I know that this is short but I needed to make this chapter short so I could make you all very happy by making a really long one. Sorry it's been so long without an update. There will be more coming I swear. Luv Sin!!!
Ok it's now day two with Sarah on the road with us. I really hate the way everyone is looking at her. Cena can't keep his eyes to himself but he isn't the one that I am worried about. No she has always had a thing for Glen and Mark. And they both love redheads. And Sarah was a redhead. "Hey Sarah are you going out with us tonight?"
"Nope." She said without looking at John.
"Why not?" He asked her.
"I'll be in my hotel room fucking Shannon tonight. Maybe tomorrow night." She said and I growled.
"Calm down Jeffie. You get me Friday remember?" She asked me with a teasing smile.
"I'm holding you to that one Sarah." I said to her seriously.
"You always ruin the fun." She said before Mark grabbed her and pulled her onto his lap.
"You can always fuck me tonight." He said to her and she blushed.
It's been a long time since I have seen Sarah blush and I had forgotten how beautiful she was. She was shining and I knew that it wasn't because of me. Since that day at Shane's she has been really cold towards me and today was the first time in years that she included me in on a joke and I fucked it up. "Got to know you more than two days to fuck you."
"Isn't going to happen Mark." I growled out and they both looked at me.
Sarah's eyes filled with something that I hadn't seen in a long time and I never wanted to see in her eyes again. Hate. She was beginning to hate me for everything that I have done and I'm not helping at all. "It's my body Hardy and if I want to fuck him right here in front of you there would be nothing that you could say to stop me. Do you get that?"
"I'm sorry Sarah." I said to her and she shook her head.
"No you aren't because if you were sorry then you wouldn't be saying it." She said to me before she turned back to Mark.
"Sorry big boy it seems I'm closed for business for a long time." She said before she got up and left the room.
Mark looked at me and I sighed. "She is the one that I told you about."
"You are fucking up big time Jeff." He said to me.
"I know." I said to him before I got up to go after her.
I knew where she would be. I knew just who she would be running to. His match hasn't started yet so I knew that she would be in the locker room with him. I just hoped that she hadn't told him what was said. If she did then I know that I am in for one hell of a hit when I walk into the room. "Sarah I know that it is hard but you got to realize that just as much as he drives you crazy he loves you. I know that he has a sick way of proving it but he does."
"He should have thought about that a long time ago. I can't do that again Matt. I can't do that to myself. I don't even know how I made it through the last time. Hell not all of me did. We all know that. Then when I lost the baby I knew then that I would never be able to go there with him. I knew that he wasn't the one that I needed in my life to make my world right. He is the storm that passes through just to turn my world upside down. I don't need that anymore. I don't think I can make it through another one of those storms." She said to him and I leaned against the wall and slid down it.
"Look we both know that you didn't even know that you were pregnant when you lost the baby but I know that you lost a lot when that happened. Hell we all did. But he has changed a lot." Matt said to her and I prayed that she would listen to him.
"He changed too late. All I want from him is my heart that he won't let go of." She said to him.
"Then take it back if you can Sarah. Steal it away from him. Do what you need to do because we both know just who you will be running to in the end." He said to her and I heard her hit the locker.
"I will die before I run back to him." She said softly.
I hung my head and sighed because I knew that I was the one that caused all of this. I hate myself right now because I know Sarah no matter how much she loves me she will not come to me until I prove to her that I have changed and the only way for me to do that is to stop acting the way that I have been acting. That meant that I needed to show her that I could let her go even if I can't. I just have to make it look like I have let her go. "What are you doing out here?"
"Sarah and Matt are talking so I decided not to go in." I said to him.
""What are they talking about?" Shannon asked me.
"Me." I said to him.
"Why don't we go have our own talk?" Shannon asked me and I looked up at him.
"You really hate me don't you?" I asked him as I stood up.
"I hate what you have done to Sarah." He said to me and I nodded as we headed to his locker room.
"Jeff we both know that you want Sarah. Even people that don't know what has gone on between you two know that there is something there. But you aren't showing just how much you have changed. I know that you have changed a lot in your life but when it comes to Sarah you never change. I think that it is time for you to just let go and move on. She needs you to move on so she can." He said to me when we got into his locker room.
"You think that I don't know that. You think that I don't see all the hell that I put her through every time that she looks at me? I do and there is nothing that I can do to stop it but everything in me wants her. My body, mind and soul want her and my heart won't let her go." I said to him and he looked away.
"You never used your heart before Jeff." He said to me and I nodded.
"I know." I said to him.
"I found her you know. I was the one that made friends with her first. She was totally different from all the other girls at that age. She wanted to get dirty. She wanted to play in the mud and she got into her first fight protecting me without even knowing me. I should have protected her from this. I should have made sure that she wouldn't get hurt. But she got hurt by someone that I never saw coming the most and that was you. I remember that night Jeff. The first time you said goodbye to her. How you couldn't even do it face to face. Called her from some pay phone and said it was over. Destroyed her world like it was nothing. I was the one that helped her put it back together and got her to move on.
"Then two years later there you were looking for the score. She fought hard but I knew that she wouldn't be able to last against you. She would call me in tears telling me that no matter what you did to her she still loved you. To hear her cry while she says this broke my heart. Jeff out of every person in Sarah's life you have made her cry the most. But she is stronger now Jeff. She has changed a lot getting ready for this last battle with you. She will win this time and you will let go. You will let her go." Shannon said as he paced the room looking at me.
"You just don't get it do you Shannon? Sarah is the one and I knew that a long time ago but was scared. She was meant for me and I will wait forever just so she could see that. I'm not letting go of her. I can't and I won't." I said as I stood up and looked at him.
