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Cordy's POV
"If you have any problems with the gowns, please call us Ms. Angel."
"I'm sure that there won't be any problems." I told them.
"Good luck tomorrow."
"Thanks." I grabbed the two garment bags and headed for my car. I had just hung the bags up in my car when I heard my name being called. At first I thought it was another random fan of mine but the voice sounded vaguely familiar. I turned around and came face to face with a very unpleasant memory from my past.
"Cordelia, it's been a long time."
"The last time I saw you, you were trying to steal my husband away from me."
""Do you have time to grab a cup of coffee? I really would like to talk with you."
"There is a coffee shop two blocks north. I'll meet you there. "
"Thanks." I waited until she was in her car, driving away before I pulled out my phone and called Angel.
"Hi sweetheart." He greeted
"Did you know she was in town?" I asked.
"Did I know who was in town?"
"Buffy, did you know Buffy was here in town?"
"Buffy who?"
"How many damn Buffy's do you know?" I snapped.
"Cor, I didn't know that she was here. I haven't seen her in years. You have to believe me." He really did sound surprised so I believed him. I turned off my bitchy tone of voice and turned on my loving wife tone.
"I believe you sweetheart."
"What is she doing here?"
"I'm not sure. I'm on my way to have coffee with her so I'm sure that I'll find out."
"You and Buffy having coffee? I never thought I'd see that happening." He chuckled.
"I'm older and more mature now."
"Older definitely but…" I could tell he was grinning.
"So help me God, if you finish that sentence I will not sleep with you for an entire month." I threatened.
"I love you."
"That's what I thought." I responded smugly. "I love you too. I'll call you when we're done with coffee."
"I hope that call doesn't come from jail."
"Bite me Angel." He laughed and hung up the phone. I climbed into my car and arrived at the coffee shop in two minutes.
"I thought you changed your mind." She said as I sat across from her.
"I had a phone call to make."
"He doesn't know I'm here. I haven't seen or spoken to him in almost twenty years."
"Yeah that's what he said." The waitress came over and took our orders. "So what brings you here to LA?"
"Spike and I came to see my sister."
"You're still with Spike?"
"Since he and Angel saved me from Carlo."
"Are you guys happy?"
"Very. Are you and Angel happy?"
"Extremely."
"I'm glad that I ran into you. I know it's been twenty years and long overdue but I am very sorry for what I did to you."
"Why?"
"I was young and stupid. Spike had just broke up with me. I was hurting and I thought that Angel was the only one who could stop the hurt. I knew from our phone calls that he was really in love with and committed to you but I didn't care. I wanted to feel loved and cared for again and I thought that Angel could give that to me."
"Did he give it to you?" I had to know.
"No Cordy he didn't. Even when he kissed me back, it wasn't like it used to be. There was no love in the kiss. It was just mechanical. He was and still is in love with you, something he told me over and over. I hate that I caused you guys to split up."
"You weren't entirely to blame. He kept the phone calls and visits from me."
"But still you never would have broken up had it not been for me. I should have never kissed him."
"No you shouldn't have and he shouldn't have kissed you back but it's in the past. None of that matters anymore. Angel and I have been happily married for nineteen years. We have two wonderful children and that's all that matters."
"Thank you Cordelia." I nodded. "So two kids?"
"You remember Catherine?" She nodded. "She is twenty two now and our son Chase is nineteen. Any kids of your own?"
"One boy, Jack. He is sixteen."
"I would like to meet him."
"I wish you could. He and Spike are having some father son bonding time."
"Why don't you guys come over to the hotel for dinner? I'll go all out and order some Chinese and you can see everyone again and I'll make sure that the kids are there."
"You guys are still at the hotel?" I nodded.
"I'm no longer there but Angel Investigations has really grown. Catherine and Chase have followed in their father's footsteps and are now working there and they have ten full time slayers on staff."
"I would like that."
Angel's POV
I walked into my office and saw my beautiful wife sitting cross-legged on the corner of my desk. I smiled at her, walked over, lifted her up into my arms and kissed her deeply. Even after all these years, it never got old kissing her. When she needed to breathe we reluctantly broke the kiss.
"Hello gorgeous." I carried her around my desk to my chair and I sat down placing her on my lap.
"Hey handsome."
"Well you're not in jail. Did you kill her and hide the body?"
