A/N Thank you very much for the new favourites. Reviews please. Thank you.
England
Nix sat in the pub, his usual haunt in Aldbourne waiting for a certain young lady. He felt strongly for Eve, she was beautiful, clever and exciting. She liked a good time, she liked to drink and didn't care for keeping up appearances. The opposite to his wife, a marriage of lust and convenience rather than love. He was unsure of his intentions towards Eve and was certainly in the dark over Eve's intentions towards him. It was a relief not to have to hide his marriage from Eve, although he didn't quite know what to think, was it a good thing for Eve to know or not? His thoughts were interrupted by his beautiful brunette entering the pub commanding the attention from the other men in there.
Always aware of the presence Eve gave off when entering a room, she relished in it before seeking out Nix and walking towards him. He was still handsome, War was treating him well! What a thing to say!
Eve smiled her red lips at Nix as he rose to greet her. She kissed him softly on the lips as not to smudge her lipstick.
They both sat and Nix slid a Whiskey over to her, Eve knocked it back. "I don't have long darling"
'Really?" Nix frowned "I was hoping to spend some time with you."
"I know, this God damn war keeps getting in the way, I don't have to leave just yet, we have plenty of time to fit a few rounds in" Eve winked.
Nix smirked.
Nix knocked back his Whiskey and the pair of them hastily left the pub. As they walked quickly, Nix wrapped an arm around Eve's waist and pulled her in close to place light kisses on her cheek. Eve giggled in anticipation. She did enjoy sex a lot and Nix was particularly good. He wasn't a selfish lover, making sure she got hers as well. They reached the B&B where Nix had booked a room. The landlady had learnt to turn a blind eye to these unmarried couples, with a War on, times were changing and things that were once frowned upon were now being accepted, no matter how distasteful it might be.
Nix and Eve entered the large detached, brick house and Nix lead Eve straight up the stairs to the room on the first floor. The room was comfortable enough, but Eve wasn't bothered if it hadn't been, she would have been satisfied with a roll in the hay. Nix closed the door and immediately grabbed Eve, undressing her, much to her delight. Eve pulled at Nix's uniform, hastily undoing his shirt buttons and running her hands over his chest.
"Lew!" she moaned as he dropped her bra and kissed her pert nipples. He pushed her down onto the bed and Eve entered heaven as he parted her legs, slowly kissing the inside of her thighs, climbing higher and higher...
...
Nix sat up against the headboard with Eve resting her head on his chest smoking a cigarette.
"What are you doing after the war?" He asked her
"Firstly find Fin" Eve replied
"What are you and Fin going to do?"
"Not sure yet, I'm working on it" Eve replied, she still had this irritation of Fin's difficult discharge from the military. "How is Fin?" Eve asked
"She seems just fine, she got a black eye, treating one of the men!" Nix chuckled
"Oh no! My poor Fin!" Eve cried raising her head to face Nix who quickly took advantage and planted a kiss on her lips before moving his body around and climbing back on top of Eve "round two" he whispered to the sound of Eve's giggles.
...
Reluctantly, Nix walked Eve back to the bus stop. He hated that she had to return to London so soon. Although he was relieved that she was posted in the British war office and not in the field like Fin. Eve said it was because Fin was exceptional in the field, which would probably be her downfall eventually.
Nix gave Eve a lingering kiss, she never did question the happiness of his marriage, maybe next time, she didn't want her relationship with him to stop and she didn't want to complicate things between them. Eve got on the bus and sat down, she waved to him as the bus drove out of the village, where it stopped again to let off a passenger. Eve noticed someone had stopped by her seat, she looked up, surprised to see red.
"Looks like we both fell for the Yanks!" she beamed
"Excuse me?" Eve questioned.
Edie held out her left hand and wriggled her wedding band at Eve "Mrs Speirs and soon to be a mother" Edie rubbed her stomach, "Will you be Mrs Nixon?!" She then left a gobsmacked Eve watch her climb off the bus and merrily walk away.
The bus drove off again. Eve stood up scrambling to the front. "Stop!" She shouted to the driver who without argument did so. Eve jumped off and started to run back to Aldbourne, she needed to get to Lew.
