WAVERLY
I have been in my own little world since we came home with JP, he was so sweet and careing and willing to do whatever you asked of him the first time. I just couldnt understand why or how some one could leave a child alone the way they just left him. I watched as he followed Nicole up stairs with paint rollers in his hand in a matching pare of blue jeans and white tshirt.
The two have been inseparable when awake he followed her around being her little helper when she was in her office he was sitting quietly reading one of the many pictures books that we got him. He even spent equal time with me by helping me in the kitchen and fold clothes, at night befor bed he would try his best to read one of his books to my belly while laying with his ear to my somach.
Now I was busy with my own work I was on the phone with anyone that could help me get the ball rolling on adopting John Paul. So far I learded a lot and for now we have to foster him. That shouldn't be a issue I was printing out the paper work now that we would need to going on that. I was working on my half of the paper work I went through my family treee on both my father and mothers side and started to work on Nicole's history I left out imformation about health history she can fill that out tonight. My family history was small since mom was the only child and I just stopped a Wyatt as far as my father goes.
A hand reached infront of me and picked up the papers and drown eyes scaned the papers. Nicole sat next to me and started to fill out what I lef out. She used Her name of Nicolas Haught and filled in her heath history before giving her whole name at the bottom.
"The fax is finally hooked up so you should be able to use it." she says.
"Bady are you sure this is what you want to do, you dont have to do this if you dont want to do it." I say.
"Waverly he has been here for a week and in that time I have fallen in love with him and couldn't see him going anyway without us. So these adopton papers is a small perice to pay to give him a home." She says smiling
she was giving a smile that I knew well and I smiled back leaning into her and kissing her.
"Where is JP?" I asked
"Taking a nap and Wynonna is out with Mindy." Nicole said
She stood and sweeped me up into her arms she was on her way to the door when there was a knock. She hung her head and put me down. she turned to the door and opened it.
"Maaster Sargent Nicolas Haught and Waverly Earp?" woman ask
"Yes ?" Nicole asked
"I'm Judy Lee from DSS I'm hear to pick up John Paul Clark." She said
Both our face fell And Nicole let her in.
"Sorry it took so long we have been backed up." She said
"Thats ok he has been a joy to have around." I say taking Nicole's hand
"well I'm here to pick him up we have found him a foster home to go to." she said
I felt the tears sting at my eyes and I looked up at Nicole and she looked like something just kicked her in the stomach.
"Let me go get him." Nicole said turning away and going up stairs.
"What do we need to do to get him back?" I asked
"Well you have to fill out the paper work they have to do back ground checks to see if your qualifed to take care of a child." she said.
she went on about the samethings I was told on the phone and I wasabout to cry when I turned around to see Nicole bringing JP down stairs. He had tears in his eyes and he wiggled down and ran over to me and grabbed on to my legs.
"I don't wnt to go Wave." He said crying
"I know baby I promise we will do everything we can to get you back I promise." I say bending and kissing the top of his head.
"If you would like I could set up visatation with him for as long as it takes for you to adopt him." Judy says
"Could you that we would love that." Nicole asked
"Yes I will set up weekend visits for you two." She said writing something down.
Nicole picked JP up and we hugged him and gave him kisses
"We will see you soon ok." She said putting him back down
He looked back at us as they walked awayhe had his Black Widow action figure in him right hand and holding Judy's hand with his left. We watched as she put him in the car and she drove down the and Mindy was watching from the sidewalk and slowly made there way over to the house.
"Waverly what more do we have to do?" Nicole asked.
"Get a lawyer that specializes in adoption, once thats done we turn our paperwork in and they take it from there." I say.
"Ok its after four on Friday we cant do anything now but Monday we hit the ground running." She says before walking into the kitchen. I follow after her with Wynonna and Mindy after me and I found her in the kitchen rubbing at her hand. I walked over and started to rub her hand for her that only ment one thing.
A loud boom of thunder was hear sending the cats and dogs flying and then the sound of down pour.
"Do you want a pain killer?"
"Please." She said
I walked over tothe cabinet that we keep everything in and grabbed the bottle Nicole went in to the frige and got a water and swollowed the pill down the second I gave it to her. she listened to the rain for a moment before going over to the table and starting to go through the papers. It hadn't rained in all the time we have been here, it had sprinkled and raind enough to cool the air down but never like this.
"Nicole I think you have everything your not going to get anything done right now." Wynonna said putting her hand on her shoulder.
