Hey,

I feel like I'm saying this every time, but sorry it took so long! With this program at my school all my time is booked, and my co-writer is in the same program so she's just as busy. Hope you like this chapter!

By the way, who loved the Twilight movie??? I did! Everybody was ragging on it, but I think they did a very good job on it. I mean, I wasn't expecting all the magic to be in one hour and half movie, were you!? It's impossible! It would've taken at least three days to fit all the magic in! Who caught stephenie meyer's cameo? :D

-TG


Chapter 11- (Jasper POV) None of this is Necessary

I sobered as soon as I saw the look on her face. I didn't care about the girls, I could dispose of them later... all that mattered now was Alice. She was running away from me now, and I was so confused. I explained to her already that I couldn't control it, and I'd seen the same animal instinct take over her as she sensed them-- what could have changed?

She ran for a long time. I could have caught up with her easily, but I gave her space. Finally I saw my meadow- our meadow. Her body was shaking with quiet sobs and her knees hit the ground. I tried to find any little spec of happiness around, but there wasn't any. It was all despair and concern. I finally stepped forward.

"Alice? Alice... what happened? What went wrong?" Anger and disgust appeared around her. "What did I do?"

"What did you do? You murdered innocent lives! My sister... oh Bella..." At her words, my dead stomach dropped. I couldn't have killed the person she loved most in the world, could I? It couldn't be...

"I... killed... your sister?"

"No!" Relief briefly washed over me, "But it might as well have been! Do you not even listen to me? You murdered someone's child- someone's girlfriend!" She got up from her knees and walked to me in a half a second. "I stopped myself from killing them! Why couldn't you?! How could you do that, Jasper? How could you..." Her eyes were trembling with invisible tears as she repeated the same line over again. I wrapped my arms around her, and she beat her little fist against my chest as she repeated the same words. And every word- every beat of her fist -felt like a stabbing knife into my heart.

"You are so strong, my Alice... I can't even comprehend how you stopped yourself. You amaze me even more every day." Her eyes met mine and the sparkle in them had returned a little bit, but it didn't hide the growing need that her eyes betrayed. "But I'm not that strong. What you did was amazing, but this is who I am- who we are. I – we - don't have a choice in the matter." The sparkle was gone as she tore herself away from my arms.

"No! You always have a choice! We don't have to be monsters! We must have a choice..." She turned her back to me.

"Not this time..." I whispered. I truly did wish there was another way, but I knew there wasn't.

"I won't... I can't kill innocent people." She turned around with that look of despair etched on her face, and realization hit me.

Now I was angry. "So, what, are you going to starve yourself now? You're going to kill yourself!" I wasn't angry at her, but I couldn't help but hate the idea of anything hurting her.

She crossed her arms like a defiant teenager. "You know that's not true. You told me yourself; there's only one way to kill a vampire."

I backed away from her and ran one hand through my untamed hair. "I think you may have invented another way... there couldn't have been a time in history where a vampire could have resisted like your planning to do. I mean, doing this probably make you only more susceptible to their scent... you'd have to be completely isolated from even the thought of humans!"

"If that's what it takes. It's me or hundreds of innocent people."

I was in front of her in less than a second. I took her hands in mine and looked into her eyes. "Frankly, I love you more than a billion innocent people." Her expression softened and a small smile lit her lips.

"Then you won't have a problem helping me through this. I'm not asking you to do this with me—I know it's hard to change. I'm just asking that you be supportive, because I am doing this." I closed my eyes against her heart-breaking expression.

I wrapped my arms around her shoulders and put my face in her hair. "Maria's not going to be happy with this..." That was an understatement. Maria would rip me to shreds at this news. Interestingly enough, she laughed.

She wrapped her little arms around my waist and said, "When will you realize that I don't care what Maria thinks, says, or does. I'm only here for you." If only it were that easy... I thought. I wasn't about to break it to her that she was here because if she tried to leave, there's no doubt she'd be killed. Even I couldn't protect her against Maria, Netty, Lucy, and their whole army. Maria's trio wasn't about to let a newborn go rampaging around their territory- not without a fight involved. I would've left decades ago had I a way to go or place to go to.

"Where will I stay?" She asked quietly, muffling her voice into my chest.

"What do you mean?" I asked, a note of worry betraying itself in my voice.

"Well I can't stay at camp. If anything should happen I won't be able to fight. Like you said, I need to be isolated.... I could probably stay here. It's far enough away from camp that they probably won't detect me, but close enough so you could see me every day. You could go back to camp and leave me here. Tell them—tell them that we encountered another vampire. You killed him, but you couldn't protect me in-"

"No!" I choked on the word. "I won't even pretend that could happen."

"It's necessary." The look on her face was determined and unchangeable.

"None of this is necessary."

Her crimson eyes glared defiantly into mine, "I'm making it necessary."