I wonder what it is about this garden that I always dream about. Why we're always here. I would think we'd be by the lake or in our dorm or even the common room, but we aren't. We're always in this garden, the moon is still full and Sirius assures me I'm still safe. I await the depravity, but none comes tonight. I don't know whether to be disapointed or relieved. Sirius takes my hands and kisses me gently on the end of my nose. He tells me I look cute in the moonlight. He tells me he loves me and he knows I love him. That he always has know and he always has loved me back. He goes on for a while, staring dreamily into my eyes, about how much he love me, the lengths he would go for me, how beautiful he thinks I am, how-

"OI! Moony you lazy bastard" said James digging his elbow into Remus's side

"Wazzamatter" he yawned "I'm up,get you're elbow out of me. It's Saturday, what do you want"

"It's past noon! Time to get up I think" said James impatiently

"No, is full moon. I wanall the sleep can get" He slurred, falling back to sleep again already

"Sorry Remus. I'll wake you up in a few more hours"

"mmm"

"Have you decided about letting us come with you?"

"mmhmm"

"Is it a yes or a no"

"mmm"

"Was that a yes mmm?"

"mmm"

"Brilliant"

*

"Is he still in bed?" asked Sirius as James joined him and Peter by the lake, it was begining to get too cold to spend time there, but they would hold on to that spot till it became unbearably chilly. Sirius always forgot how sleepy Remus tended to get before the full moon, usually he wasn't given the oppourtunity to sleep in, but as the moon had chosen a Saturday night to become full Remus was taking full advantage of the lying in oppourtunity this presented him

"Yeah, I tried waking him but he's still half asleep"

"Why did you try and wake him!? What's wrong with you James!" Huffed Sirius, he always felt very protective of poor Remus during the full moon.

"Nothing, for Merlin's sake, I only wanted to ask him if he wanted us to come with him tonight"

"What did he say" asked Peter, unable to lift the dread from his voice

"He said "mmm"" James nodded

"Does that mean no or yes?" panicked Peter

"Yes, I think. What's wrong Peter, are you scared?" teased Sirius

"No! I... no"

"Good, because you press the root. You're pretty integral to this working properly" said James frowning

"I am?" he said delightedly

"Yes stupid" Sirius scowled at him

"I've never been integral to anything before" He beamed

"Well get used to it" mumbled Sirius irritably. James tapped him rather violently on the shoulder

"Padfoot, incoming psycho girl!"

"Oh fuck, see you later" Sirius went to stand up, James yanked him back down again

"She's seen you, she's coming this way, it's too late to run, you'll look like an ignorant bastard"

"I don't care" said Sirius scrambling up and begging to run. But it really was to late, he felt a feminine hand wrench his shoulder round

"Siri!" she called mushily "How's my baby waby pudding pie" she grabbed his cheek

"He's feeling nervous, and fairly pissed off. He also wants to remind you that his name is Sirius and he is not your baby waby pudding pie" spat Sirius disdainfully

"Don't be dumb Siri"

"I'm not being dumb..." her name had gone again "Marla?"

"Marianne! I love it when you pretend to forget my name" she slapped him playfully on the chest "There's so much I love about you Siri... are you busy tonight? I'd love to see you, later on" her voice had dropped to an annoying half whisper

"I'm extremely busy, sorry"

"With what?" she whined "Too busy your girlfriend?"

"You aren't my girlfriend Marianne, I spent 1 night with you"

"1 amazing night"

"I'm leaving"

"With me?"

"No" Before she could disagree Sirius ran. He ran around into the enternace hall of the castle, back outside again where he dived into a cluster of bushes, there he tranformed into a dog and trotted back over to James and Peter. He watched Marianne till she was deffinately in the castle. He transformed back

"I think I hate her" said Sirius, utterly disgusted "I've never met a peron who acctually made me want to vomit"

"I know she's annoying, but she's still fit" said James

"Her arse is amazing" nodded Peter

"That's not the point! She's un-fucking-bearable, she's horrible, she's-"

"Still gorgeous" said James

"You be quiet, Evans is over there, you wouldn't want her to hear you acting like you're about as deep as a puddle, would you?"

"no... I wonder if should just give up on her. She hates me, she'd rather get off with my gay best friend than even speak to me"

"There may be hope on the horizon yet. Moony said she was asking about you in arithmancy, he reckons she's missing the attention"

"Really? Wow! Maybe she fancies me after all!"

