BPOV
Sometimes there is nothing to say, so that's what I said. Nothing. I just kissed his cheek to let him know that I was still with him. He pulled me onto his lap, gave me a deep kiss, before resting his head on mine. Edward just told me the dark story of his past. I felt bad that I couldn't open up and tell him mine, but I just wasn't ready yet. I knew he wasn't going to push me to tell him anything, and I knew that he knew that the rumors were false, but it didn't make me feel any better.
"You don't have to tell me anything until you're ready Bells," Edward said, as if he could sense that I was conflicted. I let out a deep breath that I didn't realize that I was holding.
"Were you ever really like them?" Edward asked me. I knew what he was asking. He was asking if once upon a time, I was like my shallow peers who were shallow and quick to judge.
"I tried to be. My parents wanted me to be happy and live a normal life, so I tried as hard as I could. It almost worked too," I said, trailing off at the end. Edward looked at me perplexed. I just sighed and buried my face in his chest, using his scent to calm me and keep the memories and tears at bay.
"People like us will never be like them. We may be the same, but they don't know what it's like and they don't get it," I said.
I can't relate to you
I can't relate to you
I heard my Bad Religion ring tone and got off of Edward's lap to retrieve my phone from my purse.
"Hello?" I answered.
"Bella? It's 5 o' clock! Where are you?" My mom yelled at me, "Your father and I are worried sick! If you were going to be late, why didn't you call us?"
"Mom, calm yourself. I'm fine."
"You think you're fine. You are going to be in so much trouble when you get home missy. Soooo much trouble," My mom was trying so hard to sound like my authority figure. Shame, she failed miserably and ended up sounding like a bad 1950's sitcom.
"Bye bye mother. See you when I get home," I said in a falsely innocent voice and hung up on her.
"You shouldn't talk to your mother like that. You should be glad that you have parents that care about you," Edward whispered.
"My dad's a cop and my mom's a nurse. It's a lot about appearances with them. They don't care nearly as much as you think they do," I said in an even more quiet voice than Edward used. I felt a small tear escape the corner of my eye and I hurried to brush it away, thanking God that I wore minimal eye makeup today.
Edward didn't respond to my comment and for that I was grateful. I wanted to tell him the whole truth so bad, but it was just so hard. It wasn't because I didn't trust him, despite the short time we've known each other I've never trusted anyone more. It also wasn't because I thought he was going to hate me afterwards. Edward wasn't like that. Edward understood me. The subject was just too hard to talk about. I also didn't want to unload all my baggage on him after he had just released his to me.
"Bella?" Edward said suddenly
"Yeah?"
"I don't want this to sound creepy."
"Ha! Don't worry about that."
"This is just so weird."
"I know." I said with a slight laugh.
"I feel a connection with you, a deep connection that I've never felt before," Edward shifted me on his lap so that I was straddling it facing him, "I feel like I was sent to you, like I was meant for you, like we were meant for each other. I know that sounds weird…" I shut him up with a kiss.
"It would only be weird if I didn't feel the same way," I said. I felt my walls falling away to him, "It's been two days and I've felt more comfortable with you than I have with the people I've known since I was 5." I said. As I was looking in Edward's eyes I saw something unfamiliar. I couldn't tell you what it was. I wasn't even sure, but it was deeper than anything I've seen or known. We were both in unfamiliar territory, but I knew we were both ready to trek it together.
EPOV
The ways of the world are not unknown to me. I've been with many women and I've seen many things, but everything I've ever experienced pales in comparison to Bella. She's making me feel whole, happy. Both are feelings that I haven't felt since my mom died. Knowing that Bella felt as strongly about me as I did her made everything bad that's happened to me mean something. It didn't matter if she chose to tell me her story or not, though it would take a lot of the confusion away. Like what did she mean when she said her parents didn't care? Even though it didn't particularly matter if she told me, I'd still like to know.