Belgium
Crunch, crunch, crunch...
Was all Fin could hear apart from her own breathing, the noise was made by her own boots hitting the hard frosty, forest floor. She couldn't hear the three Krauts, behind her, she was fast, they weren't as fast. It really was a good job because there had barely been an opportunity for her to take off and get away. Fin was nimble and easily side stepped the debris, broken branches, tree stumps and empty shells. She kept on running at a steady pace, watching her breath in the cold air, some would say she was 'escaping' but she wasn't escaping, she was in total control of the situation, except for one thing, she didn't have a hope in hell of getting back to Easy, they had managed to cut that route off from her. Her only option was Dog company, which really wasn't a great idea, but a necessary one all the same. Speirs was back, he had arrived in Mourmelon-le-Grange, but hadn't bothered to seek her out once. Fin didn't seek him out either though. His revelation back in Holland must have been the morphine. This upset her very much, it was either back to the drawing board with him or to forget it altogether, she hadn't decided yet. Of course she couldn't decide until she would be able to speak to him again. Being hunted down by three Krauts towards Dog company Foxholes wasn't exactly the way she had wanted to do it. Was there any chance she could take cover with Dog company and get back to Easy without Speirs knowing? It was definitely a long shot!
Fin knew she was close now and she could now hear the three Krauts behind her. The battalion was spread so sparse that sometimes the Krauts would wander into their lines, luckily these three Krauts chasing her hadn't a clue how close they were to Dog company right now.
"Flash!" Fin called out.
She waited, slowing her pace, the last thing she needed right now was a hit from friendly fire.
"Thunder?" a confused voice came back, well, who could blame them? Dog company weren't exactly expecting her, or anyone really, except Krauts, but they weren't exactly going to announce their arrival.
Fin saw the Foxhole with two heads peering out. She slid along the ground, a slide that would make Buck proud. She slid into the Foxhole between the two shocked Dog privates. She took a second to catch her breath, smiling at each of them in turn.
"Good morning chaps, if it's no bother, could you help a girl out?" Fin asked casually, straightening her helmet " I seem to have got myself into a bit of a pickle" Fin pointed behind her as the three Krauts came into view.
"Fuck! it's Germans!" the one private cried scrambling to aim his weapon.
Bang, Bang, Bang!
Three shots fired rapidly from above them.
Fin looked out to see all three Krauts dead on the ground. She then turned and looked up to where the shooter was "Much obliged Sir" Fin thanked an unimpressed looking Lieutenant Speirs staring down at her.
"Check 'em and get rid of them!" Speirs barked at the two privates.
Fin flashed him a smile to receive a scowl in return. Well someone got out of the wrong side of bed this morning! Fin thought.
"Corporal Finney, on me now!" Speirs angrily ordered.
"Well there's a leading question!" Fin whispered to the two privates imitating Speirs back in Holland.
Fin winked at the privates and climbed out of the Foxhole, sauntering towards Speirs who had already started to walk in the direction of Easy company.
Fin stepped up her pace to keep up with him. If she didn't know any better, it seemed he was eager to get her back to Easy. Must have been the morphine then! She concluded.
"Dare I ask why I find you in a Dog company foxhole?" Speirs asked bluntly.
"I was Practising my slide, I'm going to be a baserunner after the war Sir" Fin replied bluntly.
"And the Germans chasing you?"
"They were pretending to be the baseball Sir"
"Now, we've got that out the way, the truth?!" Speirs questioned, grabbing Fin's arm and stopping her. He was not amused in the slightest.
"I was just following Lieutenant Dikes orders Sir" Fin replied, unaffected by Speirs' tone, but a little excited by his touch however rough it was.
"Lieutenant Dike... which idiot gave him a company to command!" Speirs muttered to himself looking away from Fin.
"I know Sir! Talk about turkeys voting for Christmas!" Fin quipped before realising she probably shouldn't have replied to his muttering, although she could have sworn that he smirked ever so slightly.
"What were your orders?" Speirs asked still with his head turned away, he got out his packet of cigarettes and took one out and placed it between his lips.