"No of course not. She apologized and I invited her, Spike and Jack over here for dinner so they can see and meet everyone." Did I just hear what I think I heard?
"You invited who over for dinner and who the hell is Jack?"
"You heard me."
"Are you sure about this?"
"What happened with you and Buffy happened a long time ago. I'm over it. I know exactly where I stand in your life. I know that you love me."
"Damn straight I do." Placing my hand on the back of her neck I pulled her to me and kissed her again.
"This is a place of business for crying out loud." Cordy and I pulled apart at the sound of our son' s voice. "Do you see why I had to get my own place?" Cordy giggled.
"Trying growing up in the room next door." Catherine quipped and I suddenly felt very embarrassed.
"What do you two want?" I snapped while my wife just giggled.
"I heard that mom was here and I wanted to say hi." Chase answered.
"I heard that mom was here and I wanted to see if she got my dress." Catherine answered.
"Oh I did." Cordy jumped out of my lap and pulled a garment bag off of the couch. "I have it right here."
"Can I try it on?"
"Come on." I watched as my girls walked out of my office.
Tomorrow night was a televised awards ceremony for soap opera's and talk shows. Cordy has been nominated for best supporting actress. After a major argument it was decided that Chase would be her date and Catherine and I would go together. Cordy obviously wanted me to be her date but because I don't age I look much younger than she does and I don't want the press giving her a hard time and ruining her reputation by dating a younger man. She said she didn't care what other people said about her but I did and I wasn't going to let anyone hurt her so she finally relented and agreed to let Chase be her date.
"Dad you should really be her date." Chase told me.
"I can't son. It would end up hurting her."
"Tell people that you're her son."
"And what would happen if I kissed her and it was caught on camera. I'm not risking it."
"I know that she wishes you would change your mind."
"I won't."
"I know." Chase said softly.
Two hours later everyone was in the lobby awaiting our guests per Cordelia's instructions. Catherine and Chase had other plans that had to be changed because they couldn't say no to their mother. Since both kids knew about my past indiscretion with Buffy, Cordy told them not to bring it up because it was all in the past and everyone had moved on.
"Are we late?" I looked up when I heard Buffy's voice. Besides looking older she hadn't changed a bit. My eyes traveled over to her two companions. One was a teenage boy that must be her son because he looked just like her. It was her other companion that had my attention. I swore that it was Spike but he wasn't the same. He was older and the only way that he could age was if he was…No it couldn't be. He could not be human.
"Buffy, this is our daughter Catherine and our son Chase." Cordy said since I was frozen, staring at Spike.
"Catherine we met a very long time ago. You were still a baby. You have grown into a beautiful young woman. You look just like your mother."
"Thank you."
"Chase you are the spitting image of your dad. It's very nice to meet you."
"You too."
"Angel it's good to see you again." Buffy was suddenly standing in front of me.
"Hi Buffy."
"I'd like you to meet my son, Jack. Jack this an Angel, an old friend of your father and mine."
"Nice to meet you sir."
"The kid's polite. Obviously nothing like his old man." I said.
"I heard that you pounce." Spike said walking over to us.
"Jack why don't you grab something to eat." He nodded and walked away.
"The last time I saw you, you were a vampire." I said to Spike once his son was out of earshot.
"The last time I saw you, you were a pile a dust." I felt Cordy stiffen beside me and I saw my kids turn their attention to us.
"How did this happen?"
"Do you remember when we took down the big bad otherwise known as Wolfram and Hart?" He may be human now but he was still an ass.
"Of course I remember." I snapped
"Well since we stopped the biggest of all apocalypse's The Powers wanted to reward someone and since you were a pile of dust that left me."
"You hardly did anything. Why the hell would you be granted humanity?"
"There was still a prophecy that needed to be filled and since you were dead and I was the only vampire with a soul left who didn't sign over my humanity I became a real boy." This was wrong. This was completely wrong.
"I…I…have…leave…" I felt Cordy grab my arm as I started to walk away but I easily shrugged her hand away.
