Hi everyone, please note that I have now changed this rating from a K+ to a T. I had an idea in RS (thanks Caz, you inspired me!!) and I want to make James and Bella have something holding them together but I don't no if it would be suitable for a K+, so just to be sure. PM me if you want to no more.
BPOV
'It's complicated' I started, hoping he would leave it after that
'I'm sure I could keep up' I didn't no if he was trying to understand or is already suspicious of something, that's the problem with vampires, we have no expression.
'Err ok then' This would be hard 'I was changed about 13 years by Carlisle, I had been attacked and he found me lying in the woods. He already had the rest of his family and I was the newest addition, everyone expected me to be fine with it, just like they where, but I was struggling. The desire for blood was something I couldn't get used to. About 3 days after the pain of my change stopped I ran into another vampire and a friend of his, James and Victoria. They said I could come with them instead of living like the Cullen's, and I excepted without thought, saying goodbye was easy for me, but I could see how much I was hurting them. Anyway, life went on and I started a relationship with James, Victoria became very jealous but I wasn't to worried about her. We always hunted humans, depending on who smelt the best, but we had morals and never drank children's blood. About 6 months after we met, we where just passing through some town, I don't no where, when we smelt it. It smelt absolutely heavenly. We went to look and saw a car that had crashed, and was off the road now. We went up and in the car was...was a little boy and his mum. The mum was unconscious, and bleeding, but the boy was awake, he was about 5 and was staring right into my eyes. He was in so much pain, physically and mentally, but I couldn't resist and James was pressuring me so' I took a deep breath, here goes nothing 'So I grabbed the woman and pulled her over the boys lap, to me. I dragged her to the wood and then killed her, drained every ounce of blood. She tasted good, but nothing was worth that scarring memory of that little boy's face'
'You said you can't remember what town you where in' Edward pushed in
'That's right, we went to so many different places that, I lost track of where I had visited'
'Do you know who that little boy was' A pained expression was across his face, I knew that he already knew, but just wanted me to say it out loud
'Yes, it was you and I am so sorry, that is why I tried to stay away at first but..' I was cut off
'Keep going'
'What?'
'I want to know it all'
'Okay then' What was he doing?? 'After that James carried on like normal, but it hit me for some reason and I wasn't the same. I never had it in me to hunt humans again and lived on animals instead. James didn't like this, but instead of telling me, he had an affair with Victoria. I caught them in the woods together, I felt like my heart had been ripped out my chest. So I ran, I ran faster than I ever had in my life. I ended up in the Antarctic and that is when I smelt another vampire. I followed the scent to a man, who called himself Mr. Jones and he was like the Cullen's. He took me under his wing and helped me become like them. A few months later I decided to return to the Cullen's and Mr Jones helped me find them, and then travelled around with us. The Cullen's where so good to me and I have been with them ever since'
'You have had it hard haven't you?' he looked at me, finally
'A little, but please you have to stay here with us we can help you get through this'
EPOV
I started to shake my head 'You killed my mum and for some you known reason, YOUR ex-boyfriend came after me! Face it you are a walking danger magnet and I don't even want to look at you any more' I spat
'Please Edward if you leave you will go down the exact same path as I did and..'
'And what?'
'And you will break my heart' The pain was in her eyes, but I couldn't stay, I needed space and by now I was crying, a tearless cry.
'You'll live, I need to get away from here, from this place, from the memory's, from you'
And with that I left, how could I have stayed?
BPOV
How could he leave me? He wanted to know the truth and I told him the truth. Yes I chose to say every thing, well not everything, but if I lied then he would have hated me even more when he found out, if that was possible.
I collapsed in a ball on the floor.
What he didn't no was there was something that kept me scared of James, something that made me never be able to run, something that made the two of us forever be held together. He had a hold on me, one that could never be broken.