"To check those frozen Kraut bodies up front for med supplies Sir"
"On your own?"
"Yes Sir"
"Without your rifle?"
"Yes Sir"
"Without a winter coat?"
"Er... no Sir "
"Where's your winter coat?"
"I gave it to a replacement Sir"
Speirs sighed. "I'm glad you're not in Dog Company, you're a pain in the ass!"
"Well Sir, you're the one who had a pain in the..."
"Stop right there Corporal, I don't need another smart comment from you!" Speirs snapped interrupting Fin.
"Well, I'll just be on my way then Sir" Fin replied walking off.
"Wait!" Speirs ordered.
Fin stopped and turned around. Speirs removed his winter coat and held it out to Fin.
"No thank you Sir"
"Take it!" He ordered.
"I don't need it Sir, Doc is getting me one when he next goes to Bastogne" Fin refused folding her arms across her chest.
"When will that be?"
"Soon sir"
"Take it until he gets you one" Speirs replied stepping in closer to Fin for her to take his coat.
"No thank you Sir" Fin reaffirmed, she didn't want his coat, it would mean having to return it and if he was brushing her off, then she didn't want to see him again.
"God damn it woman! Take the coat you'll get far too cold!"
Fin stepped back and calmly addressed the Lieutenant "Sir, your coat is far too big for me, it would be a hindrance, I'll have my own coat later today." Fin looked him in the eyes "the only cold I'm feeling right now is your shoulder." Fin turned on her heel and strutted off back to the Easy lads.
...
Speirs watched Fin walk away, could he just let her go thinking it was the morphine talking in Holland? It would be best all round.
No he couldn't, but he would have to.
It wouldn't be fair on her, but then this could be the last time he ever saw her... they were at war. His feelings for her were far too strong to the point of obsession, he couldn't have her, but he could have her now. He would have to be selfish...
He removed his helmet dropping it on the ground, ruffled his hair and removed his unlit cigarette from his mouth. He quickly marched up to Fin and spun her around, she had a sly smile on her face and still that twinkle in her beautiful, blue eyes. He reached up and unfastened the strap on her helmet and pushed it off all the while stepping in closer, forcing her back until she was pinned between him and a tree. She held his gaze.
He brushed a strand of blonde hair out of her face and tucked it behind her ear, he was taking in every gentle feature of her face. She was perfect, even with the odd dirty smudge on her cheeks and forehead. He moved his hand to lean against the tree and cupped her face with the other, running his thumb along her full bottom lip. He could feel her heart pounding against him, this time with no one to disturb them, no one to walk in, no one to interrupt, he leant in and placed a gentle kiss on her lips.
He felt her arms wrap round his neck and pull him in tighter, her lips pressing harder into his, he returned her eagerness. He ran his hands down her body, desperately searching for her curves through her baggy field jacket, before finding the bottom and slipping them up and under, pulling at her shirt tucked in her pants. He ran his hands up her silky skin feeling the slight scar on her back, under her bra strap, leaving one hand there, he ran the other down to her lower back, pulling her against him. She ran her fingers up and into his hair, he parted her lips with his tongue, groaning in excitement, he wanted to explore every part of her. He moved to her lower jaw kissing and nuzzling until he reached her neck, sucking hard. She gasped in pleasure, turning him on even more. Finally he was feeling her and touching her more than anyone else here, more than Doc Roe when he stitched her back, more than Shifty when he kissed her in Eindhoven and more than that Sergeant in Lulu's. He had to stop though. He wanted to fuck her, but she deserved better than the front line, against a tree. He pulled away to see her puzzled expression.
"Why are you stopping?" she panted
"Just that little thing called a war that we're in the middle of, you know, annoyances like explosions!" Speirs smiled.
"Just adds to the excitement!" Fin smiled back.
"You deserve better than against a tree" he sighed stroking the side of her face.
"Stuff that, I'm really not that classy!"
"Yes you are, we will, but not here" he smirked.
Fin reached up and grasped his hand stroking her face, Speirs noticed her sleeve fall back and reveal her gold bracelet with the good luck charm, he smiled, she wore it.
