Hey everyone! I wanted to upload this asap, I know how anxious you all are. Don't worry, I haven't killed our beloved blonde, how could I? Vauseman is endgame, and I have some things waiting for them ;)

Hope you guys enjoy this! It wasn't too easy to write about what Piper feels about the cutting (all personal experience). Please go easy on me? Pretty please?


She gently pushes the door open, scanning the room for her student. But once she sees the blonde, sitting down with her legs and arms stretched in the shower, the first thing she sees is red.


"Pipes?" Alex calls out as she approaches the blonde. She doesn't get any form of response. Piper is sitting on the shower floor, and has just fallen unconscious because of all the blood she has lost in the short period of time before Alex finds her there. The single razor blade still in her hand, two large cuts on either wrist. The blood is dripping down Piper's sweats and down to the shower floor.

"No, Pipes, no, …" Alex pleads as she crouches down in front of her student. Alex is panicking a little, not really knowing where to look first. The blonde has tears rolling down her face, her head bowed with her chin resting on her chest, the blood dripping down her hands and onto her clothes.

Alex's primal instincts to take care of her student kick in, and she jumps up and quickly makes her way to the cabinet at the sink. She pulls out the first aid box, grabs everything she needs before nearly sprinting back to the younger woman who is still sitting unconsciously in the shower. "Take care of the cuts first, try to get her back later," Alex thinks as she carefully tends to the deep cuts on the blonde's wrists.

After doing whatever she can to stop the bleeding, Alex quickly wraps bandages around the blonde's wrists tightly, hoping that it will stop the blood flowing. "SHIT!" Alex curses as she sees the blood soaking the bandages around her student's wrist. "I need to get her out of here," Alex thinks as she figures out a way to get the blonde out of the shower. She settles on picking the unconscious younger woman up, bridal style, and carrying her to the living room.

Alex quickly grabs her shoes, slips them as fast as she can, before making her way back to the now whimpering blonde. She gently picks her up again and carries her out of the apartment, putting her down quickly to pull the door closed behind her. The blonde can't stand on her own legs, and she nearly collapses as soon as her feet hit the ground. The brunette quickly wraps her arm around Piper's waist and pulls her close, effectively keeping her upright.

As soon as the door closes behind Alex, she picks up her student again and carries her to the elevator. She shifts the blonde a little so she can push the button to call for the elevator. It arrives quickly, and Alex is relieved to see that it is empty. She keeps the blonde in her arms, not daring to put her down. "She might collapse again," Alex thinks as she hears the blonde whimper again. Alex decides to try and get her back to consciousness.

"Pipes?" Alex says.

No response.

"Pipes? Please, honey, wake up," Alex tries again.

A whimper.

Alex opens her mouth again to speak, still looking at her student's face when the baby blues flutter open and Alex quickly closes her mouth again. Alex smiles, happy that her student seems to be somewhat conscious. Piper doesn't have the energy to smile back, and closes her eyes again.

"No Piper, come on, stay awake for me," Alex says, hoping that the blonde will open her eyes again. She doesn't get a response, and the blonde doesn't open her eyes again. Alex sighs, desperate to keep the blonde with her but not knowing what to do.

The elevator doors open and Alex quickly steps out of it before making her way to the garage and Piper's car. "I'm so glad I kept the keys to her car in my pocket," Alex thinks as she puts down the blonde who is still leaning against her, and quickly unlocks the car. She quickly opens the passenger door and carefully places the blonde in the seat and buckling her in before making her way to the driver's side, getting in the car and starting it as soon as she took her seat.


"I need help, her wrists won't stop bleeding," Alex nearly yells as she carries her student into the ER. Nurses immediately sprint towards student and teacher, taking the blonde from the brunette's arms and placing her on a carrier. Alex wordlessly lets them take her away, slumping down in the seats of the waiting room.

She takes out her phone from her jacket pocket, and pulls up the unknown number that called her earlier on. She contemplates whether or not to call Piper's mother, not really completely sure what her reaction will be. She settles on calling Carol Chapman, hoping that the older woman will come around when she hears about the attempted suicide of her only daughter.

After the fifth ring, Alex wants to hang up or hopes to hear Mrs. Chapman's voicemail when suddenly someone picks up: "Carol Chapman," Alex hears.

