I was pacing in Shane's living room waiting for everyone to get there. Honestly I'm surprised she wasn't here already. After all she was the one that always cooked the food for us. "Are you sure she is coming?"
"She told me that she would be here. Cool down man." Shane said as Shannon and Matt came into the room.
"Is she here yet?" I asked them.
"Yeah she is here and she is with her man." Shannon said to me.
"I'm her man." I growled as I went to head out into the hallway.
"Why did you bring me here Sarah you know that I hate this stupid gamer night shit?" I would guess Cole said to her.
"You think I like watching you and your friends shooting down beers and hooting at women at the bars? Deal with it I deal with your shit." She shot back and I held in my smile. It wasn't going t work out I was going to make sure of that.
"You know what? I'm out of here. I'm sick of this Sarah I told you to pick them or me until then don't call me." He growled at her and I got pissed.
"You know what asshole? Leave I don't give a shit but make sure your shit is out of my house tomorrow because I've done made my choice. You think you know me and my friends. You think I'm fucking all of them behind your back but I'm not and you hate the fact that I'm not girlie. You should have thought about that before you got with me. You aren't even good in bed. I know two men that could fuck me so much better then you." She growled to him and I smiled then.
I moved away from the doorway and sat down on the couch before she walked in with a fake smile on her face. That was until she saw me. That smile disappeared and she turned around to leave. "Where are you going?"
"To get a bottle of Jack Daniels." She said to Matt and he knew then that something was really wrong with her.
I knew what it was but I wasn't about to let on that I know what it was. No then she would know that I was listening in. She would be telling us after half the bottle anyways. Or at least I hope so. Shannon looked at me as she left and I shrugged my shoulders. That made him roll his eyes because he knew that I was lying. "You are an ass you know."
"He knows." She said as she came back in with a bottle in each hand.
"Oh how thou wound me with such words." I said grabbing my chest for dramatic effect.
"Then what you want Nero. We all know that you are an ass. Yo Matt can I come home with you tonight?" She asked as she opened the first bottle.
"Sure can baby girl." He said to her with a smile that told me a whole different story.
"Why would you want to go to Matt's? I didn't know that you all were that close." I said to her and she smiled.
"Matt's the one I fuck when I break up with someone that is bad in bed. He makes me scream all night long Nero." She said to me and I growled.
"That is over and done with." I hissed at her and she laughed before she down a quarter of the bottle and then let out a sigh.
"Let's get these games going the others can join when they get here." She said as Shane went to hook up the WII.
"As you command princess." Shane said over his shoulder and I rolled my eyes.
"We all know she isn't no princess. Princesses don't fuck brothers." I said with a snort.
"Can't help that two of my friends just happen to be brothers and I fucked both of them." She said before she stood up and walked out of the room.
I knew that I was hurting her and I wanted to kick myself for it but after all this time I find out she fucks my brother when they aren't seeing people. How do I know she never fucked him while she was seeing someone namely me? Would she do that to me? Did she do that to me? I don't know but it was pissing me off.
I walked into the kitchen and sat down at the table. I couldn't believe that he believed that. But just for that I'm going to fuck Matt tonight. I was going to make sure he heard me all the way to his house. That bastard thinks that he can control me he has another thing coming. And he thinks I'm so fucking stupid that I didn't see him watching and listening to us. But it's done with. I can't change it Cole fucked up telling me I had to choose. They may make me mad sometimes but they have been here for me through a lot of shit even Jeff. But that doesn't matter right now. What matters to me is Cole is gone and I alone now. I don't know why I do this. I don't know why I let others do this to me but I was tired of it. So it was time to end it.
"Hey Sarah are you ok?" Shannon asked from behind me.
"No." I said to him.
He pulled me back and I leaned my head against his chest. "I'm sorry about Cole."
"I'm not." I said to him and he looked down at me.
"I didn't love him Shannon. We all knew that. I was just tired of not being loved." I said to him.
"You are loved." He said to me and I smiled at him.
"You and I know that I would kill you the first time you decide to jump off the roof naked into the pool." I said to him.
"I love you girl but like a sister." He said and then I glared at him.
"He doesn't love me. He just has my heart and won't give it back and let me love someone else." I said to him.
"Now you can think what you want." He said to me.
"Let's not talk about this right now. All I want to do is drink this bottle, play some games and then go fuck Matt." I said to him and he narrowed his eyes at me.
