So I guessed I would add another chapter so see all of your reactions.
BPOV
Carlisle and I were lying on the bed in comfortable silence.
"Carlisle..." I said unsurely.
"Mhm?" he said as he stroked my back.
"What do you think will happen now?" I asked curiously and worriedly.
"Whatever you want to happen Bella. Tell me whatever you want and I will do it for you." He said reassuringly. I realized that he truly did love me! He wanted to do anything for me not that I deserved any of it. I ruined his family. But I knew I wanted something, since I had met Edward...and it was to be a vampire. But what about Charlie... I knew I hurt him deeply when Edward had left me and I was grieving... okay not I was not grieving more like dying on the inside bit by bit. But still I knew that without Carlisle by my side I could never be truly happy... I realized I had loved him with every part of my body and mind. He was always so caring, understanding and not selfish unlike that Edward! I just wanted to be part of the Cullen clan again but what about Esme? How would she feel about that, the girl that was in love with her son and was on her way to becoming her daughter now sleeping around with her ex-husband? And what would I be to Rosalie and Alice their mother? The thought itself made me shiver. But I knew with Carlisle things would always work out, even if I could no longer be part of the Cullen clan I would still have Carlisle.
"Carlisle..." I asked again warily and nervous.
"Yes my love?" he answered more surely now.
"Do you love me enough to turn me into a vampire?" I asked bluntly. I needed to know before I got my hopes up.
"Bella I love you enough to turn you into anything you wish! But I would only agree to it if you were absolutely sure." He replied softly.
"Carlisle I'm sure... I want to spend eternity with you and with the rest of your family..." I said sheepishly. He just pulled me in tighter to him and kissed my hair.
"Then I will do it for you." I gasped at his answer. Edward would never agree without some sort of fight! But he was not Edward he was Carlisle the man I had fallen in love with almost instantly...but deep down always loved.
"Thank you Carlisle!" I said happily as I reached up and kissed him on the lips passionately. He gently pulled me over him so I was fully on top of him still kissing him and feeling my body with his cold hands. Shivers ran through my body but I enjoyed them. He stopped kissing me and just stared at me amazed.
"Bella you have made me the happiest man on earth! I had always wanted you to give up your humanity for me as you were willing to give it over to Edward but he foolishly denied you. I love you so much! I will love you forever!" as he said that he kissed me urgently again and I moaned into his mouth.
"Carlisle?" I said.
"Yes?" he replied in his smooth voice.
"Does Edward still love me?" I asked cautiously. I didn't want him to get the wrong idea that I was thinking about Edward right then. He sighed.
"Yes Bella, he will always love you..." he replied hesitantly. I began crying again. What would happen if I saw him when I was a vampire? What would I think? What would he think? Would he think now that I was a vampire he could be with me? Would I want to? Would I abandon Carlisle like that? NO! Never! Edward left me when I gave him my soul...my heart countless times and he just spat me right in the face! He deserved to be hurting. I for once deserved to be happy! I knew it was selfish of me but did he ever think of my feelings for him when he left me? NO! He always thought he loved me more than I loved him! This in reality was total bullshit you don't leave someone you love!
"What do you think will happen between Edward and I after I become a vampire?" I asked curiously.
"I don't know Bella, it's really up to you... you might have to choose... and please do choose with your heart, I only yearn for your happiness." He said softly. I just smiled at his comforting words and kissed him gently.
Okay I know it wasn't long but I just wanted you guys to get a glimpse I guess of what's to come. Sorry this story might take longer to update since I am working on two other stories and you should check them out I really love them. Thanks again.
