I feel so bad!! I haven't up-dated in far too long! I'm so bad! All please forgive me with this really, really, really good chapter, it did take me a while to find the right way to describe it, but I hope that I put it so everyone can understand.
This came to me the other night when I was having a nightmare!
You know how we all have memories that we'd rather forget? Well what is you were to keep reliving these memories over, and over again? Be the ultimate torture wouldn't it?
Everyone should thank Rune-Spirit and mysupermanwillcome for this chapter!
Chapter Seventeen: Living in a Nightmare
Susan was thrown to the ground by Adam, The Witch held Isabella by the hair, "The last dose Isabella! From now on you'll be living in your nightmares" said the Witch in a deadly quite voice, Isabella wriggled like a snake but to little prevail, "Isabella!" screamed Susan, the last dose the Witch was going to give her would kill her, and Susan couldn't bare to have that happen, Isabella had been her only friend, she had saved her from Adam, she had to do something, the witch un-corked a vile filled with a dark purple and red liquid, Susan tried to stand but Adam's foot was on her back pushing her into the cold ice, Susan looked up as the Witch pulled Isabella back, she tipped the corked and the red liquid flowed into her mouth, "No!" screamed Susan.
Isabella clutched her throat, she coughed and blood splattered the ice, what little light was left in Isabella's eyes left, her face went grey, she then fell to the floor, a lay still.
Susan struggled out from underneath Adam's foot, he made to grab Susan but the Witch shook her head, "There's nothing you can do for her now Susan!" said the Witch in a spiteful tone, "No, no, no, no, no!" repeated Susan as she ran to Isabella's side, "She didn't do anything! She didn't deserve this!" screamed Susan as tears ran down her cheeks, even though Isabella looked as though she was in a peaceful sleep, Susan knew she was far from it, "Oh she doesn't?" said Adam in a mocking tone, "Well then you can join her!" said the Witch, and in one swift movement she grabbed Susan by the hair and poured another vile of the foul liquid down Susan's throat, Susan began to choke, the poison was burning her throat, she tried to breath but it wouldn't work! Her airways felt as though they were filled with water, her vision started to fade, there was a pain in her chest that was unbearable! How had Isabella stood this for so long? Susan grabbed at her throat still gasping for air, she wanted to die! The pain was so intense that dieing would surely bring her relief, Susan began to slide to the floor, "Let's see how you like it Susan" said the Witch looking down on her, Susan's eyes rolled into the back of her head and she slumped to the floor, darkness enveloped her.
Susan opened her eyes, she was on a Ice river, Peter was holding a sword to a wolf, she Susan was standing next to Peter, but she wasn't, looking around Susan saw Lucy clutching Peter as she was, this was a memory from there first time in Narnia, Susan blinked she could see the fur coats, "Just because some old man gives you a sword doesn't make you a hero!" screamed past Susan, Susan winced what was she saying? How could she have ever believed that? She watched as the dam burst and the past Lucy, Peter and Susan were thrown into the water, she watched as they came out of the water, the past Susan looked around "Lucy?" she called, then present Susan gasped she had the feeling, in the pit of her stomach, where was Lucy? "Lucy?" the Past Susan screamed this time, all the things that had gone through Susan's head then were going through her head now:
'Lucy had fallen off the block of Ice, into the water'
'Lucy was trying to swim against the current, but she couldn't she was struggling to stay above water'
"No stop it!" Susan screamed at herself!
'Lucy was gasping for air'
Susan grabbed at her hair, "It didn't happen! It didn't!" she screamed.
'Lucy was lying face down in the water dead'
"No!" screamed Susan grabbing at her hair.
The blackness came again and went; Susan and Lucy were sitting in a tree, although future Susan was still on the ground, the wolf leapt at Peter and past Susan and Lucy screamed, and another set of images rolled through Susan's mind, just as they did before:
'the wolf had jumped on Peter, its teeth bared, it was about to rip it's teeth through Peters throat'
Susan shook her head, she knew it didn't happen! So why was she thinking about it?
'Peter was lying on the ground, his eyes lifeless, blood pouring from his throat'
"No!" yelled Susan, she was getting angry, she knew what happened, Peter had survived, so why couldn't she stop these images running through her mind?
Blackness covered her gaze again.
Susan tried not to open her eyes but they were forced open by an invisible force.
Past Susan and Past Lucy wept over a dead Aslan's body.
Susan shook her head as a tear rolled down her cheek, she remembered how she had felt here, that all hope was lost.
The scene changed again.
Susan and Peter were walking along a passage with Aslan that was lined with columns, "You have learned all you can here" said Aslan, Susan continued walking her head down, she knew what Aslan was going to say next, although she hoped he wouldn't "You cannot return".
In that moment Susan felt herself die inside, she felt that the only thing that was alive in her now were the hot tears rolling down her face.
