Lost Love
I thought when I met Leopardheart, my troubles were all over.
But no. For as beautiful as she was, and how much I loved her, she still had to ruin it all. And if you think that I blame her, then you are wrong. I'm sure she had reasons. I'm sure...
I'll start at the beginning. I tried to get closer to her the moment I laid eyes on her, even when I didn't really understand stand how love worked. I thought it was just something that will go away eventually, even though I kind of liked the feeling.
But of course, the feeling didn't go away. It only grew stronger as life progressed. When we became apprentices, I tried everything I could to please her. I offered to hunt for her, chatted with her, all the good stuff. It took a long time, but eventually we became friends. She enjoyed my company, and I enjoyed hers. It seemed like all would turn out okay.
But Leopardheart wasn't really thinking of me as a mate, just a friend, which hurt me. I told myself to be patient, that love is a delicate thing, all those things everyone tells you about, but I was still frustrated. What was I doing wrong?
When we became warriors, and earned our names, Brackensoul and Leopardheart, of course, I was so excited. The chance has finally come! But my ethusiathm soon failed me. I noticed the way she'd hardly talk to be anymore, the way she acted like she didn't need me. I tried, but in the end, she became further to me than I had ever imagined: She lost interest in me and became in love with another tom. I was heartbroken beyond relief. All those moons of trying to win her over, wasted!
At least, that was what I thought before. Now, I noticed that she was happier than ever before. She even became friendlier towards me. I never had another mate, but now she was almost like one to me. I didn't know why, or how, but only on this clear, starry night did the answer finally appear to me.
She would have been happier without me anyways. I wanted her, but our relationship would be too strained, too one-way. By respecting what she really wanted, we were both better off.