"So you really have fucked Matt?" He asked me and I rolled my eyes.
"Once before Jeff even started to be interested." I said to him.
"You were fifteen." He said to me.
"I know." I said to him.
"He was your first wasn't he?" He asked me and I snorted.
"Yes he was I have only slept with four men my whole life Shannon I don't plan on many more." I said to him.
"Wait a minute that would means you were Matt's first too. Right?" Shannon asked me shocked.
"Yes." I said to him and he jumped up and down.
"I finally know who he lost it to. Was it any good?" He asked me.
"Actually yes it was. Because we did a lot of foreplay beforehand. He is the one that taught me how to kiss too." I said to him.
"I've heard you are a damn good kisser." He said to me.
"I haven't kissed you before?" I asked him.
"No." He said to me and I smiled before I pulled him down for a kiss.
It was a soft one and no tongues but it was a sweet kiss like you would do for a crush when you were younger. "Trying for all of our friends huh?"
I broke away from him and looked over at Jeff. "Actually I am thought I would give it a try. You know fuck every man I meet. Well, ones that I haven't fucked yet."
"That would mean that Matt would be out you know?" He said to me.
"Not if I want to fuck him." I said as I stood up and grabbed the bottle that was on the table.
"Why are you doing this Sarah?" Jeff asked me.
"Why do you fucking care?" I shot back at him.
"Why wouldn't I care you are like my best friend?" He asked me.
"That is a fucking joke. Best friends don't use the other. They don't fuck them. They don't steal their heart and not give it back after they fuck them over and they don't try to make it harder on their best friend by wanting her when she already had someone. That isn't a best friend Jeff. You are my ex and that is all you are. We have the same friends that's it. And I only slept with your brother before I ever slept with you asshole." I shot at him before I rushed past him and into the living room.
I walk in and Shane looks at me. "Does that mean I'm next?"
"I don't know you don't have that green hair anymore and you looked so sexy with that green hair." I said with a wink and he pouted.
Then he smiled and looked at Matt. "I have the spray in green dye will that work for the night?"
"Why don't we use that in her hair?" Matt asked with an evil smile and my eyes went wide.
"What was the first thing that you learned about me Matt?" I asked him.
"Don't fuck with the hair." He said to me and I laughed.
"Damn right." I said to him.
"I thought the first thing you ever told him was get off me booger head?" Jeff asked as he walked into the room.
"Yeah that would be it." Matt said and we all laughed.
"Isn't my fault that you guys were mean when you were young and picked on the only girl that wanted to play tag with you." I said with a snort as they laughed harder.
"We were trying to teach you that you couldn't run with the big dogs." Matt said and I doubled over in laughter.
"You guys thought you were the big dogs that is so cute." I sobbed out as I wiped my tears away.
"Do we have to go there?" Matt asked me and I stopped laughing.
"You wouldn't." I growled.
"I would." He said and I glared at him.
"Do it and die." I said to him.
"Sarah decided that she would dress like a girl for Halloween because she was always wearing jeans and guys shirts. Well her mom decided that if she could do it for Halloween she had to do it the whole two weeks before Halloween. So that Monday she got out of her car with her hair down, make up on and in a tank top and jean shirt. Her legs were shaved and she had on knee high heeled boots. She looked scared and it didn't help when all the guys in school stopped and stared at her as she walked by. We all were following her around in school all day. Then the next day her mom curled her hair and put it up pretty. She wore a dress that day because it was off the shoulders red on that hugged her curves and god she had the nicest ass and we never knew it until that dress. You remember that Jeff?" Matt asked Jeff.
"God how could I not. I had to hold my books in front of my crotch all day because of her. You should have seen our faces when she came back to school dressed in jeans and one of my old tee shirts. But we never forgot those two weeks." Jeff said and I smiled at that. I never knew that all the guys were looking at me. I knew that Matt and Jeff use to walk in front of me and behind me through the halls.
"I didn't know that you guys remembered that. I thought you were talking about something else." I said to Matt.
He gave me an evil smile and I glared at him. "You do it and I'll tell them of that night Matt."
"You wouldn't!" He said to me.
"Oh I would and you know that." I said to him.
"Fine I won't." He said and I nodded.
"I thought so." I said to him.
"I never said that I wouldn't." I said to her and she glared at me.
"I'll tell them yours too." She said to me and I smiled.
"I know that you won't tell them because it has to deal with you too." I said to her and her smiled became evil.
