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Chapter 6:Grief
Mike's POV
Its been three weeks since Leo jumped. I miss him so much...I never stop thinking, wondering if I had gone to him that night if he would've...if he'd still be alive...we still haven't found his body...Raph goes and looks everyday...stays out until after three in the morning...comes home so drunk he passes out on the floor. Gets up the next day and look for Leo again...repeats the process. Don's afraid he'll get alcohol poisoning...Don goes with Raph in the morning...helps him look...comes home around three and sits with me...I haven't left Leo's room since that morning...can't bring myself to.
"Mikey," I hear Don whisper. I look up, he's holding a box of pizza.
"April says we have to eat...Raph got this and told me to head home...Mikey please say something," he whispers. I haven't spoken since that morning...don't trust myself to. I'm sitting on Leo's bed wrapped in the quilt Master Splinter made me last Christmas. I miss Leo so much...I feel so horrible for what I said to him last...I told him I hated him...I never ment it...I loved him...he's my brother...
Don sits by me and pulls me close, I realize I'm crying..that he is too.
"I miss him too Mikey," he whispers, I feel a tear hit my cheek and I know it's Don's. April comes by later, Don has managed to coax me into eating a slice of pizza but I'm really not hungry...
Don is downstairs, I can hear him and April talking.
"Has he eaten today Don?" I hear April ask.
"I managed to get him to eat a piece of pizza, but...He won't talk April he won't say anything," I hear Don sob. Their voices are muffled after that so I can't hear them. I don't know how much time goes by for sure, but I hear Raph come in, drunk and sobbing. Apologising to Don for not finding Leo again...I feel tears roll down my cheeks, both for Raph and for the fact that Leo still doesn't have a proper resting place. I hear Raph stumble up the stairs and he pauses at Leo's room. I look up and see him leaning against the door frame. He's crying, his eyes are bloodshot, he's lost weight...a lot of weight...he doesn't eat much either. I just look at him. He closes his eyes and looks away.
"Didja eat somthn mky?" he slurrs. I nod. He sighs and sobs. To my surprise he staggers over to me and clutches me into a hug.
"Do'n leav me mky,' I hear him sob,"pls." I feel tears roll down my cheeks and nod, leaning into Raph. He falls asleep a few minutes later and curls beside me, on the floor, he won't sleep in Leo's bed like I do. He won't even sleep in his ownbed... Don comes in later and covers Raph up. He sits next to me and hugs me. I let him and lean into it a little.
"Go to sleep Mike," he says softly. I nod and lay down. Don sits by me untill I start to drift off, i feel him get up and leave. He can't stay in Leo's room very long, he just breaks down when he's in here. I'm started to find him back a few minutes later. He curls up next to me and cries himself to sleep. I curl closer to him and fall asleep soon after.
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