Bella brought me out of my stupor with a soft open mouthed kiss on my neck. I felt her tongue feather my jugular while her teeth lightly nipped at the skin there. I felt my dick (crude I know but that's what it is. What do you want me to say? Penis?) twitch in my pants. Bella smirked against my neck so I know she felt it too. She lightly ground against me and I couldn't help the moan that escaped my lips. I laid back and turned over so that Bella was beneath me and I attacked her mouth with mine. There were no playful pecks on her lips. The moment my mouth was against hers, our tongues were dancing, fighting for dominance as I ground my hardness against her hot core.
Overcome with lust, I put my hand on her stomach, under her shirt, and slowly moved my hand up to her breast. Bella's hand grabbed mine and she used it to assist my hand on its exploration of her body. I reached her breast and moved my hand under her bra. Once my thumb made contact with her nipple, she softly moaned into my mouth. I bit her lip and ground into her again.
"What is this?" I heard a voice behind us yell. Bella and I stopped making out and groaned at the same time. Bella chuckled at this. I got off of her and saw Esme looking at us with shock.
"Hello to you too Esme. Now, sweet auntie, I think you know exactly what this is," I said to her in a condescending voice. Bella hid behind my back and started giggling, "But it's ok, we were just leaving."
I grabbed Bella's hand and ran with her passed Esme, down the stairs and out the door. We got to my car, Bella stopped suddenly and pointed to her car. I sighed.
"I'm picking you up from now on. This two car thing is annoying," I said and Bella laughed out loud.
"Do you even know where I live?" Bella asked.
"Of course I do. It's a lot easier to find than this place is," I said. Bella's mouth dropped open in shock when she found out that I knew where she lived. I realized that she must be wondering where I could've gotten her address, "Babe, it's called a directory," I said and Bella raised an eyebrow incredulously.
"You know where I live huh? I'll race you," Bella said, running over to her car and jumping in it.
"Fuck that," I said as I realized Bella already had her car started and was about to drive off. I hurriedly jumped into my car and sped off after Bella's car. Her house was about half an hour away going the speed limit, but at the rate we were going, we'd be there in ten minutes.
Bella was in one lane while I was in the other and we were neck and neck. I looked over at her car and saw that she was looking at me. She smirked, flipped me off, and floored it. Racing Bella was an extreme turn on for me and the fact that she just flipped me off and had gotten ahead of me made my dick swell and throb. I was going to catch her. I floored the pedal and managed to catch up to her.
We were once again at even, trying desperately to pass up one another. My adrenaline was pumping and my music was blasting and all I wanted to do was finish this race and fuck Bella. Her house was coming up around the corner and neither one of us were actually winning. When her house was finally reached we both hit the break at the same time and came to a loud screeching halt. It was extremely weird, but totally awesome.
Bella jumped out of her car jumping up and down screaming about how she won. I got out of my car and she was sticking her tongue out at me.
"Bells, I hate to break it to you, but it doesn't look like either one of us won," I said.
"Nuh uh. You just don't like the idea of being beat by a…" She started as she was walking to the front of our cars. She stopped once she saw I was right and said a profanity under her breath.
"Gasp Bella. Language," I said jokingly.
"Um, are you, telling me, to watch my language?" She asked me. I nodded my head yes.
"Hmmm… fuck. Shit. Damn. Hell. Bitch. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck," I started walking towards her and she started backing away from me, giggling as she continued to say the word fuck.
"Bella if you keep saying the F word I am going to have to punish you."
"Oh fucking yeah? And how do you fucking plan on fucking doing that? FUCK" She screamed at the end.
"Keep talking trash and you'll see."
"Fuck you! Fuck, fuck, fuck," She said. I started really chasing her around the cars. She ran off into the woods by her house screaming the word fuck. I ran after her, quickly catching up. I caught her and tackled her, twisting my body so that she would land on me and I would land on my back. She kept saying the word fuck, and I grabbed the back of her knees. I picked her up and pinned her against the nearest tree. I began to tickle her sides and she started laughing in earnest, begging me to stop.