"I wasn't talking about that one Jeff. I was talking about the one that happened eight years ago. You know the one that I have taped and hidden just for a moment like this." She said to me.
"Oh no you wouldn't." I said in horror.
"All I have to do is make a phone call and it will be on the web within seconds." She said to me.
I sat back in my chair with a whine because I knew that she would do it. Why? Because I would do it. "Fine I won't tell them."
"I didn't think you would Jeff." She said before she looked at Shane.
"Alright who is going to beat my score?" She asked them as I sat back and watched her.
She lost all that weight right after she turned 16 and when she wore that dress I knew then that she would be mine. But I didn't realize it would be like the way it was. I wish I could go back ten years and tell her just how I felt. Just what I wanted with her. Now with all the shit I have done with her and did to her I believe that she won't take me back. That doesn't mean I'm not going to try because I am and I need to plan this out because she is so much different then she use to be. I never realized just how much I hurt her until I saw her in the bar.
"Hey Jeff are you ok?" Shane asked me.
"Yeah sorry about that I was just thinking." I said before I looked at Sarah.
"I'm sorry for all the shit I have put you through in the past 24 hours." I said to her and she looked at me surprised.
"Really, well that is new." She said before she turned away from me and handed Shannon her bottle. "I'm ready to play since you wimps don't want to try to beat me record."
"I will." A voice said from behind me and I turned to see Cole standing there.
"What are you doing here?" Sarah asked him.
"I'm here to talk to you." He said to her.
"You said all I needed to hear before you left." She said as she stood up and looked at him.
"I'm sorry Sarah." He said to her.
"No you aren't Cole. We both know that. We both know that you aren't ready to settle down. I was the tag along. We both know that." She said to him.
"Can we talk alone please?" He asked me and I stood up.
"She said you said all you had to say. I would take that as it's time to leave." I said to him and Matt walked over beside me.
"Oh yes the Hardys. The ones she has fucked." Cole growled and I wanted to hit him.
"I think you better leave before we make you leave." Shannon said as he walked over to the other side of me.
"Sarah..." He started and she shook her head.
"Nothing to say Cole just leave." She said to him as Shane walked over to her.
"This isn't over with Sarah. We both know that. When you come home tomorrow we'll talk and plan the wedding ok baby?" He asked her and she laughed.
"You are really stupid aren't you? Unless... You beat her don't you?" Matt asked him in a growl and I looked back at Sarah. The look in her eyes told me everything that I needed to know.
"Yes he does." I said to Matt and all three of us jumped on him at once.
I knew that we hurt him but we didn't care. No he hurt Sarah and that was all that mattered. I have hurt her a lot but I never hit her. I would never do that to her. No she deserved more than that. "Jeff you need to stop and get him out of here."
Matt and Shannon pulled me off of him after Shane said that and I turned to see that Sarah had left the room. I couldn't understand how she would put up with that. She never put up with shit like that before...me. I then realized that most of her changes were because of me and they weren't for the better that was for sure. Maybe I should let her go after all. Slipped into my mind but I shook my head and went to go after her.
"No I'll take care of Sarah you take him to the car and get him the hell out of here." Shane said before he left the room.
I was on Shane's back deck when he came out of the house. "Hey baby girl they are taking him away from here."
I nodded and looked out at the pool and woods. "I love this place you know."
"Then why did you move away?" He asked me.
"I was tired of the pain Shane I needed to leave to get away from him. That meant leaving everyone. I'm sorry about that." I said to him as I took off my shirt and then my jeans.
"What are you doing?" He asked me as I climbed onto the railing.
"I'm about to jump into the pool." I said before I did just that with a laugh.
When I came up I moved out of the way in time for him to join me in the pool. "Girl you are crazy!"
"That is why you guys love me so much." I told him as he swam towards me.
"That is one of the reasons." He said before he hugged me and took me under with him.
When we came back up I saw the others looking down at us and for the first time in a long time I could see my family again. I could see my boys. The ones that were there when my parents died. The ones that helped my raise my brother. I saw that in them and it made me happy again. I haven't been happy in almost ten years. "Thank you for that."
Matt pulled off his shirt and so did the other two. Then they pulled their pants off and at the same time took a running leap over the railing and landed in the deeper end. The whole pool was deep but they landed in the deeper end rocking Shane and me with the waves. I laughed and wondered why I ever let this go.