"Mrs. Chapman, it's Alex Vause," Alex says, hoping Carol won't be giving her too much trouble.

"Oh Miss Vause, have you finally come to your senses? Will my daughter be coming home?" Carol sternly says, unaware of the situation her daughter is in.

"No, she will not. Look Mrs. Chapman, something happened earlier, your daughter, she … cut herself quite deeply and fell unconscious. I found her on time, but I'm at the hospital right now," Alex explains.

"Oh God, I'll be there as soon as I can," Carol says, finally seeming to care about her daughter.

"I'm in the waiting room, if I get any updates while you are on your way, I'll tell you when you arrive," Alex says.

"Thank you Miss Vause," Carol says before ending the call. Alex sighs as she slowly puts her phone back into her jacket. She closes her eyes and rubs her temples, worry settling in the pit of her stomach. Her mind wanders to her student, hoping that she will be alright. Alex really doesn't want to lose such an amazing girl, she doesn't want to admit it but she needs her student.


Alex's head snaps up as she hears someone busting through the sliding doors of the ER. She immediately recognizes Carol Chapman, she just looks like her daughter, only a slightly older version of her student. She calls out to her, making her presence known to the older woman.

"Mrs. Chapman, over here!"

Carol approaches the brunette quickly, stopping in front of her daughter's teacher. Neither woman speaks as they both take their seats. They both care about the same person: Piper Elizabeth Chapman. Words are unnecessary, but Alex decides to inform the girl's mother about the condition she was in when the nurses took her with them.

A few minutes later, a doctor calls out to whoever brought the blonde here. "Piper Chapman," both women hear that name and simultaneously stand up from their seats. They wordlessly make their way to the doctor standing at the double doors.

"I'm Piper's mother, Carol Chapman, and this is Alex Vause, she brought Piper here," Carol explains once they approach the doctor.

"Right, well I'm glad to tell you that Piper is completely safe. We took care of the cuts, they were quite deep, but nothing we couldn't fix. She did lose a lot of blood, and we're keeping her in an induced coma until we can find some donated blood," the doctor explains and both women release a breath of relief. They both offer to donate some blood for the young girl to have.

"We checked both your records and Mrs. Chapman, I'm sorry but you can't donate, your blood type isn't appropriate for Piper to receive, but you Ms. Vause, you can," the doctor explains, and Alex smiles at him, and surprisingly, so does Carol.

"If you want to follow me, I'll lead you to Piper's room Mrs. Chapman, and I'll quickly take you to a room to take your blood Ms. Vause," the doctor says before pushing open the double doors and making his way down the hallway, the two women in tow.

Piper's eyes flutter open, and before she can say anything, she feels two arms wrapping her up and someone pulling her against their body. She immediately recognizes her mother's scent, and starts crying, worried that her mother will kill her.

"Shhh, Piper, it's okay, I'm here," Carol coos. Piper only keeps on crying, not offering any type of response. Carol sighs, happy that her daughter is okay. Mother and daughter sit together in silence, both lost in thought. Piper is worried that her mom will ground her, Carol is just happy her daughter is still alive, finally realizing the extent of the damage that boy has done.

"I'm so sorry Piper. I shouldn't have said those things, I just didn't realize how you felt about all of this," Carol says as she lowers her head to look at her daughter. Piper once again doesn't offer a verbal response, she only sniffles and lets the tears fall.

Both their heads snap up as Alex quietly opens the door and makes her way into Piper's room. Carol smiles, glad her daughter had someone to take care of her like Alex did. She's not sure she would've found her daughter soon enough, and she'd never forgive herself if she found her daughter dead.

"Alex," Piper breathes out as soon as the brunette is in earshot. Carol releases her grasp on the younger blonde, allowing the brunette to take her student into a hug. Alex does so, wordlessly, closing her eyes as the familiar scent prickles her nose. Alex sighs deeply as soon as she feels the blonde wrapped up in her arms, both women feeling a lot safer than they dare to admit.

A minute later, Alex wordlessly but smiling pulls back from the embrace. Piper faintly smiles back, before looking at the bag of blood attached to her IV and then to her mom and Alex's arms. Her smile widens as she sees the bandage wrapped around the brunette's arm, indicating that it's her teacher who donated blood for the blonde.

