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Catherine's POV
I stood outside of my brother's office watching him. The vampire attack happened over two months ago and physically Chase had recovered but emotionally he was a wreck and who could blame him? The girl that he had loved for years had broke his heart to keep her heart from getting broken. He came to work everyday but he just sat at his desk staring across the room at the door. It was like he was waiting for Ali to walk in, something that may never happen again.
"Hey dork." I said from the doorway.
"Hey Cat." He mumbled.
"You doing okay?" I asked
"Just peachy."
"Chase I'm so…"
"Don't Cat. I can't handle anyone else being sorry." I nodded. I knew that he knew that I was here for him if he needed to talk.
"I'm talking off early today. I need to see Alex."
"You're still dating that bozo?"
"Shut up." I stuck my tongue out at him. "If you need to talk call me."
"See ya."
On my way to Alex's apartment I stopped at a pharmacy to by a pregnancy test. Alex and I stared sleeping together about a month and a half ago and my period was two weeks late and my period is never late. I have been on the pill for years, which probably accounted for the fact that I was a very regular girl. I still remember the day that he found my pills. I thought that his head was going to explode.
"Catherine Suzanne Angel. Get your ass down here right now." I heard my dad screaming from the living room all the way up in my room. I had no idea why he was so mad. I couldn't remember doing anything wrong. Sighing I opened my door and ventured out into the hallway.
"Someone's in trouble." Chase sang from his room.
"Shut up." I snapped and I slowly walked downstairs. "Hi daddy." I said smiling my most innocent smile at him, trying to soften him up. Sometimes it worked but right now it wasn't. He looked furious.
"What the hell is this?" He snapped as he threw my pack of birth control pills at me.
"Pills." I mumbled.
"What kind of pills?" He asked me through clenched teeth.
"Birth control."
"Since when are you on the pill?" God, I wish that mom was here to help me out with this.
"A few years."
"Why the hell are you taking birth control?"
"Daddy I'm eighteen years old. It's birth control. Why do you think I'm taking them?" Mom put me on the pill when I was sixteen because my periods were so irregular and miserable. I was still a virgin but I was so furious with my father right now I wanted him to think the worse.
"You cannot and will not have sex under my roof."
"Good thing I'm doing it under your roof." I snapped back. "And what gives you the right to go through my personal belongings?" I knew that they were in my purse.
"I wasn't going through your things, I accidently knocked your purse on to the floor and I was picking up the stuff that fell out."
"Whatever." I snapped as I grabbed my purse and went back up to my room. Two hours later there was a knock on my bedroom door. I figure that mom had straightened him out regarding my sex life or lack there of. Mom and I were very close and I told her everything so she knew that I was still a virgin. "Go away." I shouted.
"Cat, honey please let me come in." Dad said. I went over and ripped my door open.
"What?"
"I need to apologize."
"Fine you did what mom asked." He pushed his way into my room and shut the door.
"I'm sorry that I yelled at you about the pills." I stared at the floor and so he continued to speak. "Why didn't you tell me that you take them to regulate your period?"
"Why did you assume the worse about me and think I'm a slut?" I countered.
"Baby, I don't think that, not at all. I freaked out because I thought that you were having sex."
"What's wrong with that? You and mom do it all the time." My normally pale vampire father turned another shade lighter.
"It's different. You mom and I are married adults."
"I'm an adult and I know damn well that you had sex before you were married. Hello, I'm eighteen and you guys just celebrated your fifteenth wedding anniversary."
"I know that you're an adult baby but you are still my little girl and I don't want to think about you doing that." He admitted softly.
"Relax daddy. I'm still a virgin but I always won't be and you need to accept that."
"I know that. It's exactly what you're mom said."
"Mom is a very smart woman."
