Chapter 13

I was hesitant to talk to Kikyo, she was, sick. I hate to admit this but it's naturally all my fault. If I had not contradicted my father and told him those words that came from a deep and hidden place in my heart then maybe, just maybe my sister wouldn't hate me right now! Maybe I wouldn't be here standing in front of the Taisho's household. Getting ready to apologize and accept the conditions of which this horrid marriage stands. But, the point is I did talk to kikyo and I am standing here, in front of my future home, in which my future husband lives. What I couldn't stop thinking about is my conversation with my sister.

FLASHBACK

KNOCK KNOCK

As I knocked on Kikyo's door to at least try to make amends, I felt her shuffle around the room trying to get out of bed to open the door.

"Kikyo you don't have to get out of bed, just give me permission to walk in?" I asked quietly and uncertainly.

As she opened the door she glared daggers at me. It was hard not to just brake down and cry my eyes out! It was hard for me not to jump on her and tell her how I felt. But, I was kagome Higurashi and I was the strong one. I was the one who would always have to hold her composure.

"What do you want now, ka-gome-me" kikyo said as she made sure she said my name in a way that meant 'you're a bother and I can't stand you'.

"All I want is for you to hear me out and listen to me. I want you to try and put yourself in my shoes. I want you to try and feel what I feel. That's all I want from you. You're a great sister. You've been there for me since mom died and have been taking care of me. Why would you stop now? Just hear me out" I sobbed the last part.

A look of sadness crossed over her eyes. I could see how badly she wanted to cry, but she wouldn't. Just like the face came it left. Like lightning it just disappeared.

"Kagome, what can you say? Huh? That you're sorry? That you don't know what came over you? It is but simple my sister. Everything that is thought should not always be said. It is but wrong. But I do understand what you're going through, I understand that dad wants to take the only thing a woman can call her own. But think about not only your self but dad also. He only wants the best for you. Ever since mom died you've become less social only hanging out with your click since we were young. And you're dating life? You have not brought a date or someone close to a date. EVER! Dads scared for you and I'm scared for you; because I -we- love you. So don't come with that speech, 'that I have to hear you out' because I know! I know a lot of things; I know you feel used because of dad. But life isn't always fair. So as smart as you are and as smart as I am we both know what the right choice is now." As kikyo turned around to close the door, I put my foot in the way and asked "but are we O.K? Do you forgive me?"

"I was never mad at you, just disappointed. So I'm going to go to bed I really don't feel well!"

So as she closed the door I ran out of the house and went to the Taisho's house to apologize for my childish behavior.

END OF FLASHBACK

So here I am in front of the Taisho house hold.

Just when I was about to knock, the door was opened and I was met with dangerous red eyes.