"You like it then?" he said drawing her eyes to her wrist.
"It was from you?" She asked surprised
"Yes, I didn't like that talk about you running out of luck either" he smiled
"Thank you" Fin smiled back
"This is something Cara, not sure what to call it out here, but you're mine" Speirs said with conviction, for now he was going to forget England ever happened.
"I like the sound of that" Fin smiled.
"Come on, I'll escort you back to your foxhole" he said picking up Fin's helmet and carefully placing it on her head he attached the strap under her chin before replacing his own helmet.
They walked side by side stealing elated glances from each other.
"Cara, I wanted to talk to you..." Speirs hesitated as Fin raised her eyebrows in anticipation "...about Lulu's"
"They dragged me there Ron, kicking and screaming!" Fin blurted out in response.
"Yeah it looked like you were there against your will on that stage when me and Compton came in to drag your sorry asses back to base!" Speirs replied sarcastically
Fin looked away, not sure of what was coming next, she had no idea he had been there.
"Next time, you save those moves for me! And only me!" he said sternly with a smirk.
"Yes Sir!"
...
They had been in the Ardennes Forest a few weeks now, hastily deployed after the S.S Panzer divisions had broken through. The news came just in time to save their little AWOL group that had gone to Lulu's from Buck's wrath, but he hadn't really been that angry. Fin felt he had changed, she kept catching him staring into space.
Unfortunately, they had little ammunition, winter clothing, med supplies and food. Fin had been there a couple of weeks before her much awaited encounter with Speirs Ron, and now it had been another week since then. Lieutenant Dike, Easy's new CO kept her busy even though he never seemed to be around, Foxhole Norman the lads had nicknamed him. Fin didn't mind, his orders to her were just orders passed down. Speirs had spoken to Winters and Nix about finding Fin with Dog company after failing to find Dike. Winters and Nix did their best to cover for her, although slapping her wrist after Speirs had gone.
"How on earth did you find yourself with three Krauts?" Nix asked half amused half pissed off.
"They wandered from their line and came across me, I didn't go looking for trouble, I promise" Fin said actually telling the truth for a change. She was there, merely to observe, but being interrupted by the three Krauts who thought they could get a little frisky with her before taking her prisoner, she had failed her mission. "I'll go back"
"Unfortunately, you will have to, Sink is awaiting your intel" Winters sighed, he didn't like sending Fin out on her own. "Go get some rest" Winters ordered 'Oh and a winter coat!"
...
Fin lifted her head out of her Foxhole and squinted through the morning fog. She looked out towards the German line across the field, she'd be over there in a week or so again, this time to collect the intel and leave a little present, an extra order passed down, much to the disapproval of Winters and Nix. Easy were being hit hard, evidence of the previous nights hard shelling showed in the splintered trees and branches surrounding them. It had snowed again last night leaving a fresh white blanket over everything, it made everything look clean and new. Fin was knackered, her and Doc had probably run miles with the amount of 'medic' calls that had been screamed out. Shifty stirred beside her, he slept well, she didn't know how he did it. Fin felt like she was always sleeping with one eye open. Luz snored softly to her other side, he didn't sleep so deep, sometimes he'd move so much, Fin thought he'd be exhausted by the morning. Fin climbed out and went to look for Buck, he was becoming more and more withdrawn, she'd seen it before, shellshock. She wouldn't tell him though, not yet anyway, she'd just monitor him for now and be there for him.
Fin didn't have to look far, he was in his foxhole on his own, looking out. "Hey Buck!" Fin said gently as she approached him. Buck looked up slowly and smiled. "Can I join you?"
"Of course Fin, you're always welcome" Buck smiled. " You look cold, still no winter coat?"
"Doc tried for me, but nothing yet, I'm ok though, I keep moving around and Shifty and Luz keep me warm at night and I have a blanket" Fin reassured Buck as she climbed down next to him. Buck sat back and pulled Fin into a big hug and kept her there. Fin liked his hugs, he was warm and if she couldn't be in Speirs' arms to keep warm, then this was the next best thing.
"Where's your scarf?" Buck enquired.