So to say the very least I was a nervous wreck. I'm twenty one and I always wanted kids but just not now. Of course if I was pregnant I would keep the baby but it would be hard. My mom of course would support us and dad would too after he was done freaking out because I know he would really freak out. I think what made me so nervous was I wasn't sure how Alex was going to react. We had never talked about having kids. I hoped that he would be okay with this.
I parked my car in the parking lot of Alex's building, grabbed my pregnancy test and headed up to Alex's apartment. I knocked on the door but didn't get an answer. I was so preoccupied that I didn't look to see if he was home from work yet so I used my key to let myself into the apartment. It looked like he was home. The lights were on and his keys were on the table.
"Alex?" I called but I got to answer. I ventured back towards his room and that's when I heard it. I knew exactly what I was hearing and I should have turned around and left but I didn't. I had to know for sure. His bedroom door was cracked open and I pushed it all the way open. I saw his bare ass up in the air and a pair of legs wrapped around his waist. I took a deep breath, trying to calm my anger because I knew that I could really hurt him. I reached over and turned on the light.
"What the hell?" Alex looked over at me. "Catherine."
"You sorry son of a bitch." I screamed.
"I can explain."
"There is no need for an explanation. I can see exactly what is going on. I hope you and your whore are happy." I turned around and quickly left before he could see my tears. I refused to give him that. As I slammed the door I heard him calling my name.
Somehow through my sobs I managed to make it home. I sat on my couch staring at the pregnancy test through my tears. I couldn't believe how quickly my life had fallen apart. An hour ago I was worried that I was pregnant and now I was worried that I was alone and pregnant by a cheating bastard. I picked up my phone and called the one person that I knew I could trust.
Cordy's POV
"Chase why aren't you dishes unpacked yet?" I yelled out into the living room. Chase had moved out of our house a month ago and it looked like he had hardly unpacked anything.
"I'm just pulling stuff out as I need to." He told me as he came into the kitchen carrying the pizza we had ordered.
"That's no way to live sweetheart." I told him gently. I was worried about him. Since he and Ali had broken up he has been miserable. Besides the fact that I missed him like crazy I wanted to come over so Angel and I could talk to him.
"What's the point mom?" He asked as he pulled some plates out of a box. "I'm here alone."
"Not tonight Chase. Your father and I are here."
"Dad doesn't count. He doesn't eat food and you are just like me. You can eat pizza right out of the box."
"It's not about the food."
"I know but I don't want to think about it right now."
"Have you called her?"
"Mom…don't."
"All right. I'll drop it for now." Chase and I grabbed some pizza and a can of pop from his fridge and joined Angel in the living room. Conversation was light because my boys were engrossed in the Hockey game that was playing on TV. I finally gave up and headed into the kitchen to wash and put away his dishes that were still in boxes. I had just started running the water when my cell phone rang. I smiled when I saw Catherine's name flash on my screen.
"Hey honey." I answered but she didn't respond. "Catherine?"
"Mommy." She sobbed into the phone. "I need you."
"Are you at home?"
"Yeah." She blubbered.
"I'm on my way."
"Just….you… no…dad…"
"Okay baby." I disconnected the call. "Angel can you come in here?" I yelled and he was by my side in two seconds. "Catherine needs me."
"Is she okay?"
"No. She was crying on the phone but I don't know what happened."
"Let's go."
"She just wants me. You stay here and talk to Chase about Ali."
"I don't know what to say."
"Yes you do. You're his father. You will know what to say." I walked past him into the living room, grabbed my coat and kissed my son's head. "I gotta run but your dad is going to hang out." He nodded. "I love you."
"Love you too mom." Angel walked me to the door.
"Make sure she is okay."
"Make sure that he okay." I countered. He smiled and kissed me.
"Love you Cor."
"I love you too."
Angel's POV
When I shut the door behind Cordy I was desperate to follow her and make sure my baby girl was okay but I knew that Catherine needed her mother and Chase needed me. I hated that both of my children were miserable at the same time. I walked back into the living room and flipped off the TV.
"Dad I was watching that." Chase complained.