Susan stopped as she realised what was happening, at all these times she had felt utterly hopeless, for her self, and her family, she stopped and looked up, she knew how to beat this game, she had to remember something that filled her with hope, "Its not hopeless! You can do this!" Susan said to her self, she then closed her eyes, wishing upon all that she had that it would work.
Susan opened her eyes, she was standing in a courtyard that was surrounded by Telmarine people, her past self approached the past Caspian.
"I wish we had more time together" said past Caspian looking down, past Susan smiled, and Susan felt it, it was a tiny flutter but she held onto it, "It would never have worked anyway" said Susan, she saw something within Caspian fall that she hadn't seen the first time, and she felt guilty, "Why not?" asked past Caspian confused, "Well I am thirteen-hundred years older than you" said past Susan smiling again, there goes the flutter again, thought present Susan, past Caspian smiled weakly, past Susan smiled grimly, it was short and quick, Susan remembered at the time she couldn't bare to have a smile on her face, then past Susan stopped, she turned around and in one swift movement had walked back to Caspian, grabbed his neck and kissed him, Susan felt herself fill with warmth, she had done it, she had beaten the Witch's torture.
The poison wasn't suppose to inflict physical pain on anyone, it was to torture them, to make them see all the things they didn't want to see, make them relive memories that they would rather forget and twist them to have a deadly effect.
The poison was suppose to suck all the hope from you, and only when all hope was gone from the drinker would they finally die.
But Susan was stronger, and as the darkness surrounded her again she knew she had the Witch beat, she couldn't break her hope now.
When Susan opened her eyes she was standing in a forest, in a scene she didn't recognise, she looked around and saw Isabella curled up on the floor weeping, she clutched at the dirty leaves on the floor, Susan made to go to her but stopped as she herd someone yell,
Susan walked towards the voice, then all of a sudden the trees shook and the leaves blew up they slowly formed a body, then more brown leaves joined the body until there was no light shining through and that the body looked like a solid mass of leaves and then turned into Isabella, she wore a soft yellow dress with her long brown hair cascading down her back, flowers strung through out her hair, she looked around, "Your late" said a voice, a man stood leaning on a tree, he wore dark clothes, his eyes held a wolfish gaze, his body had taunt muscles everywhere like Caspian's though his skin was as white as snow, "That must be Lestat" Susan said to herself, Isabella smiled, Lestat smiled aw well revealing his pointed teeth, Isabella moved towards him but stopped as the trees shook again, pink petals fell from the trees and like Isabella they formed together to make a person, then a women appeared wearing a baby blue dress, and long blond hair, flowers were also woven into her hair like Isabella, she turned to face Isabella who was frozen, "Mother!" she said in shock, the women looked to Lestat, he looked back, his expression emotionless, the women glared at him with her yellow eyes, "Isabella you are never to see him again!" growled the women marching and grabbing Isabella by the arm, "What?" asked Isabella bewildered and trying to remove her arm from her mothers grip, Lestat lunged forward, "No!" he said Grabbing Isabella's hand, but Isabella's mother was strong she pulled her daughters arm and pushed her behind her blocking her from Lestat's grasp, "Please I love her!" said Lestat tears forming in his eyes as he pointed to Isabella , men entered the clearing and stood with Lestat, they all had torn clothes and hollow eyes, the women snarled, "You and your kind have no place in Narnia, and I will not have you courting my daughter!" said the women, the men behind Lestat snarled, "Isabella, I forbid you to see him ever again!" said the women turning to Isabella, "Mother be reasonable!" said Isabella standing up tall as she spoke to her mother, "My word is law!" said the women, "No!" screamed Isabella she made to go over to Lestat but the tree queen caught her arm again and pulled her back, Lestat lunged forward and tried to grab Isabella but the men behind him grabbed him and pulled him back, "Lestat!" screamed past Isabella tears streaming down her face, "Isabella!" yelled Lestat trying to break free of the men that held him, Isabella continued to weep as her mother pulled her out of the clearing, Susan looked down and present Isabella who was bawling on the ground, Susan shook her head she could feel her pain, being torn away from the man she loved, a pain Susan knew all to well, Susan bent down on the ground and held Isabella around the shoulder as she cried, the scene changed, they were on the shores near Cair Paravel, Isabella was marching along the beach her hands clenched and her face covered with disappointment, Lestat followed her jogging slightly to keep up, "How could you do this!" demanded the past Isabella her yellow robes billowing as she walked, "I did it for us!" said Lestat grabbing the past Isabella's hand, Susan gripped the past Isabella's shoulder harder as she cried, Susan looked up and witnessed the scene, "If you cared about us at all you wouldn't have gone to her!" said Isabella ripping her hand away from Lestat, "What was I suppose to do?" asked Lestat throwing his hands