"Gave it to a replacement"
"Would ya stop giving your clothes away Fin!" Buck scolded half heartedly
"It's my job to look after the men"
"Who looks after you though?"
"You do!" Fin said nuzzling her head into his chest.
Buck did like his visits from Fin. "Hey Fin, I keep meaning to ask you, how did you end up in this job, you said you didn't join up"
Fin laughed a little, she knew this question would be coming one day. "I was placed in a state orphanage. A man in a sharp, smart suit came in one day. We all thought he was there to adopt one of us. He asked to see any females from 15 years old to 16 years old. We all lined up and he immediately made a bee line for me. He asked me my name, my age, whether I spoke any languages and did I have any talents. I replied, Cara Rebecca Finney, that I had just turned 16, I spoke conversational French and was fluent in German and that I could sing and play the piano."
"Cara Rebecca...I like that" Buck said smiling.
Fin continued wanting to just get the story over with "He smiled at me, turned to the mistress and plainly said 'Her' I left the orphanage an hour after he had arrived. We left in a big black car, I'm not sure of the make and model, but it was posh. We arrived at our destination in Westminster. I was taken into a large building and down into the basement, which had been converted into offices and residential quarters for the staff. They sat me at a large table and told me that with no living relatives, the government was my legal guardian and that they were going to give me the greatest gift... a purpose in life. I signed the papers they put in front of me and here I am!" Fin finished.
"What did you sign?" Buck asked with deep concern.
"My life away" Fin murmured.
"Doesn't sound good Fin"
"Yes, it does, where would I be now otherwise? They trained and taught me skills I would never have known I had"
"Don't you want a normal life?"
'Yes, a break from this shit heap would be nice, I really don't like this damn cold!" Fin laughed "Why couldn't they have sent me to the Pacific theatre!"
"You don't speak Japanese!"
"Damn!"
They sat there in silence for a short while. Buck mulled over Fin's life, so far. He was shocked. She deserved a normal life, but he understood that while the war was on, no one was going to get a normal life and probably would never again. Too many were losing their lives. He'd return home one day and his neighbourhood would never be the same as he left it, how many of his neighbours would be missing?
"How is your sweetheart?" Fin asked breaking their comfortable silence.
"I haven't heard from her in a while" Buck said sadly, lifting his head and staring up into the broken tree canopy.
"There's been no post for a while, I'm sure you'll get a letter from her when it gets through again"
"I can't believe you don't have a sweetheart Fin, anyone in Easy catch your eye?" Buck asked diverting his attention from his sadness.
"I never mix work and pleasure Buck, but if I did it would be very difficult to choose!" Fin giggled. "How was good old Blighty?" Fin changed the subject as not wanting to completely lie to Buck.
"Didn't see much of it from the hospital, but it was nice to be in a proper bed. It was boring as hell, but the nurses were easy on the eye, so that helped!"
Fin laughed "Any particular nurse?"
"Couldn't choose, didn't want them fighting over me!" Buck joked.
Fin shivered, instinctively Buck pulled her in closer "I wouldn't expect anything less!" Fin replied.
"I'll tell ya who's a dark horse though!" Buck announced.
"Who?" Fin asked
"Speirs"
Fin went stiff.
"Had his own little doting blonde nurse and a pretty red head visitor on a daily basis. I thought he had a soft spot for you, but then I think everyone has a soft spot for you!" Buck pondered amusingly. "Then that red head perches on my bed one day while Speirs was being examined and told me she was pregnant and her and Speirs were getting married!"
Fin froze, her stomach churned violently.
"Never thought he had it in him, the sly devil!" Buck had no idea that the more he spoke, the more he slowly twisted the knife into Fin's heart. " She asked if I wanted to come to the wedding, but I couldn't get out of the hospital, I congratulated Speirs when we left Lulu's to get you lot back, but..." Buck paused "He shot me the most viscous look, so I changed the subject pretty quick, I tell ya!"
Fin couldn't move, she needed to move, she started to shake, Buck squeezed her thinking she was cold.
...
"Fin I'm going into Bastogne, ya oughtta come and see if we can get ya coat" Doc said grabbing Fin's arm and dragging her to the waiting jeep.
