My feet froze as I slowly turned my head to face the 5 guys standing only mere feet from me. All of their eyes looking at me, as I stood there completely frozen, I heard Donnie Wahlberg speak up first "This your girl?!?!", I couldn't do anything but stare. I felt Jay trying to move me closer to the guys, he let my waist go, grasping my wrist in his hand as he pulled me behind him, I heard Jay speak "This is my girl", my head slowly turning, as my eyes met Jay's. He still thought of me as his…could it be he still loved me after everything I had put him through?
I was still being pulled behind Jay slowly, when Jay turned to face me, a smirk on his face as he spoke to the guys, "and suddenly she's a little shy…" I could feel my face turn red, as I slowly turned my head to look at the 5 guys who were chuckling a bit, at what Jay had just said. All I could do was stare, when I heard Jay continue to speak "This is Lily, she's been a fan since back in the day" before I could do anything I felt Jay's grasp leave my wrist, when suddenly I was enveloped in a large hug. Donnie Wahlberg pulled me close to his body as he wrapped his large arms around my body, I was literally shaking as I heard Donnie speak "We don't bite baby, you can speak" I smiled a bit, as he released me from the hug. Before I could respond, the next guy in line who was Danny, enveloped me in another large hug… I could barely comprehend what was happening, as I continued making my way down the line, receiving my hug from each guy. I was just being released from my hug from Jordan Knight when I heard Jay speak "I believe a few of you were her first loves" My mouth dropped open as my head snapped to face Jay "Who told you that?" I exclaimed shocked, as I could hear Jordan laughing standing next to me. Jay shrugged as he spoke "I can't disclose my sources" he said with a smile across his face. I shook my head as I moved on to Joey, as I spoke "I'm gonna kill Jade and her big mouth." I was finishing up hugging Jonathan when I heard Donnie speak, "Do tell Jay, who was her first love?" I snapped my head to Donnie, as I quickly walked across to where Jay was, I was almost next to Jay, when I felt two strong arms pull me away, and one arm wrapped around my shoulders, holding me close to his body. I looked up and saw that it was none other than Donnie Wahlberg, holding me close to him, as he encouraged Jay to spill the beans.
I spoke through the redness on my face as I tried to speak sternly "Jay, don't say something that will get you in trouble", as I heard the 5 guys all say "OOOoooohhhh" as Jay smiled wide, his blue eyes looking back at me. Jay shook his head as he spoke, "I'm not gonna say who were her first loves" as I sighed with relief, when Jay spoke again "But I'm sure her inner child is more than happy standing where she is now" as my eyes grew wide, the redness pooling in my face even more. Donnie pulled me closer as he could see me blush, I felt him give me a one armed hug as he spoke "It's all good baby" as I tried to stop the redness from continuing. We heard the photographer speak, "Alright let's get a photo" as he readied the camera, I smiled as the photographer took a photo of me and the 5 members, when I heard Jordan speak up "Let's get one more, let's get both of the love birds in here" as he waved for Jay to get in the picture. I watched as Jay stepped into the photo, standing on the other side of me, and to say standing between Donnie and Jay wasn't exciting I would by lying.
The second photo was taken, and Jay shook all of their hands, before he stepped out, I was about to follow Jay as Donnie pulled me back to him and I heard him speak "You have a good guy there, sweetie…Most guys won't even come to the concert with their girl…he cares about you a lot" I nodded, before I could stop it I responded "Yeah, I know…I don't deserve him" I whispered slightly. My eyes shot to Donnie's wondering if he had heard me, when Donnie simply smirked, he leaned his head closer to me and slightly whispered "Promise me one thing?" I looked into his eyes, when he continued "Promise that you'll pay attention at the show? There's something special in there, just for you" I opened my mouth to protest, just as Donnie enveloped me in a hug once again. I gave each member another hug goodbye, as I walked towards Jay, holding both of my photos in hand. I followed Jay out of the room, where the employees were waiting for us, and we were led to the arena and our new seats
I leaned against the stage, while the arena filled with numerous other fans, as I watched Jay lean against the stage next to me. I watched as he pulled out his cell phone to check his messages, he watched the people begin to fill the stands, I couldn't help the thoughts that plagued my mind. Did Jay really not hate me? I leaned over to Jay and spoke "Do you really know all the words to 'Step by Step'?" Jay laughed out loud, as he looked into my eyes, as he answered with a smile "Maybe…" he quirked his eyebrow high. I scratched my head when I spoke "why?" Jay closed his phone and slipped it back into his pocket, as he scooted closer to me, Jay took a deep breath before he spoke "Well, I wanted to be prepared…I listened to all of their songs last night…I learned their names…everything" he said confidently. I smiled as a thought crossed my mind "What would you of done, if I refused to come tonight?" Jay looked into my eyes for what seemed to be an eternity, before he spoke "Well that wasn't gonna happen, AJ and I were not gonna let that happen" I chuckled to myself, thinking about what he had said. Another thought crossed my mind, as I turned my head back to face him "What did you say to them?" I asked curiously, as I saw Jay's eyebrow quirk up once again as a smirk planted on his lips "Why do you wanna know?" I blushed slightly, when I thought back to what Donnie had said to me before we left the meet and greet, then I answered Jay "I'm just curious." Jay smiled wide as he spoke "that's between me and your loves" I smiled as I gently swatted him on the arm. "Shut Up!" I said playfully, as Jay grabbed me around the waist suddenly, pulling me close to his body, his face just mere inches from mine, I could feel his hot breath dance across my lips, as he spoke in barely a whisper "Only if you make me." My eyes blazing into his eyes, I couldn't help but feel the attraction, as I watched his head slowly inch its way closer and closer to mine. The excitement and anticipation building in my body and in my nerves as I watched him get closer, until suddenly the lights went out, causing Jay and I to quickly pull away from each other.