"We need to talk."
"I don't want to." I decided not to give him the option of a conversation.
"Have you called her?" He shook his head. "Do you love her Chase?"
"Of course I do. Why would you ask me that?" He said angrily.
"Because you aren't fighting for her. You are sitting on your ass doing nothing."
"It's what she wants."
"It's not what she wants son. I talked to Charles and he said that she is as miserable as you are."
"Then why did she do it?"
"Because she got scared. She loves you so much and when you almost died she panicked and broke up with you."
"The worst thing about this dad is she wasn't just my girlfriend. She was my best friend and I miss that so much."
"Then go get that friendship back dumbass. Start out as friends again and then hopefully you will get back to what you had. That's what happened with your mom and me."
"Mom broke up with you?"
"Oh yeah." I was hoping that would be enough to suffice him but it wasn't. "After your sister was born I called some old friends of your mom's and mine to let them know about Catherine's birth and I started talking to my ex girlfriend. There wasn't anything special about these conversations but I didn't tell your mom about them. I also started making visits to Sunnydale to check on her and I also failed to mention them to her. Buffy is a slayer and she came to town to destroy a vampire cult and one night after everyone went to bed we were still up planning and she kissed me. I could have, I should have stopped her but I didn't. Instead I kissed her back."
"Not good dad."
"Tell me about it. Of course your mom saw me kiss her but she didn't see me pull away and tell Buffy that I was in love with your mom. I made the entire situation worse by not telling your mom about it and when the secret visits and phone calls came out she was furious and she and Catherine moved out the next day. After about a week of being miserable your mom said that we work on our friendship and you can see where that led. So what I'm trying to say is fight for Ali. I told your mom that I was going to fight for us and it was a long hard fight but eventually it worked."
"So should I call her?"
"Hell no. Go to her house. It will be a lot harder for her to deny speaking to you in person than over the phone." Chase stood up and grabbed his keys.
"Thanks dad."
"Good luck." I told him. I really hoped that they would find their way back to each other.
Cordy's POV
I knocked on Catherine's door but she didn't answer so I just walked right in. I could hear her sobbing from the hallway where I stood. I rushed into the living room and found her curled up on her couch in a fetal position. I sat next to her and lifted her head onto my lap.
"It's okay sweetie. I'm here." I soothed.
"Oh mommy." She sobbed into my lap.
"What happened baby?"
"Alex…"
"Is he okay?"
"Walked….in…having…sex…someone else." I now knew why she didn't want Angel here because Angel would have killed that boy. In fact he still might when I tell him about this.
"I'm sorry Catherine. I know how much you cared for him." What else could I possible say to my broken hearted little girl?
"I…need…him." She cried.
"No you don't. You deserve so much better than him." She pulled herself off of my lap, walked over to her purse, pulled out a bag and tossed it to me. I slowly opened and my heart dropped into my stomach when I saw the pregnancy test. "Oh Catherine" I whispered.
"I can't do this. I can't raise a baby on my own."
"You are never alone. You have your dad and me and we will help you."
"It wasn't supposed to happen like this. I was supposed to be happily married. Not crying over some cheating bastard."
"How late are you?"
"Two weeks." She whispered.
"Have you taken a test yet?" I thought maybe this was a second opinion test. She shook her head. "We need to know the results before you start panicking." I handed her the bag. "Go take it." She just stared at the bag in her hands, not moving. "Cat honey, go take the test."
"I'm scared mom." I reached over and took her hand.
"It's okay to be scared."
"What if I'm pregnant?"
"No what ifs. What ifs aren't going to do us any good. Now go take the test." She nodded and went off to the bathroom.
While I waited for her to return I seriously considered calling Angel just so he would kill Alex just on principle but I decided against it. It amazed me how his "Killing No Humans" policy became more of a suggestion as the kids got older. Hell, I wanted to kill that bastard for hurting my daughter. I know that heartbreak is a normal part of growing up but with the added fact that she might be pregnant just intensified her hurt. I would do anything to take away her pain. I heard the bathroom door open she came back to join me.