"Thank you," Piper says as Alex takes her seat next to Carol. Both women smile at the young girl, reassuring her that it's okay. The three women start talking about light topics, not wanting to address the reason for the deep cuts on the blonde's wrist just yet.

A little while later, the three women are slightly startled by a knock on the door. An older man wearing a lab coat wordlessly makes his way over to them.

"Piper Chapman?" he asks.

"Yes, that's me?" Piper replies, wondering who this person is.

"Ms. Chapman, my name is Robert Flynn, I work here at the hospital to check on the persons who attempted suicide, a shrink if you will," Doctor Flynn says.

"Oh, right …" Piper trails off, unsure of what to say.

"Ladies, if you don't mind, I'd like to talk to Piper on her own," the doctor says as he looks at the two older women.

Alex and Carol wordlessly get up and leave the room, hoping that the shrink will be able to find out the reason behind the blonde's attempt at suicide. They continue to stand outside the blonde's hospital room, waiting for the blonde to finish her talk with the doctor.


A few minutes later, doctor Flynn opens the door to Piper's hospital room and steps out, closing the door behind him again. Alex and Carol both silently approach the doctor, questioning looks in both their eyes.

"Mrs. Chapman, Miss Vause, I'm glad to tell you that it wasn't Piper's intention to commit suicide. She only meant to self-harm, but she cut a lot deeper than she did before," doctor Flynn tells the two women. Both of them let out a breath of relief, faintly smiling at each other as they glance at the other woman.

"We will keep her here overnight and she can be discharged tomorrow," he continues and both women thank him before slowly entering the blonde's room again.

The blonde has her red and puffy eyes closed, tear stains still adorning her cheeks, trying to relax as she lies on her bed. She hears the door open and her mom and history teacher make their way over, but she doesn't dare to open her eyes. She fears that once she opens her baby blues, she'll get the worried looks of both women, and start crying all over again.

"I'll leave you two to it for a while, I think she might need you right now," Carol whispers before slowly turning on her heel and stepping outside again. Alex silently pulls her chair closer to the blonde's bed, takes a seat and rests her arms close to her student.

"Pipes?" Alex softly asks.

Piper doesn't respond at first, worried that the brunette will question her about the reason she cut herself. She keeps her eyes closed, but the tears still make their way down her cheeks, and that doesn't go unnoticed by Alex. She stands up from her chair and sits beside Piper on the bed before gently cupping her face and wiping away the tears that roll down the blonde's cheeks.

Piper whimpers when she feels the soft caress of the brunette's thumbs on her cheeks, and lets the tears roll down her face. She's conflicted; she desperately wants her teacher to keep doing this, and at the same time, she doesn't want the brunette to care about her. "I don't deserve her, or anyone for that matter," is all Piper thinks until she hears her teacher's soothing voice once again:

"Pipes? Please sweetie, open your eyes. I'm not mad at you, I just want you to look at me," Alex softly says, hoping to get a reaction from the blonde. Piper does, her baby blues flutter open, and they wash into greens filled with concern, and more importantly, love. Piper is shocked to see eyes that are so full of emotion.

Tears make their way down Piper's cheeks, and it's something like a flood. She croaks out an apology, mumbled into her pillow as she turns away from the piercing but loving green eyes of the brunette because she can't stand to look into them.

"Pipes, hey, shhht, it's okay. Whatever it is, if you want to tell me or not, it's okay," Alex coos.

"I'm so sorry Al," Piper croaks out another apology.

"Shhh, there's nothing to be sorry about sweetheart, I'm just glad you're alright. You scared me Pipes, I was afraid I lost you," Alex says. Piper only sobs in response, feeling guilty about what her teacher must have felt when she found her.

"Hey, Pipes, hon look at me. I'm not blaming you, and neither is your mom okay? We're not mad at you sweetie, we just care about you," Alex coos, trying to console the blonde. Piper doesn't offer a response, she just cries silently, dropping her head and tearing her eyes away from the loving gaze of the entrancing green eyes of her history teacher.

Alex does the only thing she knows that might help her student to feel better: she pulls her up in a bone-crushing hug, but still being careful for the IV that sticks out the blonde's arm. The tears stain Alex's shirt, but neither woman cares as they continue to hug the other.