What was happening to me? I couldn't help but let the negative thoughts attack my mind once again. Jay deserved more than me, there was no way he loved me…maybe he was wrong. But more importantly…did I love him? I was brought out of my thoughts, when the first beats of a tune began to play through the speakers, I watched as the crowd rushed the stage, practically crushing Jay and I against the stage. Jay maneuvered his body behind mine, bracing his arms against the stage, almost protecting me. I couldn't help but smile at him trying to be protective, I leaned back against his body, while I watched the screen show the entrance to the show, and within moments there they were. The 5 guys I dreamed about as a kid, were now dancing and singing in front of me, I couldn't help but let my lips whisper the words to the song along with them, as I was mesmerized by their stage presence. I couldn't help but blush, when Jordan came out and stood directly in front of me and winked. The redness pooled in my face, as Jay leaned forward and whispered just outside my ear "Awwww" I laughed out loud, as I craned my head back to look at him, as he had a wide smile on his face.
The concert progressed as I screamed and screamed for them, when during the song "The Right Stuff" I was caught by surprise when Donnie jumped off the stage right in front of me. He landed between the stage and the crowd, as security protected him as he walked directly up to me. I watched as he reached forward, cupping my face with his hand, and he gently laid a soft kiss upon me, it was like my childhood dreams coming true, as my head was in a whirlwind. I was quickly brought out of it, as I saw a wide smile appear on Donnie's face and I heard Jay speak in a stern tone "Quit flirting with my girl Wahlberg", I watched as Donnie looked back to Jay, and smiled wider as he reached out and patted Jay on the arm, and quickly ran back on stage. I turned around to look at Jay, who was faking a serious expression. I could tell he was faking because he was fighting a smile in the worst way, when he spoke "I'm gonna have to watch you tonight huh?" I felt the redness return to my face, when I nodded my head 'No", only to see Jay smile wide, as he reached forward and swept my bangs out of my face. I could feel my skin get hotter an hotter as the moments passed, suddenly becoming awkward, I turned back to face the stage. Trying to do anything to keep myself occupied from Jay standing behind me.
The thoughts were plaguing my mind, I couldn't understand why the thoughts still bothered me. Why couldn't I just accept the fact that he deserves better than me, why couldn't I just accept the fact that I don't love him…Why couldn't I just accept the fact that sooner or later, Jay would find a girl better than me and he would forget all about me. I took a deep breath as the thoughts fought over and over again in my mind, when I was brought out of my thoughts by the voice of Donnie Wahlberg. I looked up to the stage, Donnie had just finished his song 'Cover Girl' and I watched as he sat on the steps that were on the stage. I listened as he spoke "Alright, where all my single girls at?" I smiled as I heard the crowd filled mostly with women, screamed loudly, as he continued "Now let me hear from the girls that have a good man waiting for you at home!" I laughed as I heard a slightly smaller group scream loudly. Donnie lifted the mic to his lips, with a smile on his face "Ya know, I got one thing to say to all of you women..." I watched as he stood from the steps and walked closer to the edge of the stage. "Every one of you is beautiful, and don't let anybody tell you different!" he said into the microphone, as the audience screamed louder. "And you listen to DDub, everyone of you is going to find a great man, who loves you for everything that you are…no matter what you may think about yourself' he finished, as he turned and looked directly at me as finished the last sentence. His eyes connected with mine, and I had a feeling this was what he was talking about earlier, as the first notes began to play.
