A New Beginning

(Chapter 31)

The Depressed Hanyou

Last time:

All flashbacks/dreams so nothing much to re-say.

On with the chapter:

It was early in the morning and everyone was still sleeping besides a certain neko demon that was looking up at her friend with a worried look. A single tear had fallen and landed on the neko demon that's what had alerted her. The sun was just rising and Sakura was starting to stir.

"Mika you are reliving the past and the pain has returned. IfKoro is alive I hope he comes back soon." Shadow thought that's when she say the necklace glow. It wasn't like before when it glowed it was brighter. When ever Mika was sad, hurt, or depressed it glowed for some reason. Shadow didn't even know why, she was guessing it was trying to calm her down. Then Shadow notice Tora was up and decided to talk to her.

Shadow jumped over and landed on Tora's shoulder. "Her Shadow what's up?" Tora asked

"You remember when Koro first disappeared?" Shadow asked

"Who could forget none of us slept for days and Mika didn't sleep for weeks." Tora said

"Remember when we first started looking for Inuyasha?"

"Yeah Mika was cold hearted until we snapped her out of it. She trained all the time and hid her emotions. Why are you bringing this up?" Tora asked

"She is reliving it in her dreams and I have a feeling she is going to be depressed, the others are going to start to wonder why. I don't want her to have to say it all over again." Shadow said

"Yeah I know might as well warn them ahead a time but I don't think Inuyasha wants to talk right now." Tora said

"Well he seems to not notice those kinds of things so I think we don't have to explain that to him but Kagome and Sango I think will be able to talk to her but Im still not sure. With Sakura around she won't want to say it, because she doesn't want to make her feel sad for her. You know her she puts everyone before herself."

"Yeah well I think Tsume and Kiba could keep Sakura busy and well its going to be hard for Kagome to get away from Inuyasha for awhile." Iva said

"When did you get up?" Tora asked

"When you two started talking." she said jumping over. "So sis is going threw memories huh?"

"Yeah." Shadow and Tora said at the same time.

That's when they noticed Mika's fist clench.

(In dream)

After reliving the memories she was now in a dark room. She had gone threw enough what was going to happen now? She was in the middle of a dark room when she heard a voice come from out of know were.

"Well what if it isn't scar face." someone laughed

Mika was growling remembering the old name. "Kinomi." she growled. Then she came out of the darkness with an evil smile on her face.

"You." Mika growled

"You haven't changed a bit have you half breed." Kinomi laughed

"Neither have you ya whore." Mika growled

"Ya know scar even if Koro was alive he wouldn't want you anymore." Kinomi snickered

"Your lying."

"Isn't it true a hanyou/miko like yourself are outcasts and demons, hanyous, and humans hate your kind." Kinomi laughed

"He isn't like that." Mika said trying not to believe what she was saying.

"How would you know? Why would he go with an outcast like you when he could be with me a normal person."

"He would never go with you. I don't care what he thought of me but I do know what he thought of you."

"Oh but you do care what he thought. You loved him but he didn't feel the same about you!"

Mika stayed quiet looking down eyes covered by her bangs. Fist clenched so tight blood came. "You know Im right scar so how about you just let him go."

"Never. Your wrong and I will never forget about him! I have part of his soul and you know what I know he felt the same I just never acted on it! Im never going to let him go and Im never going to fall in love again." Mika said and then the necklace around her neck glowed and out of know were Kinomi was dead and someone else was standing there. She thought her eyes were playing tricks on her. She knew she was dreaming but this seemed so real.

"Koro?"

All he did was stand there with a smile on his face. Then all of sudden it started to fade.

(End of dream)

She opened her eyes slowly opened and she looked down at ger hand the was blood in small rivers going down her hand. She had tried to put this behind her move on with her life and it all comes back now. Was it a sign? Or just another thing to haunt her? She looked down at her one arm and she saw it was healed so she just cut the bandages off making sure not to wake up Sakura.

Tora, Shadow, and Iva saw she was up and was going to keep there mouths shut. Shadow was going to go a warn Shippo, Kimsune, Souta, and Kohaku. While Tora and Iva talked to Sango maybe she could get Kagome away from Inuyasha for a few minutes and some how had to try and keep Mika away for a while so she didn't hear it.

Sakura started to wake up at the smell of blood. Her ears went back and she opened her eyes. Mika didn't even notice her waking up she was so deep in thought. The blood was running down her arm but she didn't give a care. Sakura though she was worried.

