My Past and My Future Collide
Chapter 15: Going Into Detail
A/N: Okay before I go into the story I need to apologize about previous chapters. I do call Jenny Haley sometimes. I write an original story outside of fan fiction and well I was writing it well I was writing this one too get it done. So yeah Haley is the main girl in my original so that would be why sorry. If you read Haley say JENNY in your head even though lots of you detest her with really strong words. This chapter is a little different. No dialog. First half is Mitchie and all her feelings in some detail. Then Just Shane and all his thoughts explaining them because they are confusing to him. We know they both have a lot to think about it will be about 1000-2000 words I'm guessing fairly short. I want to lay them flat out like a pancake for the next chapters to come people will hate me but I'll love it and if you want to rant go ahead I work up and there are Happy Endings⦠eventually. Enjoy the story here is chapter 15:).
It was Saturday about Breakfast time but Mitchie was still in bed. She was a rollercoaster of emotions herself. It all hit her this morning waking up. She had a headache and it was killing her. She was finally going to crack. Sure she was getting some out with singing but everything else was there bubbling up inside and it was going to explode.
Caitlyn had woken Mitchie up to get her to go to breakfast but she refused and stayed curled up in her bed. She told Caitlyn to tell Trevor she is sorry but she needed to be alone. She sighed knowing what it was she was confused herself, but there were three main things. Trevor, Aaron and as much as it poisoned her to think of him, It was Shane.
First she was thinking about the blonde hair, emerald eyed boy who was her current boyfriend. No question she was falling for him, however quite slowly. She could trust him and she knew that much. They didn't know everything not even close to half the things about each other but they had a connection that was strengthening their bond that was noticeable.
He has never lied to her that she knows off but he seems pretty honest. He tells her straight up what he's feeling and never beats around the bushes. He will get to the point so they have more time to be together as the couple they are. She does smile at this because she does like Trevor, just one question why is she always saying it. If she knows it then why does she feel the need to keep saying it, almost like she is trying to convince herself about it and that it is true.
She always questions herself and it is bad because now she is confused about anything right now. Trevor well it was him for sure. He straight up tells her what's on his mind and asks what he wants to know, like the Shane thing on Friday morning. He never suspects her questioning their relationship but why would she tell him that. It's not that she was all the time but it was certain times like this that she needed to think it through.
Was their relationship what she really wanted? Was it right? Was it the future? Would the past find a way back to her or was she letting it go? If she was letting it go why was it causing so much emotions running through her body in a never ending course of twist and turns?
The next emotion was the weird and wonderful ones about the hottest male counselor ever. Aaron. She knew of him last summer as all the girls talked about him, being so hot and irresistible. She usually just ignored it until well she saw him this year. Wow he was fine they were not kidding.
It was sort of embarrassing meeting him though, and awkward. It was the past Tuesday if you all remembered she had to go ask a male counselor for a condom and only the hottest one ever had to answer the door. The shocking thing was he actually had some. She knew there was strict rules at camp one was no fornication (sex) but seriously we were teenagers, when would we listen and follow the rules really?
He was so.., she didn't know how to describe him, attractive in every way. Aaron's skin was tanned to a perfect shade of gold. He was well tones and muscular at the height of about 6"2. He towered over many people and camp. His smile was really bright and he flashed it all the time. The girls would go crazy and were lucky if he would talk to them. Guess she is one of the lucky ones he ever talks to.
She however felt anything but lucky. She was with an amazing boy, Trevor, you remember him right? Well they were together. Yet Aaron seemed interested in her and well she probably could become interested in him to. Then again there was Shane who liked her so much and she fell for him, fast too.
Aaron however, yesterday night was interesting. He really was hot when she got to look at him, like really looked at him. He was directly on top of her. It was weird and sexual tension was running like electricity all through her body. She was ready to melt when she realized she was in like nothing. So now Aaron showing interest I mean she thought liking Trevor getting over Shane would be a little bit easy, well boy was she wrong.
Aaron was now interested so now she had three she could pick from. Well not really, she already did pick, Trevor but was it the right choice? Aaron so handsome and interested and well drop dead gorgeous plus she was worthy of him talking to her, Tess couldn't even talk to Aaron.
Mitchie was a closed up bottle with everything going right and wrong in her life. She liked Trevor, liked Shane and well wanting to know if something was there with Aaron but she wouldn't do that to Trevor ever. Was there anything wrong with flirting? Really she needed to know?
Now thinking about Aaron she wanted to scream. She covered her face with a big fluffy pillow at screamed at the top of her lungs. Why did everything pile on her especially involving like 3 of the hottest guys ever? She drifted out of Aaron mode and was put into one she didn't want to think about but has to, Shane Gray mode.