"That's just what he thinks, don't get carried away"

"Remus is an amazing at knowing stuff like that about people though. There's no way he's wrong"

"Don't stop believing Prongs"

"I won't!" he said brightly

*

"Have you got hold of him properly James?"

"Think so"

"okay, on three, one two three, LIFT!" They had let Remus sleep too late, the sun was going down and he was becoming ill from the pull of the moon. He was deathly white, cold and clammy he writhed with pain as James and Sirius hoisted him upward from his armpits, slinging his arms over their shoulders and supporting his weight they begun the journey to the whomping willow. Peter clearing room for them as they went.

As they passed through the near desserted common room, no body noticed them. Luckily, as they walked through the castle, most people were too wrapped up in their own goings on to notice the half unconcious Remus James and Sirius were carrying. Every one apart from Evans and Snivellus, who spotted them desending the stair case on the second floor

"What the hell is going on Potter?" Sneered Snape

"What's wrong with Remus?" asked Lily - Peter, James and Sirius exchanged a worried glance, Sirius thought fast

"No time to explain properly, bad hex, taking him to hospital wing" he spluttered as he and James doubled their speed, Lily called after them

"But the hospital wing is that way..."

*

They had reached the Whomping Willow, sensing their presence, it's great gnarled branches swayed and creaked angrily at them

"Go ahead Wormtail" mumbled Sirius, his back strained from Remus's weight. Peter became a rat and scurried over to the knotted root at the tree's base. It froze instantly, Peter scampered down the narrow passage enternace that lead to the Shrieking Shack. James forced his way underground through the tight enterance and, with great difficulty, pulled a very weak and shaken Remus through as well. Sirius soon followed. They had to drag him the short distance to the shack, where they resurfaced through a trap door, they pulled Remus up and left him in the middle of the floor taking shallow uneven breaths. The rat Peter was already hiding behind one of the wrecked peices of furniture lying around.

"Do you think there's anything we can do to-" began Sirius

"No" said James forcefully "The moon's coming up, we should tranform" Sirius nodded and watched James reshape into a stag, he felt a whooshing sensation as he became a dog. They stood and waited for Remus's transformation to begin. Sirius scanned the shack, a couple of small rooms, every wall sprayed with blood and engraved with deep scratches and huge dents. Sirius found it hard to believe that his Remus could do this much damage. He wondered how Peter, James and him would communicate but somehow he just knew that James wanted Sirius to back away from Remus at that moment. Remus let out an ear splitting shreik as the moon finnally appeared against the inky black sky. Sirius had to look away as Remus contorted into the most hideous shapes, the sound of hundreds of bones snapping and breaking in several places at the same time, cut across the air like a dagger and stabbed into Sirius's ears. He gagged with it. James had turned around and Peter was jittering underneath his old piece of furniture. Sirius could see Remus's bones moving and reshaping beneath his skin, every now and then one would puncture him and blood would spill. He became longer and wider and his clothes ripped. His nose and jaw enlongated into a snout and his teeth stretched out, converting them into long hooked fangs. He stood and a bulky coat of fur sprouted all over his body. Finnally he turned to face Sirius and though it was only the colour of his eyes that remained as they had been, all trace of Remus drained from them and they were left with the wolf and only the wolf. It lowered onto all fours and stood head to head with Sirius it's eyes alflame, it's mouth foaming. It stared at him, growling ominously till Sirius let out an involuntarily submissive whimper, at which point, the wolf advanced on James. But this time there was no staring contest, the wolf went straight for James, straight for his throat.

*

Remus wrenched his eyes half open, the cold light of the wintery sunrise pouring through the gaps in the boarded up windows of the Shreiking Shack. As always on post transformation mornings, he ached everywhere, he could feel already that atleast one of his fingers was broken. He lifted his head, expecting the sensation of peeling his face from a blood soaked floor; but instead felt soft, warm material, he wondered if James or Sirius had brought him a blanket or given him a tshirt to use as a pillow. It was when the soft, warm material he had his face against began to breathe that Remus fully opened his eyes. He had been using a tshirt as a pillow, but that that t-shirt was attatched to Sirius Black, he also quickly realised that he wasn't lying down, but sitting up. Remus had slept sitting up against the wall next to Sirius, twisted so his arms draped around Sirius's neck and his mouth burried into Sirius's chest. Sirius had his chin rested upon Remus's head, he was also sitting against the wall and was not asleep. He was humming quietly to himself and was messing around with Remus's hair

"Morning" mumbled Remus shyly

"Ha, morning" said Sirius, dropping his hands down off of Remus's hair, Remus felt his heartbeat quicken

"How did we end up like this?"