Fin had been in a daze the last week and a half. Buck's information had destroyed her to her very core. She didn't care any longer, not an ounce. She cared for the Easy lads, but that was it. She had no care for herself and it started to show. Her eyes had dark circles from lack of sleep, she had managed to drop too much weight in that short period of time, it didn't help that she walked the Easy line, checking on the men constantly. She did anything to distract herself. She would sleep on her own and stand outside her Foxhole when the shelling came, daring the Germans to hit her, but they never did. He had captured her heart and she let him. Don't fall in love that was part of her training there's no place in War for love, it'll distract you, don't let anything distract you. Feelings make mistakes...
"Fin" Doc sat next to Fin in the back of the jeep "Are ya ok, I've noticed that you haven't been yourself recently"
Fin turned to Doc "I'm fine" she replied softly.
The jeep started and pulled out when Winters stood in front of it "Fin, I need you here"
Fin got out without question and followed Winters "I'll see about that coat!" Doc called receiving no response from Fin.
Fin followed Winters to Nix's foxhole. Nix was peeping out as they arrived. "I'm sorry Fin, orders have arrived, they say you need to go now" Winters said with despair.
"What? Who is sending this shit through?" Nix snapped,.
"I don't know, but they seem to think that Fin doesn't need the cover of darkness!" Winters said.
"It's ok Sir, I can do it in the daylight, I'll go now" Fin said walking away.
"I'm a bit worried about her" Nix said
"Me too, I think they're sending too many missions through, she has her medic duties and the constant shelling, I think she's dealing with too much." Winters agreed.
"I'll speak to Battalion CP" Nix replied. Eve had rushed back to Aldbourne after leaving only after a few minutes. She didn't explain, just said that if Fin changed at all, to let her know, something had happened that was a little too convenient and Eve needed time to look into it. It was completely confusing, but he'd go along with it for Eve and for Fin, he'd send Eve a message as soon as possible.
...
Fin leant against a battered tree, she got out her pack of Lucky Strikes she'd won off Shifty in poker the night before and popped one in her mouth and lit it. She was well and truly becoming one of Easy now.
She was knackered, that intel gathering had been her hardest yet, she was pinned down in her hiding place, a very cold ditch, for a good 6 hours until she was able to get back to the American front line. Although she was able to swipe a bottle of Kraut wine while she was there, so not all was lost. She should really be getting back to Easy, but just needed to get her shit together before she did. It would start to get dark in a few hours and no doubt the shelling would start again, especially when the Krauts would become aware of the little present she left with them. She took a long drag and blew the smoke out, Eve style, seductively, Eve was fucking sexy when she smoked.
"Cara?"
Fin didn't look up, she knew who it was and she didn't want to look at him, she couldn't look at him.
"Cara? When did you start smoking? Thought you said they kill you?" Speirs asked surprised at the sight of Fin. She was smoking, he could see dried blood on the hand that held the cigarette, she looked thinner, she wasn't wearing her helmet and she still had no damn winter coat! he was worried.
Fin still refused to look at him "This War doesn't seem to be killing me, so I thought I'd give cigarettes a try" she said bluntly.
"Hell Cara! Why would you say such a thing?" Speirs asked growing more concerned by the second. He'd seen some of his men become a crumbling mess and Easy were getting the worst of the shelling, was Fin crumbling too? He walked up to her, desperate to hold her in his arms. Fin held out her hand to stop him, which he did. "Cara?..."
Fin looked at her watch then placed a finger to her lips and looked up at Speirs "Shh!" she instructed. She looked through him, refusing to ignite anything she had managed to suppress.
Speirs suddenly felt very fucking pissed off.
Fin continued to look through him as she held her hand out in front, dropping a finger down as she whispered "five, four, three, two, one..."
BOOM!
"How was it for you Jerry?" Fin asked out loud taking a drag from her cigarette, undeterred by the loud explosion coming from the German line.
Speirs didn't flinch, but did turn to the direction of the explosion.
"Did you have something to do with that?" he snapped his head back to Fin who had already left, walking away.