As Alex pulls away from the hug, she gently cups the blonde's face, and lets her lips brush on her student's forehead. She then presses her lips on her forehead once again, this time a little more firm before gently placing a kiss on the blonde's red nose. Piper doesn't know what to say or do, she just undergoes the whole thing, her eyes closed but the tears have stopped following.

"Pipes, sweetie, please open your eyes," Alex says, she wants to look into the baby blues of her student. Piper does so, wordlessly. She doesn't trust her voice, sure it will crack under the soothing actions and caresses of the brunette. The only thing she does is smile, unbelievably grateful for the presence of her history teacher at this exact moment.

There's a light knock on the door, but Alex doesn't pull back to sit on one of the chairs next to the bed, she just stays beside Piper. She did pull back from the hugging position the two women found themselves in before, instead choosing to firmly take hold of the blonde's hand and intertwining their fingers.

"Hi", Carol says as she makes their way over to her daughter.

"Hey mom," Piper croaks out.

"I brought coffee for you Alex, I hope that's okay," Carol says quietly, hoping to make amends with the teacher that saved her daughter.

"Thank you Mrs. Chapman," Alex says as she takes the cup of coffee from the older woman.

"Please call me Carol, Alex. I believe I owe you both an apology," Carol says as she looks between the blonde and the brunette. Neither of them offers any response.

"Alex, I am sorry, I really am. I shouldn't have said all of those things earlier. I don't understand why you care so much about my daughter, but I am glad that you do. You seem genuine, and I am glad that you helped her. I'm honestly very glad that you support Piper," Carol tells Alex. Alex only nods in response.

Carol then looks at her daughter, but the blonde is not willing to meet her eye. Carol sighs, hoping that her daughter will listen to her.

"Piper, please look at me." She does. "Piper, I am so so sorry. I never should've told you off about that boy. I just didn't realize the extent of the damage that he has done, but now I've seen it. I know I'm not the perfect mother, and I'll probably fall into some of my old ways soon enough, but not for a second think that I do not care about you. I do, I'm just bad at showing it, it's the way I was raised. I completely understand if you don't want to come home with me tomorrow and rather stay at Alex's place for a while, I won't give you any trouble," Carol says.

"Please, take all the time you need to recover, and if you can't do that at our home, I think you can do so at Alex's apartment, right Alex?" Carol asks, and Alex nods reassuringly. "Great, thank you Alex. I'll explain the whole thing to your dad and brothers, and I'll see if they can come visit you tomorrow before you are discharged," Carol offers.

Piper nods, and thanks her mother for that apology.

"I think I'd like to stay with Alex for a while, mom. We'll keep you updated, and I'll let you know when I'm ready to come back. I also would like to go see a therapist, if that's okay with you. I have some personal issues that I want to talk about with someone before trusting myself to talk to both of you about it," Piper looks at the two women in her hospital room.

Both of them nod.

"Of course, Piper. Anything that will help you," Carol offers.

"Sure Pipes," Alex lets the nickname slip, and Carol has heard it, but she lets it pass. Piper smiles at hearing the responses of the two older women, before closing her eyes, surprisingly tired. She falls asleep quite quickly, exhausted because of all the emotions, and not to mention the blood loss she suffered earlier in the evening.

Alex and Carol smile at each other before looking at the blonde with their smiles still on their faces. They both silently kiss the blonde on her forehead, right on her furrowed brow.

"I really have to go now, I have a husband and two boys waiting to hear something," Carol offers as an apology.

"That's okay, I'll stay here until visiting hours are over," Alex says with a smile.

"Thank you so much Alex, I'm glad Piper has someone like you," Carol says as she offers a hand to shake.

Alex shakes it before saying: "Anyone who knows Piper is the luckiest person alive, Mrs. Chapman. I'm just glad I can somehow take care of her, this is traumatizing for her and I want her to heal."

Carol smiles in response before turning on her heel and silently making her way out of the hospital room, leaving student and teacher behind.


Hope you enjoyed! Some people didn't want to see too much of Carol Chapman, but I couldn't just have her still think badly of our girls. I don't know what it is like to nearly lose your daughter to suicide, but I can imagine it opens your eyes quite a bit. She'll probably fall back into her WASPy ways soon, but she does care about her daughter.

Until next time! I'll try to upload as soon as I can :) xx Ellen