up, "Not this! What exactly do you have to do for her?" asked Isabella her hand on her hips, "Lead her army's against Caspian" said Lestat quietly, Isabella's eyes bulged, she opened her mouth to say something, but stopped, disappointment and hurt was plain in her eyes, she spun on her heel and began to walk away, "Once this is done everything will change! She's going to let us have a future" said Lestat chasing after Isabella again, he stopped in front of her forcing her to stop, "You want a future Lestat? Well you'll have one" said Isabella, then something in her face fell and she lowered her head "But I wont be in it" she said quietly, and with that she pushed past Lestat who looked after her, Susan saw the past Isabella wipe a tear away from her cheek, the past Isabella cried even harder, Susan looked down at her, she realised how much it must of hurt Isabella to do that, "Isabella listen to me!" said Susan, Isabella cries became quieter but sobs still racked her body, "Your stronger than this you can do this! You can beat the White Witch" said Susan, the scene changed Isabella was being thrown before the White Witch's feet, her black dress, "Hello Isabella" said The White Witch sweetly, Isabella glared at her, pure hatred reflected in her eyes, "Do you know why you are here?" asked The White Witch, Isabella didn't answer she merely stood up looked around, "Men came and snatched you in the middle of the night and you have no idea?" asked the Witch smiling slightly, "If I knew why I was here I would have answered your previous question" spat Isabella, "You do not address the Queen of Narnia this way!" said Adam walking into the room, "I see no Queen before me! But a vile pretender that deserves to rot in hell!" said Isabella, there was a strength building inside her, Adam slapped Isabella hard across the face, the Witch blinked then continued, "You are here because Lestat" began the Witch, Isabella gasped and looked up, "Wished you to be" finished the Witch, Isabella looked around, Werewolves stood along the walls though none of them were Lestat, something fell within Isabella as she realised what had happened, "He said-" began Isabella, "What that he was going to call our deal off?" asked the Witch, Isabella looked around, tears brimmed in her eyes, "Well he lied, he betrayed you" hissed the Witch, "No" screamed Isabella, she was hauled to her feet and pulled out of the room, past Isabella screamed and pulled at her hair, "Isabella listen to me! You can do this! Remember! Remember what made you happy!" yelled Susan begging Isabella to hear her, "I cant! I cant! The pain is too much!" said Isabella, Susan looked around things were going black, Isabella didn't have much time, "Remember Lestat! Remember your love! You can do this!" pleaded Susan desperately, she felt strength leaving Isabella, she was going to die if she didn't remember something good, suddenly an idea came to Susan, "Isabella remember the time you and Lestat kissed" said Susan Isabella went quite and still, was she dead? Everything was black, there was no memory, maybe Isabella had died, "Isabella?" asked Susan pushing hair out of Isabella's eyes, she was cold, and still, then a drop of colour fell from no where, and a memory filled the scene, Isabella was riding through the forest of the back of a centaur, she jumped off laughing, then centaur continued through the forest, Isabella turned to a tree and began counting, "Three, two, one! I'm coming to find you!" said Isabella laughing she turned around and walked away from the tree laughing, she stumbled into and clearing and stopped, a grey horse stood saddled but alone, "Hey! Where did you come from?" asked Isabella approaching the horse, she rubbed its muzzle, "Where's your rider?" asked Isabella, the horse nickered and nudged it head forward, Isabella turned around behind her, a man lay on the ground, his head resting on a rock, 'He must have been thrown from his horse' though Susan, Isabella walked over to the Lestat who was laying of the ground motionless, she bent down and brushed hair out of his face, much like Susan had done to Isabella moments ago, past Isabella smiled and continued to brush Lestat's cheek, then all of a sudden Lestat's hand shot up and grabbed Isabella's, Isabella gasped, then looked down at Lestat, he opened his eyes and looked at her, Susan saw the spark past between them, Lestat sat up still holding Isabella's hand, Lestat let go of Isabella's hand and slowly they stood up, there eyes never leaving each others, Isabella took a step back and Lestat a step forward, Isabella backed into a tree then slipped behind it, Lestat moved his head, he was un able to see her, Isabella laughed and half her face poked out from behind the tree, Isabella continued to walk from tree to tree, hiding behind it, Lestat followed her smiling and watching ever move she made, "This was the first time we met" said a voice, Susan jumped Isabella was sitting beside her, "I was playing with him" said Isabella, Susan watched as the past Isabella danced around the clearing darting between tree to tree, then Lestat reached out and grabbed her hand and pulled her to him, his body pressed against hers, then Lestat pulled her face to his and kissed her, she saw the shock in past Isabella's eyes, but once that past she relished herself to the kiss and closed her eyes, Susan looked to present Isabella that sat beside her, she grabbed Susan's hand, "Thank you" she said, Susan smiled back at her, then the scene disappeared and they were back in the Witch's castle.