"Cara!" he shouted running after her. He caught up and grabbed her shoulder, turning her aggressively to face him.
Fin stood facing him, expressionless with the cigarette dangling from her lips. Speirs reached up and swiped the cigarette from her mouth, letting it fall to the ground.
"What the flaming hell do you think you're doing?" Fin snapped angrily.
"What the fucking hell do you think you're doing?" Speirs angrily threw back at her.
"Well I was enjoying a fag and fucking with Jerry" Fin replied nonchalantly
"What the fuck has got into you?"
"Not you!" Fin quipped
"Is that what this is about?"
Fin laughed! "If I need a fuck, there's a whole company waiting to oblige me!"
Speirs couldn't control himself, the mere thought of someone else fucking her boiled his blood and he snapped, he shoved her aggressively until she stumbled backwards into a tree. "Is this what you want? You're acting all crazy because you want me to fuck you?" Speirs spun her around and pressed her up against the tree, Fin winced silently from the Kraut wine crushing into her ribs from the inside of her field jacket. She laughed out loud instead, sending him further into his rage. He grabbed her hands and raised them above her head with one of his hands, pinning them against the tree trunk. He then spread her legs with his foot and pressed into her. With his free hand he reached round and fumbled with her pants. "Is this how you want it?" he hissed in her ear.
"If it's not rough, it's not love" Fin murmured.
He removed his hand from her pants and raised it; cupping her breast. He kissed the back of her neck, he slowly calmed. He released her hands, and she let them fall. He removed the weight of his body from hers. She turned around, he leant in again and tried to kiss her, but she turned her head "don't!" Fin ordered.
"I don't understand Cara, what's changed?" he asked noticing there was no twinkle in her blue eyes any more, only sadness.
"You did" Fin said gently "You became a husband and father" then she ran, ran so fast she didn't think it was possible, the cold air hurt her throat, her lungs were screaming from the fags. She was too malnourished to be burning this much energy, but she needed to escape him. She couldn't cry in front of him, she couldn't give him that. She fought the tears as she ran, she didn't stop until she got to Nix's foxhole. She stopped abruptly, composed herself. "Knock knock!" she called.
Nix drew back his cover and wearily looked up at Fin who crouched down. "Got you a present"
Nix raised his eyebrows as Fin produced a bottle of wine from the inside of her field jacket and handed it to him "Have a good night!" she flashed him a smile and sauntered off to Winters to deliver the intel she retrieved, from now on she would put on a front, no one would know of her heartache, she had given into temptation and she would never allow that again.
...
Fin never reached Winters before the shelling started again. She ran trying to find the closest foxhole. She was stopped by explosion after explosion, sending her in circles. She could hear the men shouting to take cover, she was blimin well trying! It was like the Krauts had targeted her, playing with her, bloody typical, when she had stood out hoping to be hit and now she didn't! A tree fell, barely missing her, she dived to the side and stood up, running in the opposite direction and then the screaming started as the shelling subsided. "MEDIC!" Fin forgot about a foxhole and ran towards the screaming. It was coming from the very front as she reached it she could see that the trees had been decimated and one of the foxholes was now in the open in the field. It was getting dusk, Fin looked out to see a body lying out in the open between them and the Krauts. The body was squirming and screaming in pain.
"It's that replacement Hudson!" Shifty said arriving quickly at Fin's side.
"We need to get to him!" Fin said running forward before Shifty grabbed her and held her back. More Easy men arrived all looking out at Hudson. Doc arrived and looked at Fin "He needs us!" Fin said to him. Lieutenant Dike now appeared with complete shock on his face. Fin wriggled free from Shifty and approached Dike. "I need to get to him, we can't leave him out there Sir! Provide covering fire so I can go!" Fin requested.
"No send me!" Doc pleaded over hearing Fin's request
Dike looked at them both, speechless.
"Send me Sir! I have no family, no parents, no children, no sweetheart, no one is waiting for me! These men are sons, brothers, boyfriends, fathers, husbands! Send me Sir!"
"No Fin!" Doc snapped.
Dike looked at them both "Fin go!" he ordered.