"Mama what happen?" Sakura asked

"Huh? Oh morning Sakura. Don't worry about just got a cut." Mika said

"Why do the cuts look like claw marks?" Sakura asked

"Ah... its ok Sakura its nothing." Mika said

"If you say so." Sakura said then she noticed Shadow wasn't there. "Were's Shadow?" Sakura asked

"Good question." Mika said looking around but still not seeing her. "She probably just went running." Mika thought. She picked up Sakura and jumped down and Kiba and Tsume came running out. They smelt blood and went to check it out. They looked at with a questioned look.

"It's ok you two just a cut." Mika said and put Sakura down.

Shadow took the chance and jumped a few trees and got into Souta's room. Everyone was still asleep. Shadow rolled her eye's and walked over to Kimsune, she poked her once and she didn't move. Poked her again still no movement.

"OK looks like she getting up the hard way." Shadow thought and jumped on her. "What the hell!" Kimsune yelled the others were still out then she saw Shadow.

"I swear Shadow Im going to make sure you only have one tail!" Kimsune yelled

"Well you wouldn't wake up and we have a problem." Shadow said.

"What's wrong?"

"It's Mika something about her past I think you should know." Shadow said

"Ok what's wrong with sis?"

"Well before we meet you there was another half demon that was apart of our team. He was a half wolf demon and to me, Iva, and Tora he was a brother but to Mika well he was more then that. Well about 4-5 years before we meet you he disappeared the only one that believes that he's dead is Mika. Lately she's been remembering everything and she might be colder then normal. Please try to keep the others quiet if they try to ask why she's like that." Shadow explained

"Has she ever been cold hearted before?" Kimsune asked

"Believe it or not yes right before we ran into you we changed her back, well most of the way. I don't want her to have to explain." Shadow said

"I can see why. Don't worry I will explain it to the others." Kimsune said

"Thanks. See you later." Shadow said jumping out the window.

(With Iva and Tora)

They saw Mika coming there way. Sakura was with Tsume and Kiba. "Hey you guys up there?" Mika asked

"Yeah we're up." Iva said jumping down Tora close behind her. They saw a cold look behind her eye's and it made them remember everything and made them flinch.

"You guys ok?" Mika asked trying to act like nothing was wrong.

"Huh? Yeah we're fine. Come on lets see if the others are up yet." Tora said walking ahead.

"Ok if you say so." Mika said and walked behind them.

"Hey sis are you ok?" Iva asked

"I'm fine. What makes ya think there's something wrong?" Mika asked

"Nothing just making sure." Iva said

They walk in and see Mrs. H already up. "Hey Mrs. H."

"Morning girls. Mika I see your healed up."

"Yeah Im fine now."

"Good to hear. Breakfast will be done soon so how about you wake up the others."

"That's just what we were going to do. Mika how about you wake up your brother I have a feeling he would cut my head off at this point." Tora said

"Yeah good idea. Be back in a sec." Mika said and jumped the stairs.

"Good now we can get explain things to Sango and Kagome." Iva said

"Yeah hey wait a minute were is she anyway?" Tora asked

"Uh... I think I might have an idea." Iva said and ran out back. "Iva having an idea that's new." Tora thought and followed her. They got to the very back were they were guessing many people didn't go were a sakura tree was. Behind the tree sure enough was Sango and Miroku. Sango was in Miroku's lap and both we're still asleep. There was also a strange scent but they couldn't place it they had caught it before but it was lighter. Iva and Tora looked at each other.

"Do you think?" Tora started

"No. Could it?" Iva asked

"Could be." Tora said

"Ok find that out later let's get the love birds up." Iva said

"Good idea. Hope Sango doesn't kill me for this." Tora thought. "Hey Sango wake up you to Miroku." Tora said shaking Sango's shoulder.

"Huh? Tora?" Sango asked

"Yeah it's me. Do you have any idea were you are?" Tora asked

"Ah in Kagome's?"

"No look around." Iva laughed. Sango did and turned red when she noticed were she was. "Don't worry Sango now would you get Miroku to quit pretending to be asleep." Tora said

"Just meet us by the god tree we have to tell you guys something." Iva said walking away Tora not far behind.

"Tora we should have never brought him up." Iva said

"No it would have come up sooner or later either Kinomi come back around or she has old nightmares. It was easier this way." Tora said

"True but still."

"Lets just drop it for awhile with any luck Koro will come back. I know he's still alive you know who Koro's related to right?" Tora asked

"Ah not sure." Iva said

"He's Kouga's lost half brother!"

