I felt that pesky pit of nerves fill up my chest and tear at my throat as I watched how excited she became; I know that she can't find out why I chose to do this yet I feel almost guilty to see her excitement.

I hope though that she'll listen to me and that I can prevent them from following through with whatever they were beginning to feel for each other as I know that dating stepsiblings would not go well and is definitely wrong.

She squealed and cuddled closer to me, looking every bit like a small child on Christmas that had suddenly bounced back from her late night waiting for Santa before falling fast asleep and now seeing presents under the tree.

I moved away from her as best as I could on this bed and watched the sparkle in her eyes grow dazed as she lost herself in some probably disgustingly gushy fantasy about her and him.

I finally managed to shift further away from her and breathe easier when she isn't clustered against my side like a clingy and very much unwelcome pillow.

"I love you, Lovi." She sang as she pressed closer against me again, "I'm sure that we will all be the best of siblings except may be Gilbert. He doesn't seem all that social." She pouted, and I hated that look on her face.

"It will be okay. May be he's just a little slow at realizing how absolutely amazing his newest siblings are." I told her, tapping her shoulder and bringing her away from those kind of thoughts.

"Yeah, he'll realize. Do you think that Luddy will like to write letters to Kiku with me?" She cooed, pushing a pit further into my stomach though how do you respond to something as earnestly loving like that when you don't really know your new stepbrother all that well?

"Yeah, sure. He'll probably like Kiku." I shrugged, watching the conflicted look that appeared in her eyes before vanishing.

"He won't like Kiku more than us, will he?" She looked almost sad. Fuck, did she already like him that much more than she should?

"He won't. Ludwig seems to really enjoy being around you." 'And doesn't seem to be gay unlike his father.' I added silently, watching the look in her eyes as it seemed confused before switching over into a much happier expression.

"Okay, if you say so." She smiled before finally settling down for the night.

I leaned towards her and gave her a goodnight kiss on her nose.
"Goodnight, Lovi." She smiled widely before turning to cuddle with one of her stuffed animals that she'd brought in.

"Goodnight, Feli." It wasn't nearly as easy as it should be to fall asleep and yet my dreams tugged at my conscience as all I could see were Feli and Ludwig as his name evidently was and I in ridiculously cheesy situations like Feli leaning across me to feed Ludwig off of her fork.

It was enough to leave me feeling nauseated in the morning; I don't like imagining almost domestic scenes pertaining to my sister and new stepbrother, ugh.