Nicole hung her head and put her head in her hands, I could tell she wanted to shake Wynonna off but she was afrad of hitting her new found baby bump. Her phone rung and that seemed to get her mind of of things
"Hello?"
She comepletely froze then started to shake her head
"I'm sorry but I did my time and I'm not re-enlisting."
My heart dropped to the floor Nicole told me about them doing thing like this, saying any and everything they had to to get you to get you to come back.
"I'm sorry but I have a family now with three kids on the way I'm not interested." She hung up the phone.
She walked over to me and pulled me into a hug.
"I told you I'm not going back and I mean it." She says kissing me
She then walked over and bent down and gave Wynonna's stomach a rasberry before walking out the room.
"I have to say that you would think I jealous but I'm oddly not. Nicole was the wildest of us all always into something but now she has calmed way down thanks to you two." Mindy said going over to sit at the island.
"Yeah she told me how she would act fist and think later. I'm glad she came into my life she got me out that darn town, Wynonna you know you woulsnt have stayed long and if it wasnt for Nicole I would have gone back." I say
"Thats the truth and ended up with champ Hardly trying to prove that you wasnt gay or trying to fit what that town thought you should be like." Wynonna said
"Now look at you all pregnant and trying to adopt a little boy." she added going into the frige.
"Hey your pregnant too by my girlfriend so lets not go there." I say laughing.
"As long as you dont go into labor at the same time." Nicole said coming back into the room.
"Damnit now that you said it it will happen." Wynonna said
W was playing around trying to forget about the bad day we had when my phone rung and I picked it up not knowing the number but thinking it was Doc.
"Hello Doc."
"Wave"
"JP how did you get my number where are up?" I asked putting the phoned on specker.
"I'm in the home they let me use the phone but took away my Black Widow toy, they said it was for girls. I told them I knew The real Black Widow and they laughed." He said
"Thats ok buddy we will show them when we see you ok?" Nicole said
"Ok." he said about to cry.
"Don't cry buddy we will see you next weekend." I say whipping my eyes
"John Paul Its time to get off the phone." We hear
"Ok I hafta go now I love mommies." He says
"We love you too buddy we will see you soon ok." Nicole says
I had my had over my mouth to keep a cry from coming out.
"Love you too buddy." I say after clearing my throat.
"Ok bye."
We listened until we heard the beep of my phone, I turned and put my face in Nicole's chest and started to cry. Her arms wrapped around me and she kissed my head.
"Its going to be ok we will see him soon and we will have a lawyer to get him back I promise." She says.
NICOLE
The weekend was uneventful Waverly and I was online looking for the best Lawyer that could help us with geting JP and adopting him. Right now we was siting in the office ofof the best adoption lawyer in the upstate having the lawyer looking over what we have already.
"Well everything thing looks here looks, I don't think there is any reason but one that you couldn't get John Paul back." Richard said
"Whats that?" I asked not thinking
"They will ask why your name is Nicolas Haught?" He said
I rubbed my eyes and let out a sigh, I was starting to get tired or having to explan myself to everyone.
"I was Intersexed my brith name was Nicolas Bolden at 17 I joined the Marines and changed my last name to Haught after my second wouldn't allow me to change my name to Nicole since I had not had the surgery." I say looking at him
"You dont have to answer this but its going to be asked, How did they train you?"
"They trained me with the women and I bunked alone." I say
He wrote everything down.
"Are you going to have the surgery?"
"No I'm fine the way I am I just would rather go by Nicole since what people see are breast and female features and I feel like a girl, and befor you ask it is much easier to have a family the way I am then having to watch my girlfriend get pregnant by some stranger we picked out of a line up off some paper." I say
"Ok a few more questions, What does your paper work say?
"Nicolas Haught."
"Why do you want to adopt John Paul if you are more the capable of having a child yourself.
"Because ove the week that we was with him we feel in love with that little boy He is sweet and caring and all he want to do is learn, its not about if we can have childern or not its about the love we can give him." Waverly said
"Anybody can give him love Miss Earp." Richard said
"Thats true but not anyone can be picked by a child and he picked us he called us mommy you don't make a child do that." She said
I smiled at Waverly and took her hand and kissed it be for turning back to Richard.
"I saved that little boy from god knows wait he picked me out of all the people that walked in and out of that McDonalds and we saved him." I say
HE finished writing down what ever it was he was writing and looked up at us with a smile.
