-Flashback-
The rundown diner wasn't that much, but the pay was decent enough for me to be able to keep up with the rent while I went to the local community college that was only a few blocks away. It had only been a couple of weeks since I had made the last-minute move to Chicago and I was still reeling from the sudden changes from my old lifestyle in Utah. Not only was the city more diverse and even a bit scary, my new home was just as exciting as I had hoped it would be.
It was a slow afternoon, the breakfast rush had ended an hour ago and the place wouldn't pick up until majority of the classes from the University let out. It was a more richer style University and it always confused me why so many well-dressed students with their shiny BMWs would decide to eat at the one restaurant that stuck out like a sore thumb in the wealthy neighborhood.
Not that I minded, their tips were what helped me with rent every month.
I was leaning against the oddly colored pinkish counter, staring furiously at my biology notes as I tried to cram for a test that I had later tonight. I was starting wish that I hadn't decided to take a biology class, as the foreign words in my notes started to make less and less sense the more I stared at them.
I groaned with frustration as I plopped my upper body on top of the counter. My notes were forgotten as they were smashed underneath my body, along with my textbook, as I whined softly to myself.
My face was still in my hands when I heard a soft chuckle come from besides me.
Pushing myself off the counter, in embarrassment, I turned my attention towards the stranger.
I froze as I saw the most beautiful man in my life. His sandy blonde hair looked like fingers had been run through it constantly, something that I wouldn't have mind doing. It looked so soft! A few strands were framing his face. His face... His jaw area had scruff on it, maybe from him forgetting to shave for a few days which only added to his charm. He was..
"Amazing." I sighed out softly, as I unknowingly stared deeply into his gorgeous sky blue eyes. I had never seen eyes that color before.
"Amazing, huh?" I stared at his plump lips as he chuckled, then licked his lips.
Wow.
"Wait, what?" I shook my head in shock and embarrassment as I realized what I had just said. I could feel my cheeks burn red. What had I just said? OMG, now he thinks I'm a freak!
I was absorbed in my thoughts again when he spoke up again.
"Whatcha reading?" His eyebrow was raised in curiosity as his long fingers reached over to pull the large textbook closer to him.
"Oh man, biology?" His face scrunched up when he saw the title. He smiled empathetically, "How's that going for you?"
I was transfixed by his smile, but was able to keep myself from drooling.
"Uh, good?" I smiled as I saw him smirk at me, some how knowing that I was lying. "Okay, Okay." I giggled as I raised my hands up in surrender. "It's killing me. I mean, I get the basics but when they start throwing in the fancy terms – that's when I get lost. Like, molecules and cells? You would think it would be sorta easy, but it isn't!"
I groaned again, the notebook specifically for my biology class laid forgotten on the counter in front of me. I was already on my way to failing the class, even the professor had told me that if I didn't get at least a C on the test tonight I would have to retake the class.
"Well, I'm not the smartest guy when it comes to Biology, but I might be able to help. If you wanted to, I mean." The blonde haired god rubbed the back of his neck sheepishly, as he offered his help.
I practically screamed with excitement at the thought of spending even more time with him. How could I pass this up?
"Could you?" I gasped out with happiness. I reached over towards him and sandwiched his hands between mine. "You would be a lifesaver! I mean, I'm failing this class and if I don't pass this test that I have tonight then I'm as good as dead!"
Realizing that I was rambling, I shyly pulled my hands away from him. I bounced lightly on my toes as I stared at my hands. Clearing my throat, I tried to make myself seem cool. "I mean, sure. Th- That would be great."
He chuckled again and graced me with another beautiful smile.
"Great! Names Trevor, by the way."
I glanced from his out-stretched hand back towards his smile.
Giving a smile of my own, I shook his hand.
"I'm Lilly."
-End Flashback-
"Lilly?"
Trevor's stiff smile was chillingly different from the smile that I fell in love with when I had first met him. He was still breathtakingly handsome, even more so since that day in the diner. Though over the years that I had been with him, I began to wish for that gentle, kind man more and more.
His dark blue suit looked as though it was made for his body, not one stitch was out of place – not that I expected anything less and neither did Trevor. Perfection is what he stride for and perfection was what he got. He always got what he wanted in the end.
He was sitting in the expensive wheelchair, acting as though I wasn't the one that had caused him to be restricted to the chair. Which only caused me to be even more on edge. Trevor always decided to punish me when the time seemed to convenient for him.
Realizing that I was crushing Olivia's small hand in my own, I forced myself from my own dark thoughts and sat across from Trevor. The farthest seat away from him.
My arms were wrapped around Olivia who sat upon my lap. She was focused on playing with her little doll which she had gotten a few Christmases ago. I could hear her humming a song, not paying attention to the adults around her.
After a few seconds of tense silence, Trevor finally spoke. "How have you been, sweetie?" Trevor leaned towards me, his arms resting on the metal table as he gripped my hand. My body tensed as I watched him trace the scar on the palm of my hand, the scar that I had rubbed countless times over the past few days. My stomach was in knots and I felt like puking with disgust and fear as I felt his large hands cover my own. Those same hands use to be so comforting, but now they only brought back dark and bloody memories that I wished I could forget,
"Why don't you ask your Daddy? After all, you two were the ones that put me in here." I snapped at him and instantly regretted it. Trevor's gentle grip immediately changed. I tried to pull my hand free from his death tight grip on my wrist, but Trevor only dug his fingernails into my wrist causing me to wince with pain.
