyone can mutilate themselves Seth!"

"But Edward saw it!" I growled, trying my hardest to defend him.

"Then tell me Seth, why didn't he break that rope and get away?" She got me there.

"W-well, he had to keep his profile low!" That was it. "If he were to break the ropes then the humans would have been suspicious." I defended.

"He could have fought against them, there are other ways to get away from a bunch of humans. I means, Kick them lightly! Chew the ropes!"

"But his teeth were broken."

"He has jagged teeth in his head with sharp corners! All the better to get away." I shook my head. I didn't want to get into this. "Seth, he's a liar." I waved my hand as if I were knocking the subject away. She was quiet for a few moments, then I felt something soft peck at my lips. I smiled and kissed her back tenderly. "You believe me right?" She pouted, laying her head on my chest. I sighed and brushed her hair out of her face..

"Of course I believe you." I replied. We laid there for a few moment longer, then Ella came in. I sat up, Enny grunting in disapproval of having to move.

"Seth, can I speak to you for a few minutes?" She questioned. I looked at Enny who looked as if she were half asleep, then back at Ella who was wearing a tank top and a pair of Capri and nodded. Standing I followed her out into the hallway and shut the door.

"What's up Ella?" I questioned, looking at her confused.

"Come help me search Moku's room." She instructed, heading down the hallways towards Moku's temporary room until Jake found a new place. I followed her past Enny's spotless princess room to Moku's paper scattered, messy pig-sty of a room.

"oh my god! It's a twister!" I kicked some papers off to the side. "So tell me again why you want to invade your things privacy?" I looked at her as she rummaged through his desk.

"I have to see what makes him tick." She replied.

"Energizer." I answered monotonously, my eyes narrow, not at all enthused about being inside his bedroom.

"Oh!" She stood and glared at me, not at all pleased with that comment. I didn't care though. I didn't like him, and now hopefully she knew it. "Just help me!" I rolled my eyes and moved forward, scowering through papers on his stands.

"What the-" I grabbed a hard covered book carefully and looked at it. Probably porn.

"Is that his diary?" Ella came to my side.

"Uh…no?" IShe grabbed it and opened it up, reading it outloud.

March 23,

Dear Diary,

Today Uncle Eng took sister and I swimming. I almost drown but I still like the water. Enli didn't want to swim with me, so uncle Eng did. After he got us ice cream. I dropped mine on the ground but ate it anyway. Today was a good day.

Moku,

7 months

Ella looked at me and smiled. "I think we found his diary." I lifted a finger and twirled it.

"Yay." I exclaimed monotonously, not really caring. She grunted and continued to read.

March 24,

Dear Diary,

Today, Enli jumped out of a tree into the lake and then we went frog hunting Enli caught a lot! I hope I end up just like her someday! Eng said we're twins so we will. I can't wait.

Moku,

7 months

July 3,

Dear Diary,

I know I haven't written a lot, but I have been going through some changes. I'm really tall now. Taller than Eng. Enli changed too. She now has fat stomach's on her chest. Eng says they're boobs and that all girls have them. Does that mean she was a boy a couple months ago? We're twins so that means I'll get them soon too! I can't wait!

Impatiently awaiting my boobs ~Moku

11 months

Ella slightly closed the book, keeping her finger in the page. She laughed, her hand covering her mouth. I looked at her confused. Soon she broke out into such a fit of laughter that tears were falling from her cheeks.

"What's so funny?" I questioned, not really understanding what she was laughing about.

"The poor thing! He thought he was going to get boobs. How cute." She squealed, laughing. I rolled my eyes.

"Oh yes, he's just so freaking ducky, keep reading."

July 10

Dear Diary,

I waited and waited for my boobs to come, but they never came. Then Eng told me I would never get them. Talk about bummer. Oh! I met a really nice girl today! Her name is Alyssa. She is super pretty! She has long black hair and a lot of loop things in her face she calls "piercing's" I told Eng about her, but he said for me not to go near her. Why not? Oh! She said she would go swimming with me tomorrow! I can't wait, it'll be so much fun!

Depressed about my boobs but excited about tomorrow ~Moku

11 months

"So he met a girl?" Ella mused, biting at her thumbnail a bit. I watched her curiously. She was worried about something? She looked so thoughtful, but about what? I forced a light smile. Truth was, I was wondering about the girl too.

"It's probably his imaginary friend." I chuckled, trying to lighten up the suddenly very worried mood in the air. She just shrugged and started to let the book fall to her side. Reaching forward I grabbed it from her and started to take over reading it. I would be able to get to the end faster with less chit chat anyway.