"I dont see why you wont get him back, You didn't lie about your family and you have a large family history here Miss Haught and you Miss Earp amaze me by tracing your family back to Wyatt Earp that is something I never seen before. I'm not going to lie it is going to take some time since his mother is up on charges and will not sign over her parental rights even though he will not be going back to her. I called her Lawyer before you got here and he says she has expressed that her son will not be going to two lesbians. So here is where you being born intersexed comes in Miss Haught we will use what ever we have to use to get her to sign over her rights if that means her calling you a freak how would you deal with that?" He asked
"I've been called freak all my life by family and strangers it dosen't bother me one bit." I say
he set up our next appointment two weeks from today in hopes that he would have had the mother sigh over her rights to the state so we could start the took the card and left going out to my car I cat there for a moment.
Mindy is taking Wynonna car shopping today how do you feel about going to trade this one in for a more child friendly car?" I ask looking over at her.
"Yeah I'm really not in the mood to go back to the house right now." Waverly said putting the appointment into our phones.
it took all day but we ended up back at BMW picking out an car and traiding in my car it wasn't a hard choice I hardly drove the car to begin with but Waverly wouldn't let me sell the Challenger. She sad that was one of my favorite cars and I needed to keep it.
I picked out an red X6 sDrive35i for my next car and didn't bother to take it for a test drive I was tired and my head was starting to hurt. I just sat while the man pointed out the buttons and told me what they did only taking in half of what he was saying. I owned the i8 so I knew what the buttons was for but hewas trying to do his jub so I just let him.
"OK is there anything more I can do for you?" He asked
"No that was just fine thank you." Waverly said reading the stress on my face.
I had an appoint ment with my thripist in 35 minutes and I didn't want to deal with this man anymore. so I took my old tag and put it down betwen Waverly's legs and wished him a good day.
"Your going to have to go with me to my meeting I don't have time to take you home and get there on time." I say
"Thats ok I will make myself busy dont worry about me right now." Waverly said smiling and kissing my hand. I put my hand on her stomach and started to rub enjoying the little kicks that I was feeling. For everry kick I would give Waverly's stomach a little tap and get a kick in return, Waverly started to giggle and she put her hand over mine to stop the kicking.
"Between you and her Im never going to stop laughing." she said
I just took her hand and put it in my lap ahe started to trace the pail pink scars that was left from the door accadent I just finished PT and it still hurt like hell when wen had strange weather but I was ok when ever Waverly would rub my hand. We made our way across town to my doctors office and we got out Waverly pulled out her book from her bag as we walked into the office and I let out a laugh all the things she had in her bag.
"I'll wait right here for you ok." she said before I was called to the back.
I went to the back and we started to talk about where we left off and worked our way up to what was going on now. I always felt so much better after talking to Dactor Chalkley If I wasn't with Waverly I would go after her, She was just like her just English and wears glasses.
"Nicole what it looks like is that you are so use to having people under you that rely on you to make decision and tell them what to do. You have your Master Sargent hat on when you need to have on your civilianhat on. Not to say that you completely give up on taking care of your family and keeping them safe but you need to give up control. Tell me is your fiance here today?" She asked
"Yes shes in the waiting room." I say confused at why she would want to talk to her.
"Privately please." Doctor Chalkley asked.
I sruged and stood to go get Waverly stepping out into the waiting room I waved her over.
"Whats wrong?" she asked putting her book back in her bag.
"Nothing is wrong just Doctor Chalkley would like to talk to you alone." I say holding the door open for her.
I took her to the office door and left her there to knock on her own. It wasn't like Dr. Chalkley's office was scary covered in dark colors and hard chairs that made you feel like you was being tortured. I was quite the oppiset everything was made out of light colors the desk while it was large had photos of family on it. she had two large book selves that was covered in books that I have leared are spill overs from her books at home. The couch oh my go that couch was softer then my couch set at home and I have looking for that couch set to replace my own, but I'm guessing thats years of people sitting on them.
But back to the now I stood outside in the waiting room for Waverly My next appointment in heand woundering what it is that they could be talking about. Then the door opened and Dr. Chalkley and Waverly walked out, Waverly seemed to breeze past her and grab me by the front of my shirt and pulled me along. Oh no did she tell her about the sex dream I had about the three way we had with Wynonna. That can't be we are outside and she isnt yelling in some other langauge that only I can understand.
"Open the door." She said shortly and I unlocked the car door.