"What!" Iva yelled

"Not kidding I did my research. Kouga doesn't no about him and Koro doesn't know about him but if he did die Kouga would no and remember. We are going to have to ask him when we get back though." Tora said

"Good idea." Iva said and they got to the god tree and waited for Sango and Miroku.

"We should start tonight when we get back but we can't let Mika know were we're going." Tora said

"Lets just say we have things to do some were else." Iva said

"Yeah good plan."

"What are you two talking about?" Miroku asked coming up behind them.

"Oh hey Miroku hey Sango." Iva said

"So what do you guys want to talk about?" Sango asked

"Ah well remember last night when we were talking about the half wolf demon Koro right?" Iva asked

"Yeah." Sango and Miroku said

"Well the whole thing runs much deeper then we lead on. Mika was acting last night when we were talking about it when ever he comes up she hides all emotions and acts like its nothing." Tora said

"What happen?" Sango asked

"And what did he mean to mika?" Miroku asked

"Ah well at first they were like brother and sister, he was like a brother to me and Iva but over the years feelings did grow between the two but much like Inuyasha and Kagome they hid it. Well 7 years ago when a demon attacked us Koro got separated and well Mika thought the worst. I know he isn't dead but after that Mika started acting like Sesshoumaru and it took years to change her back and I have a feeling she might act a little differently then normal." Tora explained

"I see why she would turn cold after something like that. My father told me everyone's hearts choice who is the one they are destine to be with. Demons and half demons the feelings are stronger and when the person is gone the heart freezes." Sango said

"How do you no if he has not passed?" Miroku asked

"Koro is really Kouga's lost half brother and it he was dead Kouga would know. Besides we would have found something 7 years ago if he was gone." Iva said

"Sango I want you to tell Kagome and maybe you two could talk to Mika. She won't listen to us anymore maybe you guys could help and I don't think we would be able to get Kagome away from Inuyasha right now." Tora said

"Be happy to help." Sango said

"You want me to tell Inuyasha?" Miroku asked

"Yeah might as well and I'm going to help ya." Iva said

"Just letting you guys know me and Iva are going to go talk to Kouga when we get back. You guys have to keep Mika in the dark about it though." Tora said

"Don't worry about that we won't say anything." Miroku said

"Ok lets get this over with." Iva said

(With Mika)

She had gotten Inuyasha and Kagome up without a problem but it looked like Kagome's morning sickness started early. Soon as she got up she ran straight to the bathroom. Inuyasha was worried but knew what was wrong. Inuyasha also knew something was wrong with Mika but couldn't place it. Mika jumped the stairs just as she got down she saw Sango, Miroku, Iva and Tora talking.

"Wonder what there talking about?" Mika thought trying to get her mind off him it wasn't working. It's not that she wanted to forget him that would never happen, she would never be able to move on that was fact but she didn't want the others to know what was wrong. The necklace was glowing lightly and she was trying to hide it. One thing was impossible to hide though if anyone could read eyes well enough they would know right off. She knew Kagome and Inuyasha had already saw it and was pretty sure Iva, Tora, and Shadow knew as well.

A little later after breakfast which Kagome skipped everyone was just kinda lazing around. Sakura was still with Kiba and Tsume and Mika was in her own little world just thinking. Kimsune had explained things to Shippo, Kohaku, and Souta and they weren't going to say anything.

They had decided they would leave tonight. Inuyasha was going to make Kagome stay in her time because of her getting sick but she didn't listen she was going with the others and he wasn't going to do anything about it.

Kagome was about to sneak outside to be alone for a while. She jumped out her bedroom window when Inuyasha was out of the room. She was sitting in the back were no one was and was hoping no one would find her. Sango and Tora went looking for her while Miroku and Iva went off to find Inuyasha.

"Tora how do you want me and Kagome to help Mika anyway? If she wouldn't listen to you why would it be different from us?" Sango asked

"Well me, Iva, and Shadow have never been in love before. I have no idea what its like. You and Kagome do. Plus it seems you and Kagome had a sister like connection." Tora said

"Yeah. Do you really think that Inuyasha will listen to Miroku and Iva though?" Sango asked

"If he's like Mika in any way no but Iva has a temper so she might just scare it into him." Tora laughed

"Hey there's Kagome." Sango pointed out.

"Good." Tora said

"Hey Kagome."

"Hi Sango. Hi Tora." Kagome said

"What are you doing out her with out Inuyasha around?" Tora asked

"Needed a break that's all." Kagome said

"I see. Hey Kagome I need your help with something." Tora said

"What?"

