Disclaimer: no..."checks mail" still no..."mutters darkly"

Chapter 2: Wishing

Mike's POV

I can't sleep very well, can't stop thinking about what I said to Leo...we really...like attackedhim...I mean I didn't honestly mean anything I said...but still...Leo doesn't know that... My alarm "beeps" and I sigh and get up. Leo isn't up yet...weird, but ok...I know what I'll do I'll make him those omlets he likes and his favorite tea and bring it to him!!! I rush to the kitchen to do so, sweeping the counter clean quickly, I notice a piece of paper and grab it before it hits the floor and set it on the table, must be one of Don's random notes, he might need it. I finish the omlet and get the tea going. I reach up to grab his cup and freeze when I see that I've pulled out Master Splinter's old cup, tears form before I can stop them...I run my fingers along the rim fighting sobs. I shake my head and reach around for Leo's cup...strangely I can't find it...I shrug it off and grab a spare, his must not have gotten washed yet...kinda ruins the whole apologising thing but oh well. I pour the tea and put both the cup and the plate on a trya and head for Leo's room, it's werid that he still isn't up...

I hear Raph and Don in the kitchen, smell Don starting coffee as I push Leo's door open and peek in.

"Leo? Um...Can I come in?" I call softly," Please? I-I wanted...I brought you breakfast?" No response, I open the door all the way and drop the tray, Leo's things are gone! I'm struggling to process what I'm seeing when Don starts screaming from the kitchen.

Before I know it I'm beside them staring at the note I'm now holding, the piece of paper I put on the table. Three words adorn it:

I'm sorry.
-Leo.

What is that supposed to mean? He left for a coupleof days right? He's upset....please oh God don't let this be what I think it is...I've seen enough CSI aso has Don....I look at Raph frantic and then look at Don, eyes pleading. Don scrambles away and grabs his tracker...please let Leo have his Shell-Cell...please...

I don't know how long it takes us to find him,but we do. I've never seen him cry before, he sobbing, gripping that rail like its his life line...please no. I hear Raph call to him, he looks at us.

"Leo!" I sob. Before any of us can move he turns and throws himself over the rail.

I hear myself scream and find myself scrambling forward. I watch in horror as he slams into a pipe and goes limp....nonononononononono....I'm scared...Master Splinter died in his sleep a couple weeks ago...after a bad fight Leo...oh god...Leo just left us a note and I'm staring at the pipes and water below me, clutching Leo's note and I realize I'm screaming...Raph is beside me gripping the rail and...he's sobbing...Raph is sobbing...Don is just standing there...Leo just jumped...my big brother just committed suicide...My brain won't work. I sag to the ground sobbing. I shouldn't have gone to bed last night...I should've gone straight to Leo...We look for hours but don't find his body I find myself in his room and curl onto the bed, sobbing.

"I'm sorry Leo...I'm so sorry..." I sob out," I didn't mean any of it...I didn't mean it..."

Leo's gone...like my father...

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