Another month later…

It had been two months since I had spoken or seen Jay, I would like to think I was over the worst of it, but he still plagued my thoughts every minute. I couldn't help but think of him, and how much he must hate me right now. I know he had tried calling Jade, but Jade knew better than to answer, and as far as her and AJ go, I've told them Jay and I had broken up, so keeping them away from Jay would be easy. I missed Jay everyday, but deep in my mind I knew I was doing the right thing, and soon enough he would find a person who could give him everything he deserved.

I sat on the couch in Amelia's house waiting for her to get home, the boys were already in bed fast asleep, as I stifled a yawn watching the commercial that was playing. I glanced at the clock, it read 2 AM, It seemed a bit late for Amelia, but I knew her brother Tony was driving her so they probably stopped to get something to eat. I felt my phone vibrate as I glanced at the caller ID, I saw the name JAY light up, it broke my heart seeing his name appear on my phone as it continued to ring, but I knew I was doing the right thing, as I pushed the ignore button on my cell and watched the call disappear. I laid my head back against the couch as I closed my eyes, getting lost in my thoughts…I let my memories flood my mind as I remembered the nights I spent with Jay, how It felt to be embraced in his arms, how I felt when he kissed me, how my stomach would flutter when he was near me, how just a simple smirk from him would make a smile appear on my face no matter how bad of day I was having.

I was brought out of my thoughts by a loud banging on the door. I glanced to the clock again reading 2:45, I groggily sat up and carefully made my way to the door. It was too late for someone to be visiting, as I cautiously peered out of the peep hole, only to be met by flashing red and blue lights of two cop cars parked outside. I opened the door slowly, looking at the two officers standing on the doorstep, as I carefully peeked my head around the door "Yes?" I spoke. And right there at that moment, as the cops told me the news, I felt my stomach tighten as if someone punched me, I stammered backwards making my way back to the couch as the two officers entered the house explaining everything to me, as I sat on the couch, running my hands through my hair, fighting the tears that were stinging my eyes.

"Is there anyone you can call?" The one officer spoke, I pulled out my phone and glanced at the names on the contact list. I got JADE, when I glanced at the name underneath hers…JAY…I so wanted to call him, I wanted to feel his arms around me as I cried my eyes out…I wanted him here with me, but I couldn't…I would have to go through this alone, as I dialed Jade's number and filled her in.

I didn't notice the sun had come up, as Jade and I sat at the table in Amelia's house all night. We had tons of calls to make, and many arrangements to tend to, stifling the tears that stung our own eyes. Amelia didn't have much family, her parents lived a few hours away but there were so elderly, they really kept to themselves, it was really only her and her brother, so I took the chore of calling anyone I could, as Jade began arranging other aspects. I stayed quiet as I heard Jade on the phone with AJ, her voice quivering as she spoke to AJ. I could see the tears coming to her eyes as she fought them, I watched as she ended the call and looked over to me with tear stained cheeks "AJ's gonna talk to Jeff, see if he can get out here as soon as possible" I nodded, knowing AJ was good to his word and he'd be out here as quick as he could.

I was brought out of my thoughts when I heard the patter of Jesse and Jacob coming down the stairs. To be honest I forgot all about them, when I looked to Jade with wide eyes, seeing a fresh new wave of tears appearing in her eyes, when I stood and walked out to the living room with Jade behind me. "Mommy?" Jacob asked, both boys holding their AJ Styles action figures in their little hands as they looked around the living room. I came out and as I knelt down I collected both boys in a large hug, holding them close to me, fighting back a wave of tears that were stinging my eyes. "Aunt Lily, where's my mommy?" Jacob asked, he always had been a bit attached to Amelia. I put on a fake smile as I grabbed Jacob and Jesse by their hands and walked them over to the couch, sitting them down on either side of me, Jade sitting on the chair across the room. I swallowed the cryball in my throat as I begin to speak "Boys, last night while you were sleeping, something happened" I spoke softly, looking into their little eyes, both of them listening intently. "Last night your mommy, and uncle Tony were in an accident" I spoke, hoping they would understand, as I heard Jesse immediately pipe up "A accident?" his little voice squeaked, I took a deep breath as I glanced over to Jade before continuing "Yes, they were in an accident, and I'm sorry boys but your mommy and uncle Tony died last night" I spoke with my voice quivering. I watched their little faces, looking confused when Jesse spoke "What's died?"

I took another deep breath as I got off the couch and sat across from them on the coffee table, as I looked into their little faces "Well, it's when you go up to heaven" as Jacob spoke up "Can she come back?" I smiled as I fought the tears as I tried to explain it "I'm sorry boys, but it doesn't work that way…She can't come back…" I watched as Jesse began to cry, as I reached forward and pulled him to me, holding him in my one arm, as I heard Jacob say "I want my mommy!" tears starting to pour down his face also, I swallowed the tears that I felt in my eyes as I spoke "I know buddy" as I pulled him to me, holding him in my other arm. I sat there holding both boys as they cried, I tried to comfort them "It's gonna be ok, I promise…Me, Aunt Jade, AJ are all gonna take care of you" I spoke brushing over their soft hair with my fingers as I tried to soothe them. Jesse's tear stained face looking into mine "Christian too?" he spoke, causing my heart to break all over again as I smiled and all I could do was nod my head. These boys had been through so much already.

The arrangements had been made and the extended family had been contacted. The last couple of days seemed to be a whirlwind, as Jade and I planned the funerals, I had petitioned the court and since Amelia had a current will on file, and it stated in there I was to get custody of Jacob and Jesse, I was granted semi-permanent custody of the boys. Basically, it meant if no one petitioned my custody rights, the boys would be in my custody. Jade and I decided that it would be best if we moved the boys over to our apartment, turning our living room into a make shift bedroom for the boys, getting them out of the house, hopefully it would help them in the long run.

Amelia's parents had flown into to Vegas for the funerals, they were a great help as they volunteered to watch the boys as Jade and I ran to the airport to pick up AJ. AJ had talked to Jeff and had gotten a few days off from work, and was flying in tonight. Jade and I pulled into the parking garage of the airport, and I decided I wanted to stay in the car. I just felt like having some alone time to let my mind think, process the events of the last few days. I laid my seat back as I closed my eyes, I thought about my future, and how I was gonna raise these two little boys, I couldn't help but let my mind wander to Jay, I wondered how much he hated me by now, I wondered if he had found someone else.

I laid there with my eyes closed when I felt my phone vibrate, I glanced the new text message from Jade that it simply read "You are in deep shit when we get back to the car", I rolled my eyes as I closed my phone. I closed my eyes again as I relaxed, and in a few moments time I would understand what that text meant…

I was laying there with my eyes closed, when out of nowhere my door flung open and I heard AJ's familiar voice "Lucy, you got some 'splaining to do!" he said with a horrible Cuban accent. I opened my eyes slowly, sitting my seat upright, as I stepped out of the car, immediately met with AJ's blue eyes, a smile splayed across his face as I immediately jumped into his arms giving him a huge hug. He hugged me tight when I heard him speak softly in my ear "Why did you lie to us?" I pulled back looking at him confused, when I heard a voice I never thought I would hear again coming from behind me "Hi Lily".