"I'm sorry? You want me to stop?" I joked.
"Yes," Bella managed to say through her laughter.
"Are you gonna keep saying fuck?" She couldn't manage to say the words so she just shook her head no. I stopped tickling her and she tightened her legs around my waist.
"Mmm, fuck," She said with a giggle. I looked at her incredulously. She simply smirked at me and said fuck again. I kissed her lips.
"Fuck," She said still smirking. I kissed her again.
"Fuck," kiss "Fuck," kiss "Fuck," This time, when I kissed her, I ran my tongue across her full bottom lip. She granted me entrance and I pushed my tongue into her mouth, massaging her tongue with mine. Bella pulled my hair and my eyes rolled back behind my closed lids. Pulling my hair was a huge turn on for me. I pulled up my shirt and pulled up hers, wanting to feel some of her skin against mine. We continued to just kiss for a while longer and I was glad to know that Bella's walls were crumbling just as mine were.
Eventually, I'm not sure how long it was but the sun was setting by the time we were done, we stopped kissing and walked out of the forest hand in hand. She pulled her car into the driveway and walked back over to me, leaning against my car. She reached into her purse, pulled out a pack of cigarettes, got out two and handed one to me. She lit her lighter and both of us lit our cigarettes with the same flame. The sun finally set and the moon was full over us. Bella hopped on the hood of my car and lay back. I did the same and lay next to her. We lay there, looking at the night sky, smoking our cigarettes. We didn't say anything that entire time, but simply enjoyed each other's presence instead.
Soon Bella's phone went off and I could hear her mother yelling at her to get in the house over the phone. Bella made silly faces the entire time that made me laugh out loud. Bella hung up her phone and sighed.
"My parents are gonna have a field day," She said in a somber tone. I started to feel bad but then she looked at me and said that it was worth it. I gave her one more deep kiss before she got off my car and went into her house. Bella looked back at me once before she walked through the door and smiled at me.
After she was in her house, I got in my car and sped off to the house. I walked into the house to meet a very pissed Carlisle and Esme. I gave them an acknowledging nod hoping that they'd take it and let me go. I almost passed them by when Carlisle grabbed me by the arm and pushed me back so that I was in front of him. This action reminded me too much of my father and I clenched my fists in anger. I am supposed to be free of him, free of the fear he placed in me, and I was not about to let Carlisle try and instill that fear back into me.
"Don't fucking touch me again," I said through my teeth.
"Edward does this house look like a brothel? You can't just bring some girl…" Carlisle started.
"Did you just call my girlfriend a whore?" I said getting pissed off at what he just insinuated, "We weren't even having sex," I said trying hard not to yell. Carlisle looked shocked at the word girlfriend but didn't harp on it. His face did seem to soften a little though.
"You can't have girls in the house when there are no adults present." He said trying to put his hand on my shoulder. I backed away before he could.
"I said don't touch me."
"I understand that you just lost your father, Edward, and that you're upset about it," I snorted at this. Carlisle's face hardened, "But remember that I also lost my brother, and I know that he didn't raise you like this." That statement made me see red. He had no fucking idea how my father raised me. I wanted so bad to tell him how awful is brother was, but I couldn't. It was my crux.
"Don't talk about what you think you know. You have no fucking idea how things were with my dad," I said. I pushed passed him and headed up the stairs. Before I could get halfway up the first flight I remembered something. I paused on the stairs, my back still facing him.
"Then again, Carlisle, maybe you do," I said and continued to ascend the stairs. I wasn't sure what his reaction was or if he even heard me, I didn't turn around to check.
Soundtrack
Dearly Beloved (acoustic) Bad Religion
The Unwinding Cable Car Anberlin
Crash Into Me Dave Matthews Band
Soft Shock (acoustic) Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Monkey Wrench Foo Fighters
E-Pro Beck
Somewhere in Between Lifehouse
Sweetness in Starlight Matt Wertz
Grind Alice in Chains
