author's note: once again sorry for any mistakes I just don't have much time lately so editing is a challenge to fit in. Anyway thanks for reading:)
One month later-
I can't believe it's been a month since Kaleb confessed to his adultery, with the way things are going it's looking like this divorce is going to be ugly. I can't help but be thankful we weren't able to have a baby at this point, it would've only made things more difficult than they already are. I've come to terms with the fact he was never in love with me his heart always belonged to her.
Eli and I have been hanging out a lot it's been good and having someone who I know cares about me here to support me but, I'm worried things will get difficult between us. I know I have unresolved feelings for him and I'm pretty sure he feels the same. The problem is I don't want to act on them. Neither of us have brought up our night together I'm grateful for that, especially because I can't get it out of my head. The way being intimate with Eli makes me feel is incredible, it's like flying but then I remember what he did and it feels like a nose dive into cold-water and not knowing how to swim.
I'm on my way to Eli's now. I was nearby and decided to stop by considering he's my only friend at this point. All the "friends" I had made during my relationship with Kaleb dropped me as soon as he left; apparently married women with money only like married women with money. I turn the bend and head into the small parking garage smiling to myself noticing Eli's car parked in its usual spot but it fades turning to a look of confusion when I see the car parked next to his. I've never seen it here before and it's obviously a female's car aside from being a powder blue convertible the shining items dangling from the mirror are a giveaway.
I contemplate turning around and pretending I never came but even if he has a girl in there I'm going to have to get over him being with another women at some point the sooner the better, I can't expect him to be alone because I have feelings for him that I have no intent on giving into. I park my car on the other side of Eli's and make my way up the steps to the door of his apartment that I've seen quite a lot of recently. I can hear talking coming from inside there is definitely a female in there. I listen for a few more moments before my mouth drops.
Eli's voice isn't the only familiar voice coming from behind that door. I feel myself fill with pure rage at the realization. I'm usually good at controlling myself and keeping composure but I think this is something I can't shake off so easily the sound of that voice that I know so well is enough to trigger an irrational reaction from me. All the good memories it brings back are quickly pushed aside when I remember that the person that voice belongs to ruined the way my life was supposed to be.
"What is she doing here!" I shout furiously barging through Eli's apartment bring back memories of one of the worst days of my life.
I see Eli look to me with worry and then I turn to the other person my eyes locking with hers glaring at her as if I could turn her to stone. I can't help the animalistic instinct I have to rip her to shreds. She's just standing there wide eyed the last time I saw her was in the apartment five years ago naked with Eli in his bed. I feel my blood boil has the memory comes into play.
"Clare it's not what it looks like she just needed to talk to me over that thing-" Eli starts but is interrupted by her.
"Thing?!" She questions obviously insulted.
"Yeah I'd hate to agree with such a slut I don't know if a baby should be called that thing" I say more agitated.
"look Clare I'm sor-" She started but I cut her off.
"Save it, I trusted you and you slept with my boyfriend and got pregnant what did you come back for more!" I spit venomously I don't even like hearing her name let alone being in a room with her.
"Clare it's not like that." Eli says trying to calm me down but at this point I don't think that's possible.
" Then what does she need to talk about your baby for" I notice Eli tense I'm assuming this isn't a great subject for him either.
"We can talk about that later." Eli responds giving her a warning glare not to see anything.
As if standing in a room with the two of them isn't enough they expect me to be okay with them not telling me what called for this reunion other than it has to do with the baby they conceived one drunken night. Well Eli was drunk her not so much. From what I heard the baby was given up for adoption and they never spoke again. It kills me to know Eli cheated on me had a baby with her while we were together and in love so soon after we lost our son this is why I can't forgive him and her I hate her with everything in me. What I want to know is why they need to discuss a baby they gave up years ago.
"no tell me now! You, you owe me that." I say looking her in the eye.
"I want my son back Clare."
My mouth practically hits the floor I notice Eli glaring and my heart is pounding so it was a boy Eli had another boy. I feel tears sting my eyes at all this information but I push it away replacing it with anger.
"I want mine back too but that's not possible. You Know what Else I want back? My life before my best friend slept with the love of my life and got pregnant! I hate you I was supposed to be able to trust you with anything and in the end you ruined my life Allie!" I yell tears going down my cheeks from both sadness and rage.