"Sorry... I was trying to carry you up to the dorms, but I was too tired. So I sat you up against the wall and I sat next to you. You were too weak to support you weight and you kept falling down, so I put your arms round me. Sorry"

"Don't apologise, this makes a nice change to waking up on the floor"

"It does?"

"Yeah" said Remus as he pulled himself off of Sirius "oh... I drooled on you" he noticed Sirius had a black eye

"Eww, thanks for that" Sirius smiled and swatted at the damp patch on his shirt

"How was I? Where are James and Peter? I didn't hurt them, did I?"

"They went back up to the dorm a couple of hours ago, Peter hasn't got a scratch on him. James is a bit cut up but he'll live"

"Oh fuck... what did I do?"

"You kept going straight for him, you totally ignored me and Peter"

"But you've got a black eye"

"You swiped at me after I pulled you off James, that's all you did to me"

"I wonder why I only went fo him"

"Well, Wormtail was hiding all night and, honestly, I don't think you saw me as a threat" he laughed

"Maybe... you do look very cuddly as a dog... Maybe werewolves have a soft spot for cuddly" Remus swallowed his pride. If what he was about to say went down badly, he could blame it on delerium brought on by exhaustion "Maybe werewolves have soft spot for you"

"I doubt that" he smiled carelessly. Remus pulled himself closer to Sirius and tilted his head.

"Sirius... I'm going to kiss you... is that okay?" Sirius didn't respond with words, he responded by grabbing Remus and pulling him into a deep slow kiss. Before Remus could enjoy this properly, his body rembered that it was battered and exhausted and promptly fell unconcious.

*

He was woken up later on that day by the sound of a fussing Poppy Pomfrey

"I'm happy to heal them I suppose, as long as you boys understand that a fist fight is not the way to solve a disagreement"

"We understand" said James's voice. Remus opened his eyes and saw Poppy getting rid of Sirius's black eye with a careful flick of her wand. He looked over at James, who had sustained a rather large cut aross his cheek and 2 black eyes. His arm had an old t-shirt wrapped round it, it was soaked with blood, she moved onto James and began to heal his wounds

"You're up" said Sirius, he leapt to Remus's side, quickly stroking his hair while James wasn't looking. He beamed at Remus, grey eyes glittering and rippling like an icy storm

"Hi" Said Remus, making his best attempt to return Sirius's love in a similar look. James joined them and cleared his throat, breaking the concentration on each other's gaze

"Both of you were away with the faries there" he laughed, ignorant of the meaning behind their stare

"Err" Remus searched his brain for questions to ask them "I... Where's Peter?"

"He was a bit traumatised by last night, he's been hiding under his covers since I took him back up to the dorm" sniggered James

"I was a bad idea to involve him, wasn't it?" said Remus worriedly

"It might have been" Sighed Sirius "But it's not like he's going to tell anyone"

"I suppose not. And if all else fails, my mum used to be an Obliviator" said Remus grinning, James chuckled and Sirius laughed a bit too hard

"How are you feeling this morning Remus?" asked Poppy

"Strangely good acctually" said Remus, surprised by his own good cheer, and the abscense of the feeling like he'd spent last night ramming himself into a brick wall

"That's excellent, you're okay to leave when you want" said Poppy as she went to organise a cabinet full of potions

"I am?"

"Yes, only a couple of broken fingers and a fracture in you shoulder – quite amazing really, you haven't done this little damage to yourself since last christmas when you had the flu" she said as she busied herself in the cabinet. James and Sirius grinned at Remus

"I knew this would be a good idea" said James proudly

"Shut up-" Remus paused and smiled "-Prongs"

*

"So, you're officially agreeing we should do this from now on" said James excitedly as they reached the dormitory. Peter was asleep but they didn't bother to lower their voices, Peter slept like the dead.

"Yep. I've never ever felt this good after a full moon" Remus smiled "You just have to be careful... and you have to get me to the shrieking shack well before sun down next time"

"Will do" nodded Sirius

"So I can walk by myself"

"We know" said James

"And so I have time to undress"

"What?" laughed James

"Well, I rip my clothes during my transformation otherwise" explained Remus "My mum says she doesn't mind but I feel guilty so the clothes have to go

"Fair enough..." said James, smirking "Did you open those letters you got at breakfast this morning?"