"Well from what Tora explained to me, well Mika is having memories from 7 years ago." Sango said

"What kind of memories?" Kagome asked

"Well last night me and Iva brought up a certain half wolf demon Koro and well him and Mika were close. Never said anything about there real feelings. But it was there. Seven years ago Mika and him got separated. Mika thought the worst and turned cold it took awhile to get her back and now the memories are back. She has two thinks Koro had given her a necklace and a headband but that's back some were else." Tora explained

"That's so sad. Wait did she say a necklace?" Kagome thought "You said a necklace right?" Kagome asked

"Yeah she keeps it hidden now though." Tora said

"That's not true not any more. Last night I saw it." Kagome said

"You kidding me! I haven't seen that thing in years!"

"Im not kidding. Anyway how can I help?" Kagome asked

"Well I want you and Sango to talk to her maybe convince her he is still alive."

"I think we can do that. Right Sango."

"Yeah."

"OK a little later after Iva and Miroku get done talking to Inuyasha." Tora said

(With Iva and Miroku)

They were looking for Inuyasha but still couldn't find him. Finally they found him sitting against the wall thinking.

"Wonder why he isn't with Kagome?" Iva thought

They walked over to him and he didn't even notice. "Inuyasha." Miroku said

"What do you want lecher?" Inuyasha asked

"You full well know I have changed my ways Inuyasha." Miroku stated

"Once a lecher always a lecher." Inuyasha mumbled

"Ok off that matter could we talk to you for a second?" Iva asked

"About what?"

"Just thought you might want to know about a thing that's going on so you want hurt Mika. I know you saw the coldness in her eyes and I have a feeling you want to know why." Iva said

"Why would I care?" He asked

"Because she is your blood sister and I don't think you want to get Kagome mad again." Miroku said

"Fine just get it over with."

After explaining things yes he did feel bad for her but he wasn't going to show it. No matter what he had to show no weakness what so ever. He knew what it was like to loss someone not like Mika had be he knew all the same. He would turn cold too.

"She should just get over it." he said

"What did you just say?" Iva growled

"She should leave the past in the past."

"You have no were to say that! It took you three years to figure that out." Iva growled

"Inuyasha maybe you should be easier on her." Miroku said

"It's a weakness she lets control her and it shouldn't be like that. We have no room for weakness." Inuyasha shot off.

Iva was fuming. She grabbed the front of his haori, "Look here buddy I don't care if your Mika's brother. I don't care if your kamis brother! No one calls my friend weak because of something like that! Now either you let your pride down and get over it or I beat it into you." Iva growled.

It scared Inuyasha and even Miroku. When ever the girls got mad it scared him. "Right." he mumbled

"Good." Iva said, She let him and walked off.

"That's was truly scary my friend." Miroku said

"Your telling me."

(With Mika)

Mika was sitting up in a tree watching Sakura and the wolves. She was just craving little things into the tree. She was daydreaming and trying to think of the good times not the bad. Most of the time though there was more bad then good. There's one thing that kept on going threw her head well two. Koro's 13th birthday and when he helped her turn back to normal after turning demon. He said his feelings then and she did nothing!

"I'm such and idiot! If I wasn't so stupid I would have said it!" She thought. Then something knocked her out of her thoughts. Sakura had told Sango and Kagome were Mika was and Mika didn't hear them coming.

"Hey Mika you up there?" Sango asked

"Hey guys." Mika replied

"Mika are you ok? You look kinda down." Kagome said

"I'm fine. What makes you think something wrong?" Mika asked trying to sound normal

"Mika you don't have to hide it we know what happen." Sango said

"Don't know what your talking about." Mika said

"Mika please we know what happen 7 years ago." Kagome said

Mika froze not knowing what to say now. "Why would you two care what happened?" she asked

"We're your friends. Iva and Tora told us what happened." Sango said

"He's the past he's not coming back." Mika said in a low voice

"You don't know that." Kagome said

"Yes I do. He would have came back. Even if he was still alive he wouldn't even care if I was alive anymore."

"Why would that be? He loved you for who you are it wouldn't matter if you were a half miko or not." Sango said

"He deserves someone better then a freak like me anyway." Mika said sadly

"Your wrong I know it. Your not a freak its not what you are its who you are." Kagome said

"I know your right sis but he's gone anyway." Mika sad trying not to act any different.

"What if he isn't? What if he comes back?" Sango asked

"That will be the greatest day of my life." Mika thought. She wasn't going to say that. "He's dead and he's never coming back."