"Well?" I asked.
"It's not ready yet." She handed the test to me. "I can't read it."
"Okay. How much more time?"
"Two minutes." I nodded as we began to wait. I never realized how long two minutes could be.
"You ready?" She shook her head. "Will you ever be ready?" Another shake of her head. As I flipped the test over with shaking hands I realized that I was a nervous as she was. "Catherine it's negative." She threw her arms around me and sobbed.
"I'm never having sex again." She told me when she calmed down.
"Don't say that sweetie. You will meet the right guy and this will all be just a bad dream."
"How will I know that he's the right guy and not another cheating bastard?"
"Well first of all maybe you should listen when you ask someone else's opinion on the guy that you are dating."
"Someone like Chase?" Chase had told me what he thought of Alex and the few times that I had seen him I found myself agreeing with my son.
"Chase wants you to be happy and he will always be honest with you."
"How did you know that daddy was the perfect guy for you?" I snorted.
"Your father is not perfect."
"How did you know that you were meant to spend the rest of your life with daddy? How did you know that he was the one?" She asked
"We were friends first, best friends. I think that friendship is the best foundation for any relationship. I knew that he was the one when he was the first person I thought of when I woke up and the last person I thought of before falling asleep. When he wasn't around I felt empty and when he was around I was full. I knew that he was the one when I couldn't imagine my life without him in it."
"Can't you use your demon powers to find me my perfect guy so my heart won't break again because it hurts so bad."
"If I could baby I would. I don't ever want to see you hurt like this again but a broken heart is part of growing up. Look at Ali and Chase, your father and I. Your mostly human and broken hearts are a given."
"Daddy broke your heart?" I nodded.
"Twice. The first time he kissed another woman and the second time was when he died. I thought my heart broke when he kissed Buffy but it was nothing compared to what I felt when he died. Granted, he couldn't help it when he died but it hurt all the same and I reacted the same as I did when I caught him kissing Buffy. I was mad as hell at him for dying and then I hurt."
"So why should I fall in love then if the perfect guy is going to break my heart and die?"
"Because there is no better feeling then being in love. Love isn't easy. It's a lot of work and sometimes it hurts but it's so worth it sweetheart. If given the chance, knowing that your dad would have died I still would have been with him."
"But he came back." Catherine sniffed.
"If he would have died permanently I still would have been with him because those years that we spent together were worth it."
"Even knowing how bad it hurt when you lost him you would still do it?" I nodded
"When you are with the man that you are meant to be with there is nothing else like it in the world. Lying in his arms, making love, whispering words of love to each other, it's the closest thing to perfection that we will ever find on this earth and I know that you will find it baby. Your perfect man is out there. Just have faith. Now don't go searching. Just wait and eventually you two will meet."
"Do you really think that there is someone as perfect as daddy is for you out there for me?"
"As I have told your father on many occasions, I'm Cordelia Angel. I don't think. I know. I know that you are meant to be with someone who makes you has happy as your father has made me." She laid her head on my shoulder.
"I love you mommy."
"I love you too Catherine."
"Thanks for being here when I needed you."
"I'll always be here and so will your dad."
"Speaking of dad, are you going to tell him?"
"I really don't have a choice since he was with me when I rushed over here and he can always tell when I'm lying."
"Just don't let him kill Alex. He may be a cheating bastard but he doesn't deserve to die."
"I promise I won't let him kill Alex. Now how about some ice cream to help you feel better?" Catherine giggled.
"I don't have any."
"What kind of woman doesn't have ice cream in her freezer?" I stood up and pulled her to her feet. "Come on. Let's remedy this situation right now." She was smiling again as we left her apartment. I knew she wasn't over this heartbreak by a long shot but she was strong like me and Angel and I knew that she would heal and be stronger in the end.
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