"Angel." She yelled as I stormed out of the hotel. I knew that there was going to be hell to pay later but I couldn't be around Spike. It pissed me off too much. I've saved the world more times then that asshole, I sacrificed my life, my only chance of humanity and he gets what I've wanted. He gets to be human. He gets to grow old with the woman he loves. He won't be cursed to wonder the earth alone when everyone he loves dies like I will be. The longer I walked the streets and thought about human Spike the angrier I got. I had to kill something before I lost my mind so I headed towards the pier where I knew there always a nest or two around that I could destroy.
Cordy's POV
The party quickly died down after Angel stormed out like an overgrown child during a temper tantrum and I was furious with him. Everyone but Spike seemed to know why Angel got so mad. After numerous apologies Buffy, Spike and Jack finally took off.
"Do you want Chase and I to go after him Cordy?" Connor asked me.
"No sweetheart. Your dad needs to blow off some steam. He's probably slaughtering some poor defenseless vampires."
"Dad didn't know that Spike was human?" Catherine asked me.
"No, I never told him."
"Why not? You knew that he would freak when he found out." Chase said.
"Actually I didn't think that he would freak Chase. I figured that he had accepted the fact that he would never become human."
"He has. He just hasn't accepted the fact that Spike got what was rightfully his." Connor surmised.
"He signed away his chance to become human. He knew that he would never be able to become human."
"He did that to save the world." Connor shouted. "I was there that night. Spike didn't do anything spectacular that warranted him becoming human. Dad died for God's sake. It should have been him."
"Again, your father knew what he was loosing when he signed his name in blood on that damn prophecy. It's not about not becoming human that has him pissed off Connor. It's the fact that it was Spike that was turned human. If it were any other vampire in the world that was turned human your dad would have no problem. He's just pissed off because it was Spike."
"It shouldn't have been Spike." Chase spoke up.
"I am done fighting with you guys about this." I shouted. "Listen, this is the last time that I'll will ever say this. Spike became a good vampire when he got his soul. He saved the world a few times. He deserved to become human. Granted, I wish that it was your dad that got to become human but it wasn't and I've learned to accept it. Maybe you guys should too." I grabbed my purse and left the hotel.
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It was after two in the morning when I heard his keys turning in the lock. Connor, Chase and Catherine had all called and apologized throughout the evening so at least they finally understood where I was coming from. Now I had to make Angel understand.
"Did you have fun?" I asked when he walked into the room.
"Don't start Cor."
"You started it when you stormed out baby."
"How long have you known?"
"You need to be more specific. I know a lot of things."
"Cordelia." He warned. He only uses my real name when he's pissed at me or if we are making love.
"I found out after you died." I mumbled.
"Why didn't you tell me?"
"Hmm let's see. You were dead and when you came back our children were about to be killed so I had a few things on my mind, Spike turning human was not one of them."
"What about after we saved them? You could have told me then."
"I honestly didn't think about it. You being back was the only thing that I was thinking of. What's the big deal anyway?"
"I just should have known. That's all."
"Why? It's not like you could have changed it."
"It shouldn't have been him."
"What other vampire with a soul should it have been?" I smarted and the glare he sent me caused me to shrink back in my spot on the couch. He could be very scary when he wanted to be.
"God Dammit Cordelia. Spike has everything that I wanted. He can grow old with the woman he loves and I can't."
"Who cares if you don't any older? We are together and you're alive. That's all that matters."
"You should care. Can't you see that my non aging has already affected our relationship?"
"You think that I'm too old for you?" I whispered.
"Of course not. I will always be older than you. I just don't look it. I look the same age as Chase for God's sake. I'm your husband and I look young enough to be your son. I can't even support you tomorrow night at your awards ceremony because people will talk shit about you."
"You can still support me. I don't care what people say."
"Their words will hurt you. They will say awful things about you that will hurt you and I don't want you too be hurt."
"Words can't hurt me, especially the words of strangers."
"What happens in a couple years you have another ceremony and pictures are pulled form this one and people realize that I haven't changed a bit?"
"Then I'll quit. I'd rather have you supporting me tomorrow then have my job."
"It's not just about tomorrow."
"What is it about then Angel? Please talk to me." He sat next to me on the couch but didn't touch me. He stared straight ahead. "Angel."
"You're going to die one day Cor." He told me softly. "You're going to die, Connor, Ciara, Chase, Catherine, their kids, all of you are going to die."
"It's a part of life sweetheart."