Shane. Just the name made her shiver. She didn't know if that was a good or bad thing, she was thinking it was bad, but she didn't know why. His eyes were that gorgeous brown and made her lost for hours. His long dark hair always hot no matter what it looked like. His tight white pants and signature head bands damn there was no way he meant nothing to her.
He was always there and she knew it. She tried so hard not to let it get to her but it did and she knew it. She knew she liked him to a certain extent. Not as much and she currently like Trevor and she denied it but there was no way something wouldn't come back when he returned it all words and that scared her.
She was thinking about what they went through last year tears coming to her eyes. How they got so close even after they had fought after beach jam. It was horrible but it was over. They talked all the time and for him to not come and leave her without seeing him was horrible and her tears were stinging her eyes so she blinked letting them slip slowly down her face. Now she found Trevor but she wasn't over Shane it would come back she finally understood that but was he over her.
He wasn't we all know that but she didn't. She knew he could have another girl in a second but did he want that? Did he still even want to try to talk to her? She knew they needed closure in some way and maybe they wouldn't get back together but I think deep down she knew that's what she wanted but she wouldn't let her heart believe it but would Shane be able to get her to admit it or was he forgetting about her and moving on denying his feelings as well?
She hears a knock on her door she didn't know you would knock. She felt like crap but rubbed her red puffy eyes and tucked her hair behind her ears. She opened the door and too her surprised tear stained eyes there he was.
It was around 8 on Saturday morning in New Jersey. Shane woke up seeing Jenny no longer beside him and sighed. She probably went into her room in the middle of the night. He was so mad that they didn't kiss but maybe it was because he was occupied. He wanted to don't get him wrong he was almost begging to but didn't. He could've done it faster but his first kiss with Jenny should not be rushed and it should happen right?
His mind was preoccupied by her all the time now. When he is watching TV, sleeping, talking to his parents or friend and well he's a teenage boy, so even in the shower damn some of them got steamy. She was always in his mind, a permanent picture but why? He liked her, no more use denying it he did and it came so easy, almost effortless.
It wasn't just her looks and body well they helped a little, okay a lot but still. She was slightly shorter then her which was okay. Her long blonde hair was natural and didn't look fake, like all the other blondes out there. Her legs were long and slim and so gorgeously shaped. He loved her legs. She was slim so she was tiny in his arms. Her smell, vanilla, intoxicated him to a point that's all he wanted to smell. He would by vanilla candles and light them if he had to.
He couldn't forget about her breasts either. So firm, plump and perky and fit in his hands like a puzzle. He groped her but damn he wish he could again, typical teenage guy though. Her personality he thought was a plus to. She was always fun to be around and well that was good and didn't act like he was famous. He thought about her body and a naked picture flew into his mind and his blankets slightly rose. DAMN! Thank god she wasn't there with him he would hate to have to explain that to her.
He sighed wanting it to fall so badly but the tightness in his manhood was fun it hasn't happened in like forever. He doesn't usually let himself do anything like that. He was about to reach down when pictures of Mitchie floated into his head and he just got more tightness. NO! He wanted to scream, he would not touch himself it wasn't right especially thinking of Mitchie when Jenny got him hard in the first place. It wasn't a normal morning hard.
He took deep breath calming down and soon the tightness loosened and the blankets feel along with his man hood but Mitchie was on his mind now and he couldn't get her out. Jenny was there with him, and liked him a lot. He was attracted to her and had feelings but was she a rebound?
He knew he didn't want her to be but the truth was he thought she was close to that. Yeah he wanted to kiss her but Mitchie was in his head. He was still in love with her no doubt about that. However Mitchie was far away Jenny was there maybe that's why he was drawn to her.
Mitchie was for him right? Her long slim body carried her in a way that was indescribable. She now let people know who she was and wasn't afraid of it and he loved that about he. In some way he had something to do about that. He was sort of with Jenny and Mitchie was in his mind.
He sighed as he remembered all the pictures and video knowing Mitchie was over him it was true and he had to except that. He thought of Jenny and knew he could settle for her. Maybe not be 100 percent satisfied but she was his second choice. He played the almost kiss one more time in his head and no he would have to for now. However he was now thinking in two weeks he might have to leave and go to the known world on Camp Rock. He sighed then he heard Jenny walk into his room and he pretended to be asleep.
She crawled into his bed up close to him and he snaked his arms around her smiling. Maybe he didn't have to force himself to settle for second best, he read his feelings wrong, okay he was falling for Jenny, hard and he liked her no question. What was he going to do? They were both for him but which one was he destined to be with only he could answer that but he was even telling himself he couldn't answer that.
A/N: I know it's not the best but it lays outs their feelings in basically a nut shell and some teenage boy humor so yeah. Please keep reading. Thank you for all the reviews, Read and review. Sorry for errors. And just over 2000 words
~Kim