"What letters?" asked Remus as the two of them turned to face Sirius

"I got a couple of letters from my family this morning at breakfast but I ddin't open them because we went to the hospital wing to check on you" answered Sirius. The letters had been scrunchd up in his pocket. The Black seal had marked both of them. Sirius had been reluctant to open them, he usually only ever got letters from his family when someone had died

"Are you going to open them?" asked James anxiously

"I suppose, they wouldn't bother writing if it wasn't something important" said Sirius begrudingly as he pulled the letters from his pocket, he opened the one that he dislodged first. He broke the seal and scanned the letter

"It's from Andy!" he grinned

"Who's Andy?" asked Remus who was not as knowledgable as James was on the Black family

"Andromeda, my favourite cousin. One of the only decent people the Black's have ever produced" he read the letter in more detail "She's getting married!" he read the letter aloud

"Dear Sirius. I have wondeful news! Ted proposed, we're getting married in June! I don't know if your parents will let you come because Ted's muggle born – uh oh – but I wanted to let you know personally you're welcome to come to our wedding and you'll always be welcome at our place if your parents ever get too much for you. So is Regulus if you ever win him round to the right way of thinking. Love always, Andy x Oh shit... oh fucking hell" Sirius cried when he finished reading. If Andy was marrying a muggleborn he was almost certain of what the next letter would say

"What wrong? That's good isn't it?" askd Remus confusedly

"Not if she's marrying a muggleborn... you know what the Blacks are like" said James darkly

"Oh... what would they do?"

"You'll see" spat Sirius. He broke the seal nervously on the next letter "Oh no... it's from my mother" he read aloud sadly "Sirius, Andromeda is marrying a mudblood, she has been removed from the family tapestry. You are never to contact her again. Regards, Mother- fuck..." Sirius sat down on his bed and massaged his temples. Not Andy.

"What's wrong? What does "Taken off the tapestry" mean?"

"The Sirius's mum has this huge family tree tapestry, every time someone does something that they think like... disgraces their name, like marrying a muggleborn, they get burnt off the tapestry" explained James

"We're not allowed to speak to them or go near them or even mention them again. It's like they don't exist anymore. All ties are severed and just like that they're disowned forever. I fucking hate my family" Sirius growled. He twisted his mother's letter in his hands, like he was trying to choke the ink from the page. "I'd better warn Andy" he pulled his quill and some parchement out of his trunk and scrawled angrily:

Dear Andy, congratulations. I'm sure you and Ted will be very happy together. The cunts at Black headquarters have had you taken off the tapestry. I'm sorry. I'll try and get to your wedding but I'm not making any promises. Congratulations again and tell Ted if he ever hurts you I'll kill him, love Sirius x

"I'm off to the owlery" he mumbled

"I'll come too" piped Remus "I have something I want to send my mum anyway"

*

"You feeling okay Padfoot?" asked Remus as he tickled a fluffy nearby owl

"Yeah... Andy's probably the person I'd least like to have taken off the tapestry, but it's not like I'm never going to speak to her again"

"As long as you're alright"

"You don't have a letter with you Moony" said Sirius matter-of-factly as he tied his letter to the nearest owl and walked it to the window

"I wanted to be alone with you" he said smiling impishly. He walked up to Sirius and pushed his long hair from his face. Kissing him sweetly and gently on the lips, and pulling him into an intense embrace. The rocked on the spot as they held each other

"So... are we together now" asked Sirius

"I don't know... do you like me"

"Yeah... since the start of this year I think... probably since that day by the lake" said Sirius shyly, never thinking he'd be discussing this so freely "Do you..."

"Since my last birthday"

"Wow, well before the day by the lake then" they laughed nervously

"Yep. I never meant to... you know when you always used to tease me about my interesting dreams"

"Yeah..."

"They were about you"

"You're kidding"

"Nope" he blushed and smiled his beautiful smile and Sirius kissed him again. He smiled mid kiss as it dawned on him Remus was his boyfriend. And even wider when he realised Remus had run his hands down and had a firm hold on his bottom.


A/N See Eventual slash! Yay : D Reads, Reviews and favoruites are greatly appreicated. And thanks for adding this story into C2's aswell, it's very flattering!