"Not my life. My entire family will be gone and I'll be stuck here forever, alone until I do manage to die and then I'll be in hell, away from you and our kids for eternity." I saw his body begin to shake with sobs. I slid over next to him, wrapped my arms around him and held him until he calmed down.
"Angel I don't know what to say because what you say is true, At one point everyone you love will die but as long as our kids, their kids, and their kids and their kids and so on keep reproducing there will always be a part of you and I and our love left on this earth for you to love."
"But it won't be the same. It won't be you." I cupped his face with my palm, forcing him to look at me.
"One day I'm going to die. That's something that we can't stop from happening no matter how hard you try. So until that happens we can live life to the fullest. We can love each other with everything that we have. We can be happy until I take my very last breath."
"We can do that." He whispered thickly through tear filled eyes. He gently picked me up, carried me to our room and he made love to me for hours, whispering words of love and devotion and making me very happy in the process. I finally drifted off to sleep as the sun rose; wrapped safely in arms of the man I loved.
Angel's POV
"I hate these god damned things." I mumbled pulling at my bow tie. "I feel like I'm going to choke."
"Not happening since you don't breathe." Chase smirked. Before I could toss him across the room Catherine walked out of the bedroom. "Wow." Chase gasped.
"Catherine you look beautiful." I told my daughter.
"If you think that I look good you should see mom. She looks hot". As soon as those words were out of Catherine's mouth Cordy stepped into the room. "See wasn't I right?"
"Mom this may be totally inappropriate but Cat is right. You look totally hot."
"Slightly inappropriate yes so don't let it happen again." She said with a grin.
"Yes ma'am." I know that she appreciated Chase's comments but she was staring at me, with anxious eyes waiting for my opinion but she looked so beautiful that I was having trouble forming a coherent thought. She was wearing a simple royal blue strapless dress that was tight around her bust and then hung loosely yet perfectly around her curves. I walked over and took her hands in mine.
"You are absolutely stunning. I have never seen anything more beautiful before." Her huge smile crossed her face and I gently kissed her lips. "So beautiful." I whispered as I pulled away.
"Dammit. You're making me cry." She sniffed as she looked around the room. "Thanks for going with me and supporting me and my career." She told us, wrapping her arms around the three of us, holding us tightly until the limo arrived.
--
"Okay, this is it." Cordy said as she stepped out of the limo.
"Good luck mom." Catherine said when she hugged her mother.
"Thanks sweetheart."
"Knock 'em dead baby." I told her as I hugged her tightly.
"Ready mom?" Chase asked linking their arms together.
"Let's do it." Catherine and I stood back and watched them walk away.
"Chase, Cordy wait." I called when they were about a foot away from us. They froze and I jogged over to them. "Chase I know that you wanted to be your mom's date but since I am married to her it's my job and privilege to be her date tonight." I looked at my wife. "That is, if it's okay with you."
"It's more than okay Angel." This time I linked arms with Cordy and I proudly escorted my wife down the red carpet.
Three hours later I sat proudly in the audience as the love of my life stood on the stage accepting her award for best supporting actress.
"I didn't prepare a speech because I didn't expect to win. First of all thank you to the producers, directors, writers, cast and crew of Desire's Run, without you I wouldn't have a job or be standing up here on this stage. Thank you for making Desire's run a great soap opera and a great place to work. Thank you to my fans, without you I would be without a job. Thank you for your support. Catherine, Chase, my babies. I love you guys so much and I'm so lucky to be your mom and finally, thank you to my amazing husband. Thank you for loving and supporting me in all that I do. I wouldn't be the woman that I am without you. I love you sweetheart."
As I sat in the audience clapping with the rest of the auditorium I was ready to burst with pride. She finally did it. She proved all of the people wrong who told her she wasn't good enough that she was in fact good enough, something that I had always known, with the exception of that one horrible play that Wes and I went too years ago, That was really bad but she never gave up, she took classes and in the end she kicked ass. I quickly stood when she returned to her seat and wrapped my arms around her.
"I'm so proud of you Cordelia Angel."
"I'm glad that you got your head out of your ass and decided to be my date. It wouldn't have been the same without you here beside me." She told me as we took our seats.
"Me too. I would have never forgiven myself if I wouldn't have been here." She reached for my hand and squeezed it.
"I love you Angel."
"I love you too Cordy. More than you'll ever know."
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