Sorry it took so long.!!
Xemnas was sitting in his room considering what to do. If what No III said was true, the Organization would soon cease to exist to exist as it did now. And for what? Ansem, well DiZ, was a coward, a cheat. How dare he betray them? They who had once been his pupils, his friends? Treason was unforgivable for Xemnas and for no reason. He had no reason to interfere in their lives after he had so subtlety deprived them from it.
He felt so upset, so futile to the Organization; maybe he was not fit to serve them any longer. He stood up from his desk abruptly, throwing some papers on the floor by accident. He went to the windowsill and looked outside. When he turned back to face the room, he realized it had changed. He was in- but no, how?
Axel walked in the silent castle in the direction of Number I's room. He reached it and knocked on the door softly. When he got no response, he entered. The room was dark, the curtains shut. Axel lit a little flame that he lifted with his right hand. After a brief inspection of the room, he realized Xemnas was not in it.
"Where are you?" he whispered to no one.
He suddenly had an idea. He bolted out of the room not bothering to close the door behind him, and ran towards the stairs which he climbed two at a time. He went up a couple of floors until he reached the thirteenth, the last one. He walked to the end of the main hallway and opened the door not bothering to knock this time; the light shone from the gap underneath, Xemnas was the only one brave enough, or foolish enough, to go to that floor, let alone that room.
When he walked inside, he had to cover his eyes from the light; it shone immensely white and bright. His eyes adjusted after a few seconds and he saw Xemnas standing in a corner. He seemed to be talking to somebody else, but there was nobody else in the room. He extended his arms to receive something in his hands which he held together, as if there was something precious there. He looked at his hands with the most innocent look in his face. His eyes had the sparkle of a child, full of laughter, and the corners of his mouth were turned into a small smile. He was swaying his head left and right as if entranced in a melody only he could hear still continuing to speak to someone invisible. He was so immersed in his own thoughts he didn't notice Axel standing behind him.
Axel smiled unconsciously at this side of Xemnas unknown to anyone else.
"Xemnas," he said softly as if not to startle him.
Xemnas jumped. He moved his hands to his side instantly, still holding whatever he had, and turned around. He seemed rather surprised to see Axel standing in the room with him.
"What were you doing?" Axel asked.
"Nothing, I- I came here to think, and then, I don't know…"
"Are you an idiot? Don't you realize where we are?" said Axel.
"What?" said Xemnas. He sounded a little offended for being called an idiot by his inferior.
"This is the White Room Superior; we're on the thirteenth floor."
Xemnas' eyes grew wide. He frowned and looked at his hands which he was still holding together. He let them go, surprised. "But I-"
"What did you see?"
"I was- in a lab, my master's lab, and Xigbar was there, and Xaldin, Vexen, Lexaeus and Zexion too, but they were human, they were the way I once knew them. And Ansem, he was there. It's funny because in life he was never my conscience." Xemnas smiled. "We were all laughing at something Braig- I mean Xigbar had done. And then I was alone with Ansem, with my master, and he gave me-" Xemnas looked at his hands. "It doesn't matter, it's gone now. It was probably a dream anyway; I can't even remember having it anymore."
"What was it?" Axel pressed.
"My heart," said Xemnas sadly.
Axel took a step towards him. "No Superior, you haven't lost it. Not really, it is inside you, you just… vanished it for a little while."
Xemnas smiled. "Again with the charming simplicity. You know Axel, when I'm with you, I sometimes miss the way I used to be, you know before everything happened."
"What were you like?"
Xemnas looked into Axel's eyes."I was happy." he said simply.
Axel exhaled loudly, without knowing what to do. How could Xemnas say that? It was ridiculous, made him happy… How could he possibly make someone happy when he was so miserable? He looked at Xemnas' understanding eyes, and in a passion, a craze of the moment, stepped forward and placed his lips on Xemnas' mouth.
The kissed only lasted a moment, Xemnas started laughing. Axel pulled away angrily.
"Young one, you have no idea how long I wanted you to do that." Xemnas said patiently. He grabbed Axel's arm and opening a portal, went through it with Axel.
"You brought me to your room? Really, what do you think is going to happ-"
Xemnas shut him up by kissing him on the lips. Axel agreed with him and kissed him back. Xemnas unzipped Axel's coat with his free hand while the other ran free through his hair. Axel smiled. "No way mister, I get dibs to see." he said. Just as he was about to turn on the light he heard a commotion trough the door. It sounded as if Xigbar was arguing with someone loudly. There were bangs and the sound of someone screaming. What was happening? Xigbar reclaimed his Superior composure immediately and turned his face towards the door, scared. He moved Axel carefully towards the bed and laid him there.
"Stay there Axel," he said "Stay. Don't go out, if something happened to you-"
"Idiot."
"I mean it Axel. I'll be back, I promise." he said heartbroken to be leaving.
"Hey, you don't have to hurry, because I'll be waiting here for you."
