Ok so i kinnda screwed up. Read it again, i changed the memory. :)


"Axel, I have a confession to make." Xemnas said in a quiet voice.

They were both lying comfortably in the grass not one foot away from each other, but it somehow seemed like miles away.

Axel turned to look at Xemnas. Never had he seen him look so serious, so his attention was immediately drawn. He remained quiet, waiting for him to continue.

"Since Number XIII joined the Organization," he said avoiding the name "I've seen you change dramatically."

"You-"Axel interrupted sitting up.

"No, wait, please. Let me finish. Then you can say and do whatever you want." Xemnas took a deep breath before continuing, "You've become someone else. I've seen you do what I never thought I would see again; you loved him, well, you love him, and I-" he stopped, and considered how to put into words what couldn't be said, the way Axel had loved Roxas with such complete abandon that no eloquence was needed, his total devotion towards the boy, even when it could cost him his life. Axel sat in silence looking at his Superior, who went on after meditating his words.

"Even if you never voiced your affection, I saw it in you. There was emotion in you. I saw in you a blend of darkness and devotion and a broken heart. How can it be?! How can you have a broken heart? How can I feel your soul as clearly as if it were sitting next to me instead of you? It's only now looking back that I see how you entered my life so completely Axel, you make me feel again. I feel Axel, feel!"

Axel felt like he had slapped him across the face, hard. He remained quiet, not knowing what to do or say. Made him feel…


"Hey buddy, are you ok?" Axel said looking at the new boy.

"I'm alright." the boy said toughly. "Who are you?"

"I'm Axel." He responded. "What's your name?"

"I'm Roxas. Or so according to the lunatic with white hair over there." he said pointing to Xemnas.

They were standing in the entrance of the Castle. All twelve members were there, well thirteen including the new boy. He had arrived to the castle that afternoon. Xemnas had been explain the rules of the new world, but Axel knew he wouldn't understand half of what he was saying anyway, so number II and III helped him distract the Superior.

"Thanks by the way." Roxas said. "He sure talks a lot."

"No problem." Axel smiled. "You'll get used to it. Hey listen, do you want to go out for a while? The sun is about to set, and I know a place that has a killer view."
"Won't the Superior get mad?" said Roxas. He turned to look at Xemnas who seemed very busy chasing Xaldin around the room.

"Nah, he's taken care of. Come on."


Axel closed his eyes. He didn't know how Xemnas could claim to feelings, when he didn't know himself if he had any. He heard something crash loudly inside the castle. He supposed Saïx was causing mayhem again; it was after all a full moon. He felt a little sorry for Demyx and Zexion who were always the ones responsible for chasing him; no one else had the motivation to do it. He sensed movement beside him and realized Xemnas was sitting up. Silly superior, where was he getting at? And if he actually had emotions, genuine emotions like his own, could it be that they had hearts? That they weren't some abominable monsters after all…?


They walked in silence for a long time. They reached twilight town just as Axel had predicted, the sun was starting to set. Axel loved going to Twilight Town, it was rather goofy, but it gave him a sense of peace no other place could, it was very

human in a way. He led Roxas to the Clock Tower. It was the biggest building in the small village, and from the top you could see every little thing in the town.

"Come on!" he said to Roxas running towards the back entrance of the Tower.

Roxas ran behind him laughing. "Are we allowed to do this?" Roxas asked. Axel was picking the lock of the door, which gave in way too quickly.

"Well, I'll put it this way. No one has ever stopped me from doing it, so why not?" said Axel opening the door so Roxas could walk in first.

They climbed the tenths of stairs to the top of the building. Just as Axel opened the door, the bells inside the tower started to chime loudly. Roxas cowered, covering his ears. When it ended he opened his eyes and found Axel with his arms around him, in a protective embrace, with his eyes closed.

"Axel, its ok." he said putting his hand on his superior's.

Axel opened his eyes and looked into Roxas' big blue eyes and smiled. "Yeah… thanks."

They went outside and sat on the edge of the building. Axel knew the fall would kill him if he fell. He looked at Roxas. Somehow he wasn't so scared…

"Roxas?" he said after a few minutes of silence. The sun had almost finished setting.

"Yeah?" Roxas said distractedly.

I think I might be in love with you. "No, nothing." said Axel smiling.


Xemnas looked at Axel. His eyes were closed and tears were spilling down his face. He looked so heartbroken sitting there in silence that Xemnas couldn't resist the temptation to kiss one of his many dripping tears.

When Axel opened his eyes, he saw Xemnas sitting next to him, his lips on his cheek. He was too shocked to move, but Xemnas must have scented something because he moved away. He looked into his eyes, those bright brown eyes that had seen the suffering of hundreds throughout who know how many years. He was very aware suddenly of the intimacy they had sitting there, alone.

"I love you." Xemnas muttered suddenly, as if to himself. "I'm sorry, I wish I could feel something other than love, but you have only yourself to blame."

He leaned in and kissed Axel hotly on the lips. Axel didn't move for a few seconds until he realized what was happening. He pushed Xemnas away.

"What-what?" he choked.

"You can't deny me. Not after I've seen you love so ardently. You can love me Axel, love me, just me. You can't let the rest of your life pass you by, not for a memory. Look at me Axel! Fall in love with me!"

He kissed Axel again, harder this time. He placed his hands on the grass on both sides of Number VIII, detaining him.

"You bastard! No, what are you doing?!" said Axel breaking the kiss. He hated himself for being so skinny and not being able to break free from the Superior's hold.

He saw Xemnas lean in again, and moved his head away as far as he could. He saw his hazel eyes on fire, his lower lip slightly trembling as he moved closer. He placed his lips on Axel's neck biting him softly. The sweetness and the pain engulfed him; he closed himself to the world except for that one little place where Xemnas breathed down his throat. It was unreal; there was nothing else but pleasure.

Xemnas suddenly heard footsteps approaching, and it snapped him back immediately into reality. He moved away from Axel and looked up.

"What is it?" he said to the approaching member.