I opened the door for her and she got in and waited for me to close the door. That was a first she was always set on closing the door on her own, but none the less I closed the door and walked around to the drivers side and got in.
"I want to go to Barns and Nobles." She says
"Oh come on Waves can't you go with Wynonna?" I asked
"You mean the sister that you dreamed about having a three way with?"
Damn it.
"No I can not your going to take me and your coming inside."
"Look I'm sorry about the dream it was when I was on the pain meds and we was talking about babies and it was that week where Wynonna wouldn't sleep anywhere but at your side it really doesn't mean I want to sleep with her." I say
"Drive Nicolas." She said
Oh shit this is a new kind of anger what ever Dr. Chalkley said to her I want to kill her for now. I started the car and started our drive to the book store.
"I have dreams about being a stripper that doesn't mean I want to be on or see them." I said softly.
Waverly didn't say anything she just sat looking out the window, then she started to mess with the strap of her bag and i hard the clink of medal as we pulled up. I put the car in park and looked at her for a moment before getting out to let her out the car. Just as soon as she was out she was wraping something around my neck. I pulled back but she had a hold on it I realized it was Vegas leash and collar set that Wynonna and othe people mistaken for the human kind. Out of all the shit she has in her bag this is one of them.
"Ya keep pulling your going to choke." She said pulling me down to her.
"We are going to fo in here you are going to behave yourself and you will not look anyone but me in the eyes do you understand." She says
I open my mouth to say something anything that would tell her that I wasn't going to do this but she didnt wait for my answer and started to walk into the book store. I followed after her like a God damn dog trying my best not to trip over my own feet when she got to far ahead of me. If she was worried about me looking anyone in the eyes then worry no more I was embaressed and a little ashamed that I even has the dream in the frist place.
I'm a fucking Master Sargent I know how to keep my fucking fantisys in check along with everything else in my life. I stopped when Waverly stopped to look at another hand full of books. She handed me two and started to walk again, this was just too much I stopped and pulled my neck dack in the same way Vegas would when you was trying to get her to go somewhere she didin't want to go. Waverly turned around and grabbed my jaw.
"Stop acting like a disobedient little bitch and do as your told." She said pilling me down.
I couldn't see any sigh of her jokingand her eyes was like steel. I stood up and looked at the floor something was bathering her or something got into her but she wasn't happy and it seemed like it was me that she was upset with at the moment. I let out a sigh and let my shoulders drop and she turned around and I followed her through the the store stopping only once to get a caramel macchiato and continued to walk through the store until I had a arm full of books and i payed for the books and carried themout to the car where she let the leash drop as I opened her door I walked around to the drivers sided and got in where Waverly took off the leash and callar off and put it back in the bag.
She started to rub at the red lines that had formed around my neck and leand in and gave me a kiss.
"Now lets go home." she says as if nothing has happen
What the fuck she was just treating me like a bitch now shes back to the old Waverly. I had to look at her.
"Nicole you had yo be broken in order to understand that you are not the one in charge all the time. I knew about the dream you had about me and Wynonna you told me in one of your painkiller highs and you told me how bad you felt, I'm not mad about that I'm not mad at all I just want you to you be weak for me let me have some control." She says looking at me.
"Its too hard to give up that control Waverly I try to but its hard." I say
thats why I'm here you dont have to give up control to any one but me." She said.
She leaned in and kissed me softly,Waverly was the only one I felt safe letting go of anything with so for her to tell me that it made me feel like she was really there for the lond hual not just because I asked her to marry me or because she was pregnant.
Can we use something to show you that I am having a hard time giving up control?" I asked quietkly.
"What ever you want?" She says
I took the callor and turned it around in my hand before slowly putting it oun.
"this is only until you learn to give up control to me and you dont have to wear it everyday or to bed. If you wake up feeling like you cant give up just tell me and I will tell you wether or not you need to put it on, ok?" SShe says.
"OK." I say
I start the car and we make our way home to the place i feel the most safe with Waverlywhen we pulled up I we noticed that Wynonna wasnt homeand that put a smile on Waverly's face.
Nicole I want you to take me up stairs and fuck me, we can make love later but right now I want a goof ol fashion fucking."
I smiled and got out the car and went around to here door and openend it. I didn't give her time to get out I just picked her up bridle style and pushed the door closed with my hip and hit the door fob to lock it and making my way to the door.
"Unlock the door." I say and she climed down and opened the door.
"You go let the dogs out give the animals a new water then cum up stairs, dont rush." She says