July 11

Dear Diary,

Swimming with Alyssa was even more fun then I had imagined! She is so pretty. She didn't have a "swim-suit" so she swam naked, just like me. She has a very good nakedness. A lot better than Enli's

Oh! After we were done swimming, Large explosions filled up the sky with color and sound! They went BOOM! They were so loud I had to cover my ears! Then Alyssa pressed her lips against mine like what Eng did before I went to bed, but she used her tongue. I was so scared, but then she told me she loved me and I felt better.

Loving Alyssa ~ Moku

11 months

January 2

Dear Diary,

I am so mad right now! Eng tells me I'm not allowed to be with Alyssa! Who the hell does he think he is? Alyssa and I have loved each other for six months! I won't put up with it! I'll run away with Alyssa and we'll go live with mommy in Forks, Washington!

Royally pissed ~Moku 1 year 5 months

January 10

Dear whatever,

Die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die, die…dead, death! HATE! KILL BURN DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE!!!!

Death Day

January 11

R.I.P. Alyssa

January 13

Diary,

I am crying. I am still crying. I went to run away, Alyssa said something, next thing I know I'm covered in blood, Eng holding me, I'm crying. There's blood everywhere. He said I killed her. He said I killed Alyssa. He said this is why he said I shouldn't be around her. I killed her because she's human and I'm not.

I will never love again

1 year 5 months

Ella gasped beside me. Moku had had a girlfriend, and he killed her, and he didn't know how or why. I felt pity, and disgust all at the same time. Why hadn't Eng told him? Yet again, would he have understood? He was only a few months old. Would Moku have understood? Would he have understood that what he is is considered an abomination compared to those he trusts himself with? And yet, how does he feel now that he's been hurt physically and emotionally by that same species he had fallen in love with and killed? If I were him, I would hate humans more than anything in the world now.

March 4

Eng is taking us to mama. I hope she likes me.

~ Moku

2 years almost

I turned the page, Ella leaning over my shoulder. It was the entry from a couple weeks ago.

April 16

I was surprised to see so many people. I recognized mama easily, but that guys, grandpa was a dick My parents are really attractive and there are a couple vampires who I think are hot, but I feel weird. I looked at one boy and my heart exploded like the fireworks I saw with Alyssa. I hope he'll like me like I like him.

Once again in love ~Moku

That was the final entry. I slowly began to close the book and put it back on his end stand. Ella was quiet, her eyes staring intently at the book as my hand left it.

"He's been through so much. I had no idea." She whispered. I nodded slowly. Behind me the door opened, catching both Ella's and my attention. I whirled around. Enny was standing in the doorway, her eyes accusing.

"Hey hun." I smiled. She returned it, although bitterly.

"What are you doing in here?" She was upset. About what now?

"Your mom asked if I could help her search for something." I replied, pointing behind me. She walked forward and grabbed his diary.

"Oh this filthy thing?" She walked over and threw the diary out the window. Ella gasped and practically threw herself out the window trying to catch it, but missing. "Follow me." She grabbed my arm and pulled me out of the hallway, kicking over large neatly stacked piles of paper as she went.

"What did you do that for?" I accused, ripping my arm from her.

"Why are you yelling at me?" She whined.

"I wasn't." She shook her head, her hair fluttering about her.

"No. I just thought you wanted someone to get you out of there. I mean, I would feel disgusted being in a mans room when I knew he loved me." My heart wrenched. What was she saying? "I meant if I were a man as well." She added. I sighed and shook my head.

"If I didn't want to be in there then I would have left on my own." She looked at me through narrow eyes.

"So now you're telling me you wanted to be in there? Do you love my brother or something? Because you're starting to defend him a lot more I'm noticing." Her voice sounded menacing. I stared at her shocked. I had to run what I had said over in my head a couple of times in order for me to understand how it sounded.

"No! I don't love him, I was just saying! If I opposed the idea of being in there so badly I would have left the room! I didn't because I was helping your mother!" I explained, my heart racing. This was coming out so wrong sounding.

"So you wanted to be alone with my mother inside my brothers room, you're sick!" She snarled. My jaw dropped.

"No! I didn't mean that either!" I pleaded.

"Really? Cause it sounded that way to me!" She screamed.

"Well then stop twisting around everything I say!" I screamed back. She slapped me and stomped away. I watched her disappear down the stairs. Outside the sound of a car door slammed shut. My arms were shaking. I needed to go somewhere to cool off. I couldn't be around here anymore, not when I wanted to beat the crap out of her so badly right now.

"Seth?" Ella whispered. I threw my hand up, stopping her from speaking to me and started to walk down the hallway. Stomping down the stairs I pushed by Edward and out the front door, passed Bella and down the driveway passed Moku. He looked after me confused, but I could tell he knew how I was feeling.