"You don't know that."

"Mika that necklace you have it has a small part of his soul right?" Kagome asked

"Yeah why?"

"If he was dead the soul in the necklace would be gone and its not." Kagome knew the soul was still there she sensed it and if he was dead it would be gone.

"Then I guess he just moved on with his life and forgot about me." Mika thought sadly. "Why are you guys bringing this up anyway?" Mika asked

"We want to help."

"You guys thanks but the past is the past nothing can change that. He's gone either way. I will be fine don't worry about me."

"Ok if you say so you ever need to talk to anyone come to us ok." Sango said

"Yeah go it Sango. See you guys later." Mika said and Kagome and Sango walked off.

"Do you really think she's ok?" Sango asked

"No but she's not ready to say it we just need to give her time." Kagome said

"Yeah."

(Back with Mika)

A little a after they left it hit her. "Wait! Koro is still alive! Kagome's right if he was dead the soul would be gone, but if he is still alive why hasn't he come back? Dose he even want too? Did he find someone else? Or did he go with Kinomi? Did he just forget about me?" These thought went threw Mika's head.

"You know he might be looking for us." "Yeah he might still be out there" "What if he isn't what he just forgot?" "He wouldn't!" "You know that!" "What if?" "He is looking for us! You know what tonight when we get back to our own time we're going back and getting something we lost.""Yes the demon is right." "Fine but no one is coming with us beside one of the wolves."

Later that night: (Im going to skip the boring details)

Kagome had packed everything and everyone was ready to go. Kiba and Tsume already went threw along with Shadow and Kirara. Tora and Iva had talked to Sango and Kagome to see what happen and was a little happy that some progress was made. Sakura had been up with Mika talking to her. Mika was asking her what kind of fighting she wanted to learn. It kept her mind off things so heck why not. Shippo was in his smaller form on Kagome's shoulder. They were about to leave Kagome said her goodbyes to her mom and Souta.

They got threw and started to head back to the village. Mika decided it was time to get going. "Hey you guys I will be back in about 2-3 days I need to go some were." Mika said

"Were are you planning on going?" Inuyasha asked

"None of your business. Hey sis do you think Kiba could come with me?" Mika asked

"Sure. Are you sure you don't want anyone else coming?" Kagome asked

"Its something I have to do on my own."

"Can I come mama please?" Sakura asked

"I don't want you getting hurt."

"I don't want you to get hurt." Mika said

"I won't!"

"OK you can come. Shadow watch the others ok. See you guys later." Mika said and ran off. Sakura was on Kiba's back and he followed.

"Now she's gone. We will be back in 2 days." Tora said and Iva and her left in the direction of Kouga's den.

"Jeez anyone else going?" Inuyasha growled

"Inuyasha they might have something important to do you know." Miroku said

"Feh, whatever. Lets get going already." he said and walked off.

(With Sakura, Mika, and Kiba)

When they were farther out Kiba transformed and Mika told him were to go. Sakura was sitting in front of her.

"Mama?"

"Yeah?"

"When are you going to start my training?"

"When we get back ok."

"Ok. Mom were are we going?" Sakura asked

"We're going to were I used to live. I have to get something I left back there." Mika said

"Mama can I ask you something?"

"Sure what is it?" Mika asked

"What were your friends talking about last night? Who's Koro?" Sakura asked

"He's a special friend. I haven't seen him in 7 years though." Mika said

"Im sure we'll find him. Did you love him?"

"Ah... If I tell you can't tell anyone else ok."

"Ok."

"Well yeah I do." Mika said blushing a little.

"Don't worry we'll find him again I know it." Sakura said

"Yeah I guess your right."

A little later sakura was asleep and Kiba was still flying. She was talking to Kiba about nothing really. Then he said something that caught Mika's attention (no not really talking)

She told him the whole Koro thing, then Kiba said something that Mika couldn't believe.

"Are you serious!"

(Ok cliffy, Anyway tell me how you like the chapter. I know it was shorter then normal. Now there's a few thinks I have to say.

1. I putting out a new story. It's called A New Life has all my characters but based in modern times

2. Who do you think would be better together Sesshoumaru and Rin or Sesshoumaru and Kagura?

And the final vote is done. Final tally is:

Mika - 6

Tora - 2

Iva - 1

Sakura - 2

Shadow - 2

Koro - 5

Kimsune - 3

Anyway don't forget to look for my new story and PLEASE REVIEW!)