Right guys, before I start this chapter, if you don't think you can handle it, please don't read it. It may not go the direction I'm currently thinking but I have a feeling it will, which may upset some people. Hopefully everyone reading this is old enough.

Definitely a bit dark and twisty this chapter.

Keep reviewing please, I love reading everyone's feedback.

Now that Arizona was stood outside of Eliza's house, she didn't know what to do. She felt scared, worried for her girlfriend. Angry about the way she had just dismissed her the last week. Arizona had assumed she was busy with work but now she knows her girlfriend wasn't even at work.

Arizona was hesitating, she was stood at Eliza's door but she couldn't bring herself to knock. Deep down she knew that tonight wasn't going to be easy and that Eliza needed help. She just didn't want to admit it. After 15 minutes of pacing Eliza's front steps, Arizona finally decided she needed to knock. Even if just to find out what was going on. It might not be good for their relationship but she needed to know where she stood.

There was no answer, Arizona tried knocking again. Still no answer. Every time she knocked and Eliza didn't answer, just worried her more. Eventually Arizona decided to ring Eliza.

This time, with no hesitation, the blonde hit dial. The phone rang and rang, Arizona could hear it inside Eliza's house but she never answered.

Arizona's head was spinning. She was becoming more and more seriously worried about her girlfriend by the second. After a couple more attempts at knocking, with still with no answer, Arizona decided to try the door, in case it was unlocked. She didn't want to intrude but if Eliza wouldn't answer, she would have to.

Typically the door was unlocked and flew open with ease, but there was still no obvious sign of Eliza.

Sticking her head into the living room, Arizona noticed what must have been two dozen empty liquor bottles and the room smelt of cigarettes.

Arizona's brain went into overdrive. She didn't think Eliza smoked, on account of the lecture she had received about it. She knew about the drinking, but she didn't think it was THAT bad. Two dozen bottles in less than a week, since the last time Arizona had stopped by on her way home with Sofia. There was still no sign of her girlfriend, which concerned her the most.

Heading into the kitchen wasn't much better, still not finding Eliza, Arizona went upstairs. She tried Eliza's bedroom first, she wasn't in there either. Arizona knew she couldn't have gone far with her phone being left downstairs, but the longer it took to find her girlfriend, the worse it got.

All the possible scenarios in Arizona's head were driving her crazy! She just needed to know her girlfriend was ok.

The only room left she hadn't checked was the bathroom. As she approached the door Arizona could hear Eliza sobbing quietly. The blonde breathed a sign of relief, which was short lived, then knocked the bathroom door quietly so as not to make her girlfriend jump too much.

"Eliza. Are you ok?" Arizona asked, her voice full of concern.

"Go away Arizona." Was all Eliza gave her back.

"I'm not going anywhere. I'll stay right here until you decide to let me in." The blonde said, trying to calm Eliza down and prove she wasn't going anywhere.

"Go away Arizona, I don't need you." Eliza responded through tears a bit more angrily than the first time.

"Please Eliza" Arizona tried pleading with the brunette to let her into the bathroom. And when that didn't work, she got angry.

"Eliza, open the damn door! I'm worried about you." Arizona was becoming more frantically worried. Even when she was drunk, Eliza wouldn't lock herself away. She was more likely to make a show and embarrass herself, or you. Eliza didn't hide from anything, but right now she was intentionally stopping her girlfriend from helping her, she was shutting down and closing herself off. "Eliza." Arizona shouted this time banging on the door.

"For god sake Arizona, just leave me alone."

"Eliza, seriously, if you don't unlock the door I'm going to break it down." Arizona was so worried she was beginning to get angry.

"It's not even locked." Eliza finally responded, fairly quietly, Arizona barely heard her.

Slowly Arizona reached for the door handle and began to push it down. Her heart was pounding. She didn't know what state Eliza was really in behind this door. The blonde was scared. Carefully pushing the door open, Arizona somehow managed to hide a shocked gasp when she saw her girlfriend.

Eliza was sat on the floor, with her back to the bath, facing the door. A half drunk bottle of whiskey to one side of her and a packet of cigarettes to the other. Lying next to the cigarettes was what looked like 8 or 9 empty packets of various medications. Scanning her girlfriend over, Arizona began to notice Eliza was completely out of it.

"Eliza, what have you done?" Arizona stuttered, the blonde had tears in her eyes. Dropping down next to Eliza, she pulled her into her lap and just held her. She had known her girlfriend wasn't in a good place but she didn't think it was this bad.

"Eliza, please talk to me." Arizona had tears streaming down her face. She didn't want to lose her girlfriend. She pleaded with Eliza to talk to her.

"Arizona?" Eliza questioned as if she had only just realised her girlfriend was actually there, holding her.

"I'm right here baby, talk to me please." Arizona was holding Eliza so tightly whilst she rocked gently, trying to relax her girlfriend.

"I can't do this Arizona. I'm sorry." Eliza mumbled.

"You said that earlier, what can't you do Eliza? Please talk to me. Did you take all those tablets? Eliza please. Tell me, let me help you." Arizona was desperately pleading with her girlfriend to tell her exactly what she had taken.

All Arizona could do was try and get information from Eliza, whilst keeping her awake. She didn't want to call the paramedics, she knew that could potentially be worse for Eliza in the long run, especially since they would take her straight to Grey Sloan.

"I can't survive this, not without you." Eliza finally managed to say between sobs.

"Survive what Eliza?"