Removing my clothes I phased and dashed off towards the woods. I didn't care who saw me like this, right now, all I cared about was distancing myself before I went nuts and completely destroyed the hell out of Moku and the rest of the family.

Reaching the field in where Edward had taken Bella all of those years ago, I turned back. It was quiet here, peaceful, but it brought back so many memories. I dropped to the ground, my knees pushed to my chest. I gasped. I wanted to kill something right now. I wanted to beat it senseless and kill it. And that something was Enli. Why did I hate her so badly right now? Was it because she was good at twisting my words and making me so angry that even my imprinting couldn't keep me in love with her 24 hours? I don't know, but the thought of my fist colliding with her face made me smile.

"Seth?" I whirled around. Who the hell was stupid enough to follow me? I was pretty sure Edward could hear my thoughts, Jasper could feel how I felt, and the other pack members who were out running could feel how I felt once I turned. With all of those people, the word would get around easily. So who the hell was stupid enough to come out here?

A dark figure stepped out. It was ghastly tall, thin, but feminine. Piercings in his face. Moku.

"Go away!" I snarled. He just stopped and looked at me, concern on his face. "I said go away you freak!" I screamed, a tear rimming my eyes. I wanted him to go away. I wanted to be alone, but he just stood there like an idiot. I would give him one more warning before I acted.

"You're upset." He whimpered. My heart settled out a bit.

"No freaking duh Einstein." I growled. He stepped forward, his arms down by his sides. He was wearing a black t-shirt and a pair of ripped jeans. I stood up and backed away from him. He was probably going to try and dominate me the sicko.

"Who made you this mad?" He questioned, his voice smooth and caring.

"None of your damn business." I countered.

"Why do you let her hurt you? That isn't what love is supposed to be." He continued to walk towards me.

"I said it was none of your damn business!" He shook his head.

"I don't want to see you hurt, or sad, or angry. I want to see you smile." He smiled lightly. I felt the anger burn down a bit. A smile twinged across my face. I shook my head.

"Stop manipulating me!" I lashed out, my fist colliding with his face. I knocked him to the ground. He looked at me shocked, his lip bleeding. A rush of pleasure jolted through me. He wasn't a girl, and he was Enli's twin…he looked like her, sometimes acted like her, slightly sounded like her. I grabbed the front of his shirt and punched him again. He cried out, slightly balling up. I punched him again. I didn't notice the smile that had come across my face until I saw it's reflection in his frightened eyes. He stopped quivering and smiled at me. He let his arms fall to his sides as he closed his eyes. I punched him again. He didn't make a sound, he didn't move to block me. Was he going to let me beat the crap out of him?

I punched him again. He didn't bunch. I started to punch him repeatedly. He didn't try to get away, all he did was whimper. I punched at his face and his neck and his shoulders until I was tired. My knuckles were bleeding, my arms were shaking, and Moku was covered in blood. I panted, completely out of breath. I fell on top of him, pinning him to the ground, my head on his chest. I was so tired. And even though I gave him a beating even more brutal then those humans did, his breathing was smooth, and calm. What the hell was he.

"Why didn't you stop me!" I punched him again in the shoulder. He inhaled deeply and held it. His eyes now open, looking at the sky.

"I don't want to see you hurt, or sad, or angry. I want to see you smile." He repeated. My heart broke. He did that…he let me hurt him, so I could smile. So I could feel good.

"You're a big idiot!" I hollered, punching him in the shoulder again. "I could have killed you!" He just stared up at the sky a smile on his face.

"You wouldn't have done that, I know you wouldn't have." He whispered.

"And what the hell confirms that?" I snarled. "My innocence ended years ago!"

"But you're you Seth, and that's what stopped you. You wouldn't kill someone who hadn't hurt you, no matter how angry you were. I know that because if you were like that, you wouldn't mind hitting a woman, and Enli would have gotten it instead of me." He propped himself up. I sat up on him and sighed, glaring at him. He just laughed. "That look doesn't suit you, you should smile." He smiled a childish smile, one that made Enny's look insincere. I struggled against the smile, but in the end lost to it. "There, the world is a lot less frightening when you look at it with a smile." He stood up and reached his hand down for mine. "So let's smile together and see if we can't get that moody witch of a sister to smile as well." I chuckled lightly and shook my head. Grabbing his hand I pulled myself to my feet.

"You know, you sound like you're trying to get me to sleep with you." I admitted. He laughed and shook his head.

"No, I just want to see you happy." He held onto my hand. I felt weird, but I tightened my grip around his fingers. I put him through hell, and he still smiles at me. I didn't know if he was a good person, or a really bad idiot.