Shifting slightly in her bed the following morning just after waking up, Eliza felt like she was going to be sick, she sat up suddenly about to bolt to the bathroom when she spotted the bin next to the bed, seconds before hurling into it.
When Eliza was finished she rinsed her mouth with the water on her bedside table. Eliza carefully got out of bed to clean up the bin, slowly heading to the bathroom. On the way back to bed she decided to message Bailey, telling her she was sick and couldn't come in today. When she picked up her phone from the desk, she noticed a note from Arizona. Eliza read the note, feeling bad for having her girlfriend put her to bed twice in two days. She couldn't remember getting home last night. Eliza wracked her brain trying to remember what happened. She remembered everything up to walking into the bar down the street, including walking out of Arizona's house with no explanation, after that, nothing.
Reading and rereading Arizona's note over and over, Eliza knew she was right. Her head was killing her. She was a mess right now, but she needed her girlfriend. Which meant she had to tell her what was bothering her. She just had to find the words.
Eliza grabbed her phone and sent Arizona a message before she had chance to change her mind.
EM: Can you come over later? We need to talk.
Eliza wanted to say more but she didn't want to tell Arizona everything through text, and she needed to see her.
AR: If that's what you want?
Eliza thought for a second before responding.
EM: We need to talk. What time can you be here?
AR: I'm actually off today so you tell me what time.
EM: Well I'm at my hotel all day, come over when you're ready.
AR: An hour ok?
EM: Yeah, see you then.
AR: Ok.
Arizona's messages were short, to the point, she was definitely angry with Eliza. Eliza was suddenly nervous about seeing her girlfriend. The nerves made Eliza want to be sick again.
She went into the bathroom, leaning over the sink for a few minutes but nothing happened. Once Eliza had calmed down she decided to take a shower. She didn't want Arizona to see her feeling sorry for herself, when she got there.
After taking a long shower, Eliza felt a little better, physically at least. She threw on some clothes and led back down on the bed. Trying to work out what she was going to say to Arizona when she got there. Eliza was lost in thought when a quiet knock at the door startled her.
Eliza pulled herself from her thoughts and from her bed, crossing the room to open the door. Opening the door Eliza saw her girlfriend stood there, looking beautiful, as always.
"Come in." Eliza said whilst moving aside to let Arizona into her room. "You look nice." She said casually whilst closing the door.
"And you look like hell." The blonde retorted.
"Mmmm I know. Nothing compared to how I feel though." Eliza said whilst both women stood awkwardly, neither really sure of how to start the conversation that needed to happen. "Sit down, I'll be back in a minute." Eliza motioned quickly, heading in the direction of the bathroom. Apparently her shower hadn't helped her feel better at all, the movement from the bed to the door making her need to be sick again.
10 minutes later Eliza reappeared from the bathroom. Making sure she brushed her teeth this time as well. She went to lie back down on the bed, walking straight past Arizona.
"Are you ok?" Arizona asked from her position sat at the desk, her face full of concern.
"I'll be fine. Just don't make me move for a while." Eliza gave Arizona a small smile.
"Ok. You wanted to talk?" Arizona questioned.
"Yeah, I just, it's hard, I don't know how to start except to say I'm sorry, for the way I acted yesterday, for walking away from you when you were just trying to help and for you having to bring my drunk ass home again."
"Eliza, you can talk to me. I care about you. I want to help you with whatever is causing this." The blonde said softly, getting up from the desk and walking towards her girlfriends bed, standing next to where Eliza was lying.
"I know, and I keep pushing you away. I want to talk to you, I do, I just" Eliza stopped, taking a steadying breathe, she reached for Arizona's hand, holding it tightly a minute, before she continued "my mother got sick and died, three months ago, right before I came here." A few tears escaped Eliza's eyes.
"And I'm guessing it was smoking related?" Arizona asked, moving to sit on the edge of Eliza's bed, pulling her into her lap.
Eliza nodded against Arizona's chest, not able to speak due to crying. Arizona held her girlfriend whilst she cried, not really sure what to say. Nothing she could say, would make her feel better but being there for her might so she just held her, tightly. When Eliza finally started to calm down Arizona kissed the top of her head before speaking.
"You know, last night, Richard Webber found you in that bar and messaged me to come get you, he looked after you until I got there."
"Richard?" Eliza was surprised, that was the last person she expected to be with her.
"Mmmmhm." Arizona said, stroking Eliza's hair.
"I can't stand the thought of losing you the same way I lost my mother Arizona." Eliza suddenly said, properly looking at her girlfriend for the first time since she'd arrived at the hotel.
"You won't, I promise, I'm not going to smoke again." Arizona knew she could do this for her girlfriend, it wasn't like she smoked 20 a day or anything and would find it hard to give up, she had the occasional one when stressed or upset. She would just have to find some other way to relax because she didn't want to hurt Eliza the way she was already hurting.