"Daddy! Leave mommy alone!" Olivia's small hands were tugging on my jumpsuit sleeve, trying to loosen Trevor's grip but only made the pain worse. Trevor's cold stare went from staring into my eyes towards the sweet child that was in my lap. Disgust flashed across his face and he raised his lip with hatred as he looked at his daughter.
"Stay out of it, Olivia." Trevor snapped. Olivia ducked her hand down but didn't stop tugging on my sleeve. Finally Trevor let my hand go.
Ignoring his death stare, I turned my attention towards Olivia who was close to tears. Giving her a kiss on the cheek, I moved her off my lap and placed her on the floor.
"I saw some candy in those vending machines over there, how about getting us a little snack?" I tried to hide the fact that I was terrified and in pain. Olivia looked at the two of us with uncertainty but after her dad gave her a few dollar bills she slowly headed towards the area of the room where the treats were.
I watched her bounce on her toes as she tried to figure out what candy bar to get. My fingers were softly tracing the indents left by Trevor's fingernails. Thankfully he didn't break the skin but I knew that my wrist would be sore for a few days, even bruised.
"Don't talk to her like that." I finally broke the silence. I made sure that Olivia was still by the vending machines before I turned back to face Trevor. His calm smile was gone and the familiar hatred and anger was in its place. His lips were in a thin line as he clenched his jaw, I could see the tense muscles.
"She needs to learn her place and if I'm the one that has to put her in it, then so be it." He snapped.
I flinched. I knew Trevor never cared for Olivia, but that was the first time I had ever heard him speak to her that way. I could feel anger boil my blood, anger that I hadn't felt towards him before.
Trevor sighed and ran his hand through his hair. "Look, babe. I didn't come here to fight." Again Trevor reached towards my hands, this time I didn't fight it. His rubbed the back of my hand before raising it towards his mouth and placing a soft kiss. "I came here because I love you. I know you are hurt and angry with me, but I know you love me too. So why can't we go back to being a family?"
I could feel the coldness fill my body, my heart was beating loud enough that I could hear the blood rushing towards my ears and head. The memories came back in flood. Those same words were said before thousands of times before and they had worked. I was so desperate for love and for him that I couldn't think of another place that I wanted to be. I was delusional for even thinking I loved him. And I knew now that I would never go back to him.
I roughly pulled my hand away from Trevor, I could see the shock in his eyes. "If you think I will ever be with you again, you are insane. I-I don't know how I was able to be with you this long, but I never want to see you again. You are a pathetic man. You are a pig."
Trevor jerked forward and grabbed my face with one hand. His long fingers were wrapped around my jaw and he forced me to look at him. I could feel my heart pounding against my chest with fear and I was struggling to breathe. A look that I had never seen before was ablaze in Trevor's eyes. A darkness that I hadn't seen in him before.
"I would be very careful, Lilly. Very careful." His whole body was shaking as he took a deep breath. After a few deep breaths his hand tightened once more around my jaw but he slowly pulled his hand away. I was still frozen in place, not wanting to set him off again I kept my mouth shut.
"We've been over this before. You have a place and I expect you to stay in it, you talking back isn't it."
"You can't control me in here." I whispered out. I knew Trevor was obsessed with being in control. That was the purpose of our relationship, it had taken me forever to finally realize that Trevor had to be in control. If he had to beat me then so be it.
"I have my ways." Trevor smirked with humor as he turned his attention towards the girl who was skipping towards us, her arms were filled with sodas and candy. She was skipping towards us, laughing at all the goodies that she had. I could feel my hear break as I realized just how evil Trevor was. He wouldn't... right?
Tears burned my eyes as the horrid thought of losing Olivia crossed my mind. "Don't touch her." I hissed with anger. Trevor only raised an eyebrow with amusement as he saw me shake with anger. He leaned towards me and rested his chin in his palm.
"Or what?"
I lost control. With a scream, I leapt across the table and grabbed onto Trevor. It was all a blur, the room was suddenly thrown into chaos as I punched, kicked, scratched, and yelled at the monster below me. I could distantly hear the screams and cries of Olivia but I couldn't stop myself. I had to kill him.
"Don't you touch her! I will kill you!" I was hysterical, my voice was a shriek and I knew I was sobbing. The idea of Olivia getting hurt because of me was unbearable. If I had to tear out Trevor's throat and spend a hundred years behind bars then so be it.
I felt rough hands pull me off the squirming man, Trevor hadn't said a word and only laid on the floor as he watched with shock as I was thrown onto the ground. I could see Olivia out of the corner of my eye, another C.O. was holding her in his arms trying to stop her crying.
"Please, don't hurt my baby!" I sobbed into the cement as the CO who was on top of me forced my arms behind me. His knee was in the middle of my back, restricting my movement. I was still withering beneath him. The chilling sobs and cries that left my body fell on deaf ears, but that didn't matter. I knew what would happen if a hand was placed on Olivia.
I would kill anyone who hurt my baby.
Anyone.
HEY! Here is chapter 6! I was pretty excited to write this chapter, I was happy to be able to shine a little light on how Lilly and her ex actually met. I hope you all enjoy this and leave a comment? I love you all!