Before anyone could react, Fin had already ran out into the open towards Hudson.
"Covering fire!" Bill shouted as all the men threw themselves on the ground.
The Germans fired a mortar, it exploded next to Fin as she tried to reach Hudson. Speirs arrived at the clearing to see the mortar explode and Fin fly through the air and fall to the ground heavily, her helmet came off and her blonde hair fell loose from its braided bun. She didn't move, it was a few seconds, but felt like a life time. His heart stopped.
...
Fin sat up, shook her head. She could hear men screaming her name, but she had buzzing in her ears from the explosion. She quickly checked herself, patting her body, two legs, two arms, no holes. She got up and located Hudson again and ran towards him. She noticed the Krauts weren't firing at her. She reached Hudson and knelt down by him. "Hudson! I'm here, you're going to be ok." Fin quickly examined him. His leg was busted and he had a hole in his side. She needed to apply pressure so he didn't bleed out, this also meant she wouldn't be able to move him on her own. "Hudson are you able to listen to me?" she asked.
"Oh Fuck Yes!" he groaned.
"The Krauts are not firing at us, they're only firing at our line. They are preventing anyone else helping. This means that they are probably going to try and take me prisoner. I'm guessing they have noticed I'm female. I'm going to need your help."
"Fuck! Fuck! Corporal, what the fuck!" Hudson cried in panic "Fuck!"
"That's an awful lot of fucks private! I need you to stay calm!"
"Yes, I can...I think..." Hudson moaned in pain "...What can I do?" he gasped, looking alarmed.
Fin pulled out her side arm.
"I need to work on you; I need you to be my eyes, before you space out from the morphine, can you do this?" Fin asked administerring the syrette.
"Yes! What do you need to know?" Hudson asked becoming very aware of the seriousness of the situation, the adrenaline pumping through his body acting like a natural painkiller.
"If a Kraut gets within three feet of us, you need to tell me his position from your point of view, can you do that?" Fin instructed clearly.
"Yes" Hudson replied just as clearly.
Fin kept pressure on his wound, her side arm lay on the ground in reach. She was ready. Easy were firing and trying to move to their position, but the Krauts were pinning them down. Easy had also realised what was going to happen, the Krauts had seen Fin's long blonde hair as well and they weren't firing at her and Hudson.
"Nine o'clock" Hudson croaked, pain and fear etched on his face.
Fin grabbed her gun and with her left hand and aimed it over her right shoulder, still with her eyes focussed on Hudson's wound, she fired.
"You got him" Hudson informed Fin.
Fin dropped her side arm to the same position with both hands back on Hudson.
"Eleven o'clock and three o'clock"
Fin grabbed the gun fired over her shoulder, first at eleven o'clock before throwing the gun to her right hand applying her left hand to the wound and shooting over her shoulder at three o'clock, never once removing her focus from Hudson.
"You got them both." Hudson informed her.
Fin smiled at him reassuring him, "You're going to be fine! Easy are coming for us"
"I know, we're both going to be fine" He replied choking a little on his own blood.
A shot fired, slicing the side of Fin's jacket, it hit Hudson in the head.
He was gone.
Rage seared through Fin, she wasn't a medic any more, she returned to her instincts, she was an SOE Agent, to some extent again, agents were clever, not reckless, Fin became reckless.
She stood up and turned to the Germans running towards her, she walked steadily with her side arm out front, her hands dripping in Hudson's blood, firing at one, watching him drop, moving to another, firing, watching him drop, moving onto another, firing, watching him drop until she was out of ammo. She then threw her gun at one, it sliced through the air, striking the kraut across the face. She turned to the next pulling her knife, kicking him to the ground, she dropped down on top of him and stabbed him through the heart, she sprung to her feet and walked towards the next, how many lives were the German's risking just for hers? she moved without fear, without feeling, without consequence. She held her knife and swiped at the Kraut, he moved, she missed, Fuck! I'm losing my touch! he held up the butt of his rifle and slammed it into her head. Fin stood for a second before her arms dropped to her side, the knife falling from her grip. She felt the warmth of her own blood trickle down her face, then it all went black...
