Prompt: We Shouldn't
Character(s): Lana Skye/Mia Fey
Originally Written: 1.07.2009
They shouldn't.
Lana knows this, of course. Her parents had actively condemned the 'queers' while they were alive which was partially why she managed to delude herself into loving men.
But she never did love them. She couldn't force something like that, and it wasn't fair that she had to. Still, the principle that gays weren't worthy of a normal life was hardwired into her mind, and it would forever lead to her feeling guilty.
With Mia, it was different.
Their relationship had been curt, at most, during the first half of their freshman year at law school. Looking back, it was mostly Lana's fault for this perceived gulf in communication, as she continually rejected Mia's invitations of anything pertaining to a social life. Mia had simply smiled and said she understood, as though she didn't see any hint of elitism in her superior's dismissals.
Eventually, Lana allowed herself the indulgence of going with Mia one day, and it certainly got the ball rolling from there on out., and she felt an indescribable change within her. It was as though the girl two years her junior—the same girl who tripped over her own high heels and didn't look where she was going—was the piece of the puzzle that had been missing from Lana's life. With her, Lana felt whole. Complete.
With Mia Fey, she felt invincible.
And yet, when she discovered that the feeling was mutual, she couldn't let herself be happy. She couldn't do that to her parents' souls, to her sister.
Because no matter what kind of euphoric feelings it dispensed, it was